HARMONY !

Good afternoon Shiny superstar !

Just look how far you have come. Can you see it ? I hope you pat yourself on that back every day, you certainly talk and walk the walk but I hope you take a step back to tell yourself "well done" every day for me this really and truly cements that thinking in.

Ive said it before shiny, your living proof right there, YOU set the example of recovery, it isnt just about stopping gambling and holding on for dear life, or settling debt.

Its about challenging yourself, pushing yourself to change, healing yourself from the inside, changing how we think about ourselves, situations, our lives, other people.

Change is hard, change takes courage and action and effort, commitment, some people just shy away from it, or dont know how to do it.

I did for years I didnt want to put the effort in, it was easier to sit back and keep gambling.

Keep pushing those boundaries shiny star, anything is possible.

Blondie xxxxx

hi shiny

carl

Hi Shiny,

Wow. That blew me away. I cried real tears. Your story, put in a very concise way I know but it's very much like me, I know why we understand each other now. It's made me see that I am not far behind you in building my strength up, finding the answers and some sort of happiness that we both deserve.

I have often wanted to post my story and did hint that I would post my history earlier this year, but couldn't do it.

You have shown me what an honest and courageous person you are. Perhaps it is time for me to do it too. You know those are the sorts of things. I wanted to share with you on a more private setting.

I find it difficult to get out on Gamcare and often feel that I need something more.

Anyway I am hogging your diary so finally I just want to say I am proud of you Shiny and you should be proud of yourself. You have a family that obviously care deeply about you but sometimes only fellow addicts can truly empathise.

Thank you,

A>N. xxx

Hey,

Sometimes words are not needed as we say it all ourselves. I think your post in the early hours was one of those times. Why do I need to say anything when you got it nailed yourself.

Only one Shiny I say!

Flagg

Hi Shiny,

Ur last post was really inspirational, I did not realise u have been thru soooo much. U r a fighter, thanks 4 sharing that with us 🙂

I think u r a very special person 🙂

Have a gr8 nite xxxxxxxx

Hello friend.

your last few posts have been very powerful indeed.i often wondered what it would be like to run a newsagents business.you put that trade in its place.

sorry to read about your past but as many have stated its very honourable to be able to share your story.

You have a loving family and give strength and hope to many on here.

Thanks for your support on my diary I don't see myself as inspiring but YOU my dear friend certainly are.

I notice you also sneaked in that you have gone passed the year milestone.

I have followed you since your 1st post.

Many many congratulations on that achievement.

I suppose we could somewhat say we are veterans of these pages now lol.

Onwards xx

Yo,

6 working days till my holiday .

I am blown away by all your responses yesterday .

I found writing that and it took me over an hour very therapeutic . Did leave me a touch unnerved for the rest of the day , not because I thought people would think bad of me , but a bit like stirring a cup of water with silt at the bottom . It becomes cloudy and then once again ends up settling at the bottom.

I have no guilt , it was what it was . I made amends and some . Think it was just reliving it .

Funny really how different this site is to GA, at GA every week you share or hear stories of how people hit their rock bottom. Sometimes the same stories over and over again. Here we hear a bit , on new members , maybe now again someone talks about their past .

It seems to me that this site , seems to focus on the here and now and pushes us all forward emotional , rather than constantly reminding of the past .

Is that a good thing , yes I think so. I know someone people do both , GA and here. So I suppose they have the best of both worlds .

For me the best thing I ever did was join this site. we may joke or write about mundane stuff at times but that is life . I find it incredible how so many seem to be pushing forward in their lives , not just not gambling but learning how to get out and live .

For that I thank every single one of you , only by posting and contributing can that happen

Yesterday I said my mental health was the best it had been in 15 years , I had had counciling , I had had family support , I had attended GA and other fellowships . But it is this site that has truly been the key to finding some peace within myself .

For that you lovely lovely people , I will indebted to you for the rest of my life .

Shiny xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Shiny,

What can I say? That was lovely.

So glad you have found that peace. I am aiming to join you in the middle lane, as fast as possible of course! 🙂

Laters, oh sparkling jewel. I. xx

Good evenin shiny , was so good to come on ur diary and read that wonderful post from yesterday , I am sat here thinkin wow where did that come from letting us in a little into ur life if my memory serves me right that something u don't do very often , like everyone else I think it's a wonderful positive step forward for urself and not to mention the inspiration it will give others

U never ever cease to amaze me , I still remember reading ur 1st diary all the way through spellbound by every post and still am to this very day , u really are a remarkable lady , this site may av helped u so much but I av to say u av helped this site more esp the people u help so much

Once again thinkin of u

Castle2

Shiny,,

That's absolutely so true what you say...its the same emotion..in fact even the same words....I am chasing to avoid losses....!!

I also added a bit more about how this emotion affects my current job and how i am going to not be able to get away with it in my new job...

Thank you for seeing that connection...this is why I identify so much with what people write on here about the emotional drivers as i'm struggling with the same just in a different way

Onwards and upwards

R and D xx

Hi Shiny,

I have just followed behind a cpl of posts u have left on others diaries 🙂

I just wanted 2 say ur words are always soooo comforting and encouraging. So thank u 🙂

U give me hope!

Have a gr8 day xxxxxxxx

Morning Shiny,

T Minus how many days to holiday ? Hows the shopping list coming along ?

Had a bit of a crappy day yesterday just feeling generally flat and the urges came whilst i was at my weakest, but the fly spray and swatter came out and wooooshhhhh !!! there gone 🙂

Todays another day 🙂

Enjoy yours

Blondie xxxxxxxxxxx

Hi Shiny,

What the hell is that? I can't make it out. Is it meant to be a shaved head with a smiley? Don't know about being happy, I will have nightmares for weeks if I keep looking at it lol.

Your holiday is approaching fast, days flying by. I feel that you have really turned a corner and will be staying on that groove you have found for a long time. Picture a vinyl record 33rpm. It might jump a few times or have a couple of tiny clicks from scratches but it stays in the groove and keeps going. Keep whistling the tune! Not for too long though 'cos it eventually drives you crackers, I am the evidence.

Laters, honeybun. A.N. xx

Catch you now, thank you. Have this. xx

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b07QTWLmS4w

Just click on the link SHINY!

A.N 🙂

Hi Shiner,

It wouldn't have annoyed you, it was Centrefold by J.Geils Band. Great song angel.

Liked the joke.

One in return,

"You know you're working class when your TV is bigger than your bookcase!

BTW I have pre ordered the new Kindle Fire HD . Check it out! A.N. xxxxx