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Thank you Shiny xxx

Yes you are right, the ups and downs in recovery. It is never ending roller coaster ride. To go down 100mph is scary, but I always know I will go bk up. I do accept this ride of my life.

So diary,

Today the triangle of Time - Location -Money has helped me to keep on the right track. This time it worked for me and brought positive results.

Time - Day off

Location - calm and peaceful place to be

Money - to be able to fill the tank up to get to that location.

I needed all three of them to strengthen my belief and understanding of myself...to stay on the right track and accept my life and past harmful decisions.

The nature, the sea, which offered me peace with myself and my soul.

Simple things in life can bring much joy, and as long as I keep on the right track, I will make it possible... to reach for them and stay with them.

No gambling today

Day at a time

S x

http://youtu.be/KXaYGWv4WSg

Hi wee pal,

What a lovely, positive post. I think the time/money/location recipe is ingrained in my brain too- I'm glad it is!

Enjoy what's left of the weekend.

Take care

Irene

x

Hiya Sandra

Just dropping in to say thank u for continuing to think about me that truly means a lot, really happy that ur ok and still goin strong, still often think bout u and other that helped my recovery

For that I will be eternally grateful

Take care

Castle2

Morning Sandra

Thanks for the reply and emailing is fine would be nice to keep in touch not quite sure how we go bout that

Also couldn't see anything of Rachael part from an obscure thread which didn't make much sense, I hope she is ok and if ur in contact with her would u kindly pass on my best wishes

Castle2

Yo,

Thank you for your post Hun.

I know ..........

I am ok bout dad, I miss him like you would not believe, but know he is smiling watching me plant Lilly of the valley bulbs today , a bigger smile will erupt if they actually grow 🙂

Shiny xxxxxx

Ps they were my mums favourites 🙂

Hope this start of the week is treating you well Sandra, and well done for taking those steps to find understanding and balance while recovering from this disease. You are right, it is all about making decisions not to gamble.

I also love your video, and a cool band too. It reminds me a bit of the kind of waves that have been hitting the West Wales coast where I live over the winter!

Keep taking each minute, hour and day at a time, and keep striving towards that future that is better than the past!

Ryan

Thanx guys xx

Shiny, your light is shining through even in the darkest places, and ur soul is something special, keep it up dear fighter, you are being watched from the above and every step you make is guided by the light xx

Well,diary, aother day g free and I am moving forward..slowly, patiently and certain,

Some breakthrough happening in my life recently. Analysing every emotion and feelings. Accepting things I cannot change, and feeling greatfull and blessed to change the things I can.

Gonna leave my diary to collect some dust for a while, but am always reading and will defo keep giving the best I can offer - support and understanding.

I am very greatfull for all your support dear fighters, every single one of you are in my heart, and I just want to thank you for understanding, patience(u needed a lot with me lol) and support. I feel I grown up here in this lovely community, been looked after and understood in every step I made.

Some things I have to take on a chin by myself, to do the dirty job and face my fears. I afeel confident and strong enough to do so.... and slowly progress is being made. Progress not perfection....all I know I wouldn't of been here if not all of u by my side dear soldiers. Thank you again.

Will speak later

All the best

Day at a time

Upwards we go!!!

Sandra xx

Hi Sandra, thanks for the support the other night, I'm glad you gave me that advice when you did, feeling positive again.

Not so positive on cc though still on 500 lol

Take care x

Happy to see you're still fighting the good fight, Sandra. I so admire how you keep at it and also support You rock!

Hi Sandra

Thank you for all the support and advice you have given me, you and MrBrightside are a real inspiration to many on this sight. You give so much support and for me at times are the driving force to keeping me going. Day at a time you say and have embedded it into my thought pattern 🙂 small things you may think but help so much.

Hope you are doing well and have a lot of love and happiness in your life, you deserve all the good things for your massive heart and support to others.

Hey all,

Thank u so much....looks like i will not b getting to page 50 anytime soon lol lol

Keep out off the streets and trouble guys...i am watching ya lol 😉

All good in my little world. Day at a time

Take care all..will speak soon

S x

Hey Sis,

There's no chance of me roaming the streets tonight! Thanks for lighting in and giving me a boost. Waving at you from my little planet. -joanxxx

Not sure how it is wherever you are tonight, but the main threat on the streets around the west coast is heavy rain and wind that is so strong I had to use both hands to close the car door earlier!

Well done on continuing to avoid the plague of gambling, and I hope all is still well with you.

All the best

Ryan

Thank you guys...xxx

.....hmmm...and here we go again. Tiredness, stress and both together..great mix....

..i can cry about my past, i can cry of a loss of loved one, i can cry about my future...hmmm...but i am not ready to cry about my job..no f*****g way i let them to get to me...not now...not today...

s**t day..but it will pass..it has to...slowly..breathe breathe and stay in control.

No gamble...no..i don't need it in my life...not now not today.

Sigh....

(((Sandra))) Stay strong, girl! You are a beacon for the rest of us. You've come such a long way. Stay the course. We are proud of you. You can do this! Talk to yourself when that work stress is getting to you. I know it's hard to do in the moment, but it is possible to talk yourself in a way that manages the feelings more positively (and I'm talking to myself here too)! Fighting with you...