groundhog day

Another day cleared, and a bit of a better one. Even been out for a bike ride for the first time in years. Trying to forget about the footy starting on sat, not easy like when it's all anyone wants to talk about!

But I am determined to be ready for it.

Hi mark howz tricks mucker.am cool still betfree as it stands.like you sat is going to be hard but I am confident I will come through

this weekend and remain bet free.i dont need it anymore,i know it

myself,just have to train my brain into knowing it lol dig deep this weekend mate and make sure you stay away because remember even if we won

5k at the weekend it would eventually go back to them and much more. 🙁 we will never win because we can never STOP.

Scottyboy

Hi markie

The positives will come

Each day of abstaining makes us stronger and therefore more positive the aftermath is s**t but it won't be forever as long we we continue to abstain and maintain and that has to be positive

Stay strong taking one day at a time

Suzanne xx

Day 23 almost done. Just thought that's easily the longest I've ever gone without a bet. Ive had clear periods before and not felt the compulsion but knew it was never going to be long until I gambled, and always had the thought that I could control it 'next time' yet really knowing I couldn't. The only difference this time is that I found this site, and that sick lost feeling of not thinking it was possible to stop is receding thanks to all the wonderful people who share their journeys and successes.

Day 24 is the sh*****t so far. The effects of my gambling debts are way more far reaching than I thought, I have lied to the mrs about the scale of it and she has lied to me too. I hate self loathing but I can see no light at the end of this tunnel, hate the thought of bringing a child into the world and not be able to provide for it, but that is going to happen.

Hi mark

Sorry to read you are having a s**t day

Yes these debts that we are left with affect all areas of our life but they can be paid off even if it's slowly

That is why we have to abstain and maintain so we can pay them off and not add any more debt which is not even worth thinking about keep pushing through this mark life will get easier the more days we put in

Stay strong and safe

Suzanne x

Don,t no what to say mate. They no easy fix, we just have to deal with the concequences and hopefully come out the other end in a better place.

stay strong mate

UP THE BORO

Day 25 almost over and still clean. I hate self pity and loathing so made sure I had a better day today, tried to forget the mountain of problems at least for a bit.

still slightly concerned that I'm not gambling because I can't as much as everything else, but the fact that I can't will be around for a good few years (by can't I mean self excluded, k9, mrs in control of my money, credit cards maxed out and cut up) so hopefully this will enable me to stay gamble free and most importantly change my mindset for good.

Mark ma man how are things? I feel totallt lost without gambling but I am hoping that feeling will ease soon.mate its in your head,if you want to gamble,you will find away around any blocks there is but the fact that you haven't tells me you are in the right frame of mind to stop for a long time or forever.are you still up for the fantasy football league? U need to sign up then cancel and that means you can play for free.;-) next few months are going tobe hard but stick with me friend and lets make it to xmas.WE CAN DO THIS.;-) its never easy but neither is losing money ever day and we did that,lets never have that feeling again.every day we dont bet we are WINNERS

Scottyboy

Hi markie

Just wishing you well on your continuing recovery

Stay strong positive and keep winning one day at a time

Suzanne x

Good win for the boro lets hope it continues. Hope everything ok mate

4 weeks no gambling!! Had a really good family weekend and though the urges came as expected with the start of the footy but managed to push them aside. Feeling positive for today at least.

Hi mark

Well done on 4 weeks

Stay positive and strong

Suzanne x

Day 30. Still depressed. Still flat. Still bored. Still unmotivated. Still terminally skint. Still in a world of s@#t.

BUT still clean. Still not lost a penny. Still determined. Still fighting the urges. Still desperate not to let myself or anyone on here down.

bring it on.

Hey mark

I No what you mean but we are still clean it will get easier as your days go having no money is hard but it won't be forever

Well done on staying strong stay focused just think how you last felt when you had your last bet now that was s**t you have moved on And forwards keep going

Suzannexx