Going to keep this thread now!

Hi Freda,

Hope all's well and you're enjoying week off work

Will be joining you in the job-hunting sooner than I thought.The 'Bishop Brennan' trick didn't work in the end - did something I've never done in 30 years of work life and picked up my coat and walked on Thursday.Signed off for 2 weeks by GP right now but decided the ****ards won't grind me down any more - have some time now to think but I reckon decision already made.My Dad's mate had this saying ' the higher a monkey climbs, the more it shows it's a**e' and that just about sums up my boss. I can't understand the mentality of getting a kick out of upsetting people but some people are just like that and best avoided.

Here's to better times ahead

Kay x

thanks Del and Kay,

There seem to be a lot of people out there behaving very badly in the workplace, right now. Simply because they can. They know that someone will only leave their job right now if they are absolutely desperate.

I was very tempted to gamble today whilst out and about. Didn't want a "session", just a little play. We all know things can turn into a session very quickly though right? I didn't succum, but I guess its just more likely to pop into my head when I have a week off, and I am a free agent. I will be on my guard this week.

I'm glad I didn't for lots of reasons, but also because it would have stopped me reaching the 8 week mark which is rather good 🙂

Hiya Freda 🙂

Good to hear you didn't succumb, I know what you mean about a little play, I did that last year, it was a little play, it didn't turn into a session...and I thought that it didn't do me much harm, and financially it didn't.

Previous to that I had a year and half gamble free and I was starting to have days and weeks were I just didn't think about being a cg, or about gambling.

That little play for me actually did do me harm on reflection. Started playing scratchies and lottery and I'm basically back to having gambling at the forefront of my mind. I would like the freedom again of not having to think about it, like you said about the ciggies.

By the way, well done on giving up..I just can't kick them. Many failed attempts!

Looking forward to your eight week mark! A massive achievement.

Hug Del x

Hi Freda and well done for not giving in to temptation. I find that occasionally I have moments when i really can't remember why i can't have a little gamble.. the memory of past losses fades quickly.

And good stuff on the run (you mentioned in my diary) and like you say its very different form of exercsie to say swimming. If you can keep running for say 20 minutes or more 3 times a week youl notice a big difference in fitness and endurance within a month. Running gets me feeling very alive.. not alot else gets me feeling that way. Keep running and well done on the gambling free time.. S.A 🙂

Thanks kay,del and SA 🙂

I swam a whole mile this morning! woop woop! first time I ever achieved that. when I went back to my locker, I noticed I had chosen number 64. Weird, must have been my day to cra ck the mile. (it takes 64 x 25m lengths to equal a mile).

Feeling good but knackered! Am just making the most of this energy and enthusiam, as I find that it comes and goes. I swam for a whole hour, so I will need to rest up tomorrow I think, expecting some achy muscles.

No gambling thoughts really. Today is day 59 and I will not gamble!

Hi Freda.

Just want to pop in on your diary and say hi.

Don't think i've posted on here before so its about time i do.

Have read some of your diary.

I know you have had your ups and downs when it comes to beating this addiction but just want to say well done on your 59 days gamble free.And well done for never giving up!

And ofcourse your swim.Fair play.

Anyway won't go on anymore.

All the best.

Viggo.

Hi Freda,

Well done with the swimming - It's something I used to do a lot but just stopped - need to start again - apparently the best exercise you can do.

Been decorating this week to keep busy but getting a bit lonely and talking to myself and the cat so local pool sounds like good idea and a bit more sociable.

59 days back on the non-gambling wagon is great - well done

Kay x

60 days and counting freda.keep it going..high fives all round,we can do this 😉

Hey guys, thanks very much for the posts of encouragement. They mean a lot!

I'm not as achy as I expected today, but feeling tired so just having a rest day - maybe a run tomorrow morning, we will see.

I still notice the depression lurking in the background a little, but am keeping it at bay. Was supposed to go with hubby to meet up with his family this morning, but didn't feel up to it. That is the depression talking. I don't find social stuff all that easy, and was out with other members of his family last night, so I'm still making the effort and pushing myself socially. You have to walk before you can run though, right?

Today I won't gamble. Looking forward to hitting the 9 week mark on Monday.

Hi Freda.. great stuff on approaching 9 weeks. Did you go for that run? Ive had a good run this morning.. am feeling good. Its helped my well being.

I relate to what you say about the depression lurking in the background. Mine is quite bad at the moment and the anxiety and the tiredness and the stress... and so the list goes on lol

So I forgive myself for my thoughts of gambling.. its only to be expected.

Well done for making the effort socially. I did to last night though fell quiet and felt awkward at times as it was people i hadn't seen for a long time. Like you say it can feel a bit stressy. Cheers for now.. S.A 🙂

Hiya Freda,

Just popping in to say hiya 🙂 I'm going to get back to the swimming,..you've inspired me.

Although I think if I did a mile I'd probably end up in an ambulance 🙂 Hope the depression is manageable, I've suffered from it from childhood. Can be a struggle sometimes, but I know the exercise is a sure way to keep it on a level.

Congratualtions in advance for tomorrow, your doing brilliantly.

Love Del xox

Thanks Del and SA 🙂

I didn't go for the run yesterday, but I did go swimming again! another mile. Felt really good 🙂 I was overweight as a kid, and into my teens so I was never very fit. I didn't like PE as it was embarrassing, getting tired so quick and going like a beetroot trying to drag my fat a s s round. My family are all mostly overweight and sedentary in their lifestyles, and always have been. So I never thought I would be 'fit'. It is nice to change something you thought couldn't be changed.

I went for a run this morning, but had to keep switching to walking as I was too out of breath. However, as long as the old heart was pumping like crazy I know I am improving my fitness levels 🙂

Feeling not too bad, although sad Im back to work tomorrow. Will just trundle on, and make the best of it.

Tomorrow is day 63 - 9 weeks bet-free.

I am not making progress in all the ways I would like, but I am still making progress nonetheless.

Chiming in to say good work!

thanks urgh!

9 weeks - get in!!!!!!

Happy 9 weeks freda!

Roll on 10 weeks and day 70. Isn't life great when we do not gamble!