Going to keep this thread now!

That`s my girl . Btw I am now a great uncle to Evie Rose . Not into babie , could never eat a whole one , lol . However it is one of my nephews baby , he also is a Godson .

Amyway my friend , we both know that gambling sucks. Keep on with the abstention.

Great stuff Freda 🙂

Love Del

I've just read loads of this post and plan to keep up to date as just reading the progress and support from other is inspiring me too!

Hi Freda.

Thanks for posting on my diary the other day. It is always nice to hear some kind words.

I'm glad to see that you also managed to resist the temptation to gamble a few days back. As long as we keep making the right decisions when those urges come along then we will be just fine.

Enjoy the sunshine!

Hello Freda, very well done for resisting temptation. What great strength of character and determination when you were feeling weak. Unfortunately I didn't, after a period of 4 months abstinence. I am now feeling at my lowest point for some time. I am full of self pity, self hatred, feelings of failing, letting myself and others down, £1,550 worse off financially, unable to sleep, head in utter turmoil, feelings of anger, guilt and remorse and unable to think or see clearly where I am going next. Suffice to say, you made the right decision. Perhaps time for a re-read of your earlier posts as a reminder of what gambling is all about? I wish you well and hope you can get back in touch with what brought you here in the first place.

Thanks to all who have posted, its really touching : )

you make a good point simon, I have gotten a little lost along the way. My determination isn't really there any more. I know I can't gamble, because eventually it leads to massive wastes of money. I have spent £300 in a day on online bingo before, and to me, that amount is shocking. I have no doubt that had I had access to larger funds I would have spent them, and in this strange way it was probably really good for me that I was unemployed and unable to get credit.

My biggest binge since I started trying to give up was £75 I think. Which is still ridiculous money to waste. strangely, being married now does help, because although I can do this to myself, I find it hard to do it to my husband. He doesn't deserve it.

Anyway, 2 weeks since my last bet. I can do this!

Hi Freda... interesting what you say about "being married does help". Ive often noticed that those who do go on to remain gamble free for many years do tend to be married or in long term relationships. I'd imagine that the reasons for that are to do with the "support" but perhaps also from the accountability that comes from being in a relationship. Having said all of that many people in long term relationships are also addicted to gambling so maybe at the end of the day it does all come back to "Self".. well in fact it definately does in my opinion.

There is one recovering Cg who Ive met through Ga who brings out this point. As far as i am aware he's always been more or less on his own (not through choice I think) but he hasn't gambled for more than 20 years. He is the clearest example of someone who has stopped gambling because he wants to stop gambling and not for anyone else.

Anyway sorry am rambling in your diary. You can do this. I can do this. Happy days.. S.A 🙂

Hiya Freda:-)

Thank you for the message, everything you say is so true.

I re read my rant and it made me laugh...I would love to say what I really think when I'm talking to folk round my way.....I think when I'm in old age I will be like the irish version of catherine tates granny character....:-)

..and yes..the film is s**t, I fell asleep to it again lol.

So glad everything is going in the right direction for you.

Big Hug

Del x

Freda glasd to hear that you are back and working hard again.

Reading the posts i tend to agree,please dont slink into the shadows its hard for everybody if we dont hear from people who we care and respect for the help that they give to others.

Stay in contact and keep working hard,if you take the job be honest,these young chaps in retail love to rush around but the customers come back because the staff are friendly and helpful not just productive!!

x

What a lovely message Lee 🙂 I'm glad someone feels helped by my ramblings!

I am just checking in, to say that I am coming up for 3 weeks since my last bet, and am doing ok. Its working for me just now, to not think too much about gambling and just focus on life.

I will swing by some diaries in the next few days to give my love.

Thanks to everyone for their posts 🙂

Read a lot of this diary and I can really understand where Freda is coming from.

I too have tried since January 2009 to stop gambling online in particularly on fruit machines.

I have been largely successful, but unfortunately still generally gamble £40 or so a month. This is much better than the £500 + a month I was doing.

I have come to the conclusion, I will always be a gambler and now channel all my energy on keeping it under control.

Yes I have gone 6 months or so without a gamble but always end up then going on a binge and gambling £200 or so.

I now have one account, a £10 weekly limit and largely I stick to that. Yes again I have over the past 2 and a half years had 4 or so £200 sessions, but I then go back to my strict £10 a week limit.

Since Jan 2009, I have become very tight with my money, saved thousands and paid off thousands of my debt, but I still find myself spending that £10 a week.

I have turned my life around and am at about 95% of where I want to be, yes I would love to stop the gambling altogether and be at 100%, but I don't see that happening and gambling no longer affects my way of living, I always put away at least 10 times into my savings as I gamble.

I no longer beat myself up over it because I know I have come so far.

Freda yes you've lasped a few times, but you should never beat yourself up over it. Think of the start of this diary and how much money you were wasting on gambling and how much you have gambled since then.

You too have come a very long way and should be proud of yourself for having largely kept this horrible addiction under control.

Steve 🙂

Hiya Freda,

Just popping in to day hi and see if your alright....all seems okay...good stuff:-) Big hug for you too.

Del xo

Hi Freda

just popping by to say hello, glad to see you are doing okay 🙂

Life is what we make it and you are doing a grand job there.

Lots if love

W xxx

Hiya Freda,

Just saying hello and hoping all going well for you.

Love Del xo

Hi Freda.. how goes it?.. I hope that collegue of yours is not giving you too much grief. Talking of work I could do with one of your cyber kicks up the pre-verbial a**e for me to find another job. One of these days I will find a job that doesn't stress me out so much.. here's hoping.

Take care.. S.A 🙂