HARMONY !

That was a truly wonderful post and from a selfish point of view it was amazing to read it. I have followed your diary every single day since I came to this site and to share an experience from your past has allowed the reader to understand and know you a little bit more. Your post was so powerful it has made me realise that I need to start getting some of my past experiences of my chest. My diary has stalled a little and I certainly don't post anywhere near as much as I used to. Also, the content of my diary is not so much gambling related anymore but more of how I am feeling with my current life rather than my past life. Again, from a selfish point of view, I was glued to your post and wished it would never end.

Congratulations on your continued life improvement.

Tomso.

Hello Shiny Happy Person,

We are even now, like it.

On a remote island two cannibals were feasting on a clown who had been washed up on the beach.

1st Cannibal: "Well, Whaddya think?"

2nd Cannibal: "I'm not sure, tastes a bit funny"

Tee hee. xxx

Yo,

Had a bit of a wobble this morning , lasted for a while and had to call on some of my reserves to battle against it .

Know why , spent a bit more than I wanted to on the food shop, paid all my bills early cause of me going away , and with my holiday my plans have gone astray as to my saving plan this month Couple that with me reliving my rock bottom, think my sneaky addiction thought ah hum she's defo a bit vulnerable , could be worth a try . But no mate , was a bit vulnerable yep, took me longer than normal to shake it off , but shake it off I did .

Came home slightly drained , then I read Blondies post today . If you have not read it you should . Recon we should all be voting her in as the next PM , the women aint for turning lol it was a very motivating post , coupled with the banner between me a certain naturist lol , i am very happy tonight , thank you very much .

Shiny xxxxxx

Good morning Mrs,

Why is it we get so anxious about paying out money and things not adding up properly. It happened to me on Saturday and I lost control for a moment. You did very well here, that demon is always lurking to try and mug you when you are vulnerable. So a big well done for keeping that guard up.

On a lighter note, I will engage in some more banter with you later in the day. I haven't put my funny head on yet as it's a bit early.

I enjoy very much all the posts I get but look forward to yours the mostest, bestest.

So on this day I propose to you, I ask if you will become my cybermissus because simply you're lovely and I love you. . You must promise to share all the boring as well as exciting stuff plus keeping each other with a smile on our faces. No s*x though please, we're British!!

Beat that, the challenge is on. Please say yes or I will suffer great humiliation and rejection. Emotional blackmail,? very probably.

From your faithful ex loser, come join me in pure white middle ground. A.N xxx

whoooooooo

"Get a cyberspace room"...

Shiny...beware of those love "bytes"....tee hee

xx

...or maybe given "naturist' banter....

whoooooooo..."get a beach' ..lol x

Yo,

Good morning my faithful followers , well a proposal this sunny Thursday morning . How do I reply to that ?

Been in the shop for 2 hours , contemplating

So this is how I see it , what has the naturist added to my life since we started to posting to each other .

He has understood me , supported me , made me feel good about myself , never judged me . given me a virtual leg up when I have been down, built up my confidence , but more than anything made me feel good about myself , and encouraged me to fight the good fight against this b*****d of an addiction.

oh and let's not forget made me laugh , and laugh and laugh .

What has my husband given me ,,,,,,, he has been there through thick and thin. But our journey has been one of him on one side of the road and me on the other. He really does not get addiction, can not for life of him understand why he can bet every day have a stop button and I do not . We do not talk bout addiction or feelings, or stress or anything unconfortable , it's a bit like mentioning Valdamour in Harry potter.

My best friend who I love dearly is the opposite , she is funny , she never judges me , she is always there through thick and thin , and does not do anything to put my recovery in jeopardy . But really understands addiction and the journey I am on.

So do I need another another husband. No not really got enough problems with the one I got . Do I need a virtual bestie ( as Womble says) oh yes .

So my dear I ** , it would be a privilege and an honour to have you as my virtual best friend , what do you recon .......

Shiny xxxxxx

Hi Shiny,

Am shedding a tear for you....AN and Shiny besties...

I think its a winner....please please please say yes AN?

It's lovely having a cyber bestie..my one is also my 3d boyfriend and its lovely as I also get loads of support and encouragment and he knows all my innermost thinks ; 0 )

Are you having a virtual party to celebrate your announcment before your jollies?

R and D xx

Just like I do with my missus at home (btw, she doesn't understand either but to her credit tries hard) I will do whatever you say my honey. I would prefer to be your cyberpartner 'cos you don't have one of those, as you already have a bestest in the friend dept. She is a friend to me too and knows we should be together. Shame 'cos I had already planned our honeymoon.

But whatever, I am so submissive (with you anyway!) it would be easy for you.

So, I shall go and contemplate the reason why you keep rejecting my offers. I know you already have an army of male fans and I would never get jealous.

A.N. xx

Well that's that then 🙂

How am I today , ok,

One of the staff in the shop is on holiday it has meant doing more hours in there , which as you know is pergetory for me .

But done my bit for today , cooked lamb stew. and now I have hidden myself away to find a good book and settle down and loose myself .

I go on holiday a week on Sunday , got 5 days at my real job , and 3 days in the shop before then, my oh will take 3 days off for his birthday , play golf , go racing ect ectv.

Which works out ok ,as I do that then go on hols, before that though I have my clarvouent night and me and my best mate are having a night out , going for a meal ect .

So plenty to look forward to.

Counting down the days , till I get my peace quiet , cause I know I desperately need it . No work ,no shop , no kids , no oh , blisssssssssssssss

Shiny xxxxxx

Focus on this to get you through should you need it.

No work ,no shop , no kids , no oh , blisssssssssssssss

T minus 8 days... I hope you have already picked all the treatments you are going to have, Sauna, facial, breakfast in bed or on the terrace, followed by a nice book by the indoor pool and maybe an afternoon nap.

Free to do what you want when you want with peace quite and calm. 🙂

Blondie xxxxxxxxxx

Hi shiny

What's this all bout u resting lol no doubt u will probably collapse for the 5 days that's often the case when the body and mind just keeps goin and goin then the break comes and the body and mind doesn't know how to adjust , after the 5 days u will be all relaxed only to come back to reality but hey u need it and more importantly u deserve it

Sending u a big fat hug to keep ya goin for now

Castle2

Soon on your hols and wind down time...

I am hoping your Clairvoyant sees a really bright future for you and that you have many more spa breaks to come...

Onwards and swims

R and D xx

Hi Shiny

Ohhhh your life just sounds better and better 🙂

Felt very privedged to have read a previous post from you, reading it made me realise how hard some of us battle and just what strength we have when we want to make things better

Honoured to be on this journey with you and other great people

I just know Shiny you will continue to go from strength to strength and lead us in the middle lane to finding that inner peace

Thanks for sharing and hope the holiday is everything you want it to be

Keep strong girl !

Lucy xxxxxxxx

Hey bestest,

Really wanted to call you naturegirl. Guess I will have to settle for bestest, shiniest, wisest mateygirl.

As long as you don't leave me for another my heart will stay intact.

Later mater 'cos this is not the end my friend

We only lose our minds in the fast lane.

A>N xxx