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Sandra. Just thought I would stop by. You're right people (me) stop posting because they're gambling again. It's weird but whilst I have no intention of starting again, I know that if I slip, the only way to get back on track is to get onto this forum. There is a sense of shame that you have slipped, but as you say this forum and these diaries are for us. We can post anything that helps us. To write is to talk and for some of us that is all we have in the way of therapy. I don't always post on your thread, but I always read what you write because it helps me. You don't have to respond, no one does ! That's the beauty of this site we help each other by just being here! , you rant on all you like because your rant is nothing more than most of us think at some time or another. Keep on fighting this awful addiction xxx

Thank you all xx

Diary,

Since it is my place to put my thoughts down. I start feeling a bit uncomfortable here...of course i will keep fighting and supporting others!!! That's why i'm here...

It is just not very pleasant to read few posts at the min..

Only my opinion...on MY diary...no comments or attacks needed :-)..pls...

Will post tomorrow, still calm...just...lol...3 days in a row..miracle happened!!!

Stay safe, strong and determined all

S x

Day at a time...

...and i will not gamble today!!!!!

Sandra.

True words my dear friend.

If you want to exchange details email, I would be happy

Unconditionally.

DF and I share the same, it's about looking out for one another.

Take care

Duncs.

Sandra

I have gone to the contact gamcare( top of the page) and requested to exchange email if you do the same the moderators will oblige.

The most important thing is your continuous recovery, you are not alone.

Duncs.

Hey Duncs...

I think i've done it first :-))

Speak later, thank you very much. You are a star 🙂

Stepping forward never back !!

S x

Hi Sandra,

You are one of the many influential, honest and wonderful supporters off this site. I always look forward to seeing how you are getting on cause you just tell it as it is which can be difficult for some.

Be safe and have a belter of a weekend.

Del x

Hey Sandra

Hope you are well. I have not gone quiet, in fact, I have been on here loads since being off with my chest infection. Don't worry, I am going nowhere in a hurry.

Take care and have a lovely gamble free weekend.

Feb.

Hi Sandra,

Well done on continuing to be gamble free and staying calm and happy in recovery. In terms of gambling issues, while no news is good news, it is still vital to keep that guard up. Gambling is a dirty fighter, so while you're giving it the finger with one hand, punch it in the gonads with the other!

Ryan

Just to add to the previous post, I hope you find adding boxing to your exercise routine fulfilling. Whenever I get it in my head to really get fit and lose weight, I usually hang up my heavy bag, and boxing plays a big part of the exercise. If you have a garage or a shed, I'd definitely recommend it. It is great for getting rid of anger and frustration. I used to try and combine it with skipping, which is another traditional boxing exercise, but my co-ordination was never good enough to get my feet over the skipping rope!

Hi Sandra... you must be into your 4th day of feeling calm. What wrong with you??? 😉

I'd ruffle your hair if we met in the street. Then you'd prob slap me round the face lol Happy days.. S.A 🙂

Hey all,

Thank you for the posts!!! xxx

Heh heh SA, am still laughing at ur post...me and my rants lol, giving u all some rest lol 😉

Dear diary,

Day 124, miracle still happening, feeling calm with myself. Taking my fitness to the next level and doing some work on boxing lol. All body in agony, but let so much frustration and anger out, that leaving myself calm and smiling after lol ..and it keeps me away from trouble.

Great, I love peace and simple things in life. No stress, just a way to success!!!

Take care all

Day at a time

No gambling today, off for the run!!

S x

....hey diary,

Well, just bk from running, bloody wind!! It was more like walking than running lol...since I had double time to complete my distance, few random thoughts entered my head...

First 20min thought about our dear friend Rachel. I hope you ok darling. Either if u don't post anymore, your fighting spirit is still here (((( R )))). I can still c u swearing and shouting while driving on M6...our little bowling superstar 😀 xx

Another random thought which followed was food lol ( sorry girl lol ).. I am hungry - starving in fact...

I just thought I put it down on my diary lol..

Random thoughts for random people heh heh..

Right, off to tackle the kitchen, watch out ppl, Sandra playing with fire !!;-)

P.s. at least no random gambling thoughts!!!! Keep fighting dear soldiers.

Crazy S over and out lol

P.P.s RANDOM -will b word of the week 🙂

Ok...let cooking begin 🙂 xx

Hi Sandra

Thanks for the support on my diary, I don't have the time to write when I'm working but I still come on and read the diaries, and it's such a great feeling when people take the time to offer kind words of support. It's time I did more.

Glad your doing well with both the abstinence and cc, I'm still on level 500, been playing pyramid solitaire saga, not as good though lol.

Keep up the good work and take care x

Thank you all xx

Dear diary...no sleep again. Thoughts are racing through..

Still fighting still kicknig this desease...

Day 125 i will not gamble this minute, next hour, today

S x

Yo,

Just sending you a hug .

Why cos can hear your frustration, have a few good days feel real progress is made then shocked when the not so good days come .

And wonder w*f , will I ever get off this roller coaster .

I suppose my view is it took me over 50 years to become that person, the one which let her addictions rule her life. That the behaviours that went with that are in ground. So will it take another 5o to learn different behaviours , who knows but what I do know is for me the good days start to outnumber the bad.

It does not happen over night but it does happen.

Just have to continue going forward with the journey, cos going backward ain't an option .

You are doing brill my friend ,

Keep on keeping on ,

Shiny xxxxxxx