have to stop for me and also my family :-(

Woke up today feeling great after a really good meeting lastnight,got speaking with a few guys before it aswel with the same problems as myself through this horrible illness.day 9 doesn't feel that long bet free when I seen others at the meeting on 25 years but when I spoke with them,they still to this day take it one day at a time.hopefully one day I can turn round and say I have never had a bet for 25 years as those guys looked so happy to say it lastnight. Scottyboy is cruising to day ten with no urges so far.:-) goodluck today everyone

Scottyboy

hi scotty boy , just to say i read back to your last loss, and at that time on your diary i sensed a fear of not being able to stop this fear i had , and now has gone , i would not be able to bet again without getting addicted i know , but i am able now not to place another bet in the first place , and also the fear of not being able to stop has gone as i know i can and have . reading through your last 9 days reads as though you are more determined than ever and also reads without the fear of not being able to stop . by the sounds of it you ga meetings are doing you the world of good . i would suggest you forget all your losses they are gone , but when you do have spare cash again dont let it burn a hole in your pocket to make you gamble again , as i have done so many times , its just not worth it and is pointless , as dunc says to repeat something over and over again and expect a different outcome is utter madness . We can not expect to start winning when in the long run we have always lost and we know that if we win today we will only loose more tomorrow . Be strong my friend , i completley understand where you are coming from [ although i gambled for only 18 months to 2 years ] but does not matter as i still lost thousands and thousands , which still hurts now , which in a way is good as it puts me off doing it again . As i say i completley understand wher you are coming from , how ill you feel after a loss , i once lost about 17 hundred to 18 hundred in just over 10 mins , i was seriously out of control , that time i did not know who i was and i still went on to gamble more and more CRAZY, that was probably the worst i had ever felt , but not my last bet by a long shot . MY Point is remember how you felt after your last loss or your worst loss or both as when you get an urge think of this , this will defently help you stop and again letting go of the losses will help you move on , doing this along with sharing a bank account as you are going to and going to GA and giving your wife spare cash you will beat this .

Last point i think sometimes we have either got to be ready to stop or really want to stop , before we can actually stop [ they are both probably the same thing lol ] , and by the sounds of it from your last 9 days writing on your diary , you sound to me like you really want to stop and are ready to stop which equals i think you can do it now beat this addiction and stop .

sorry to rammble on , all the best and will be thinking of you and next time your kids need something you will be able to get it them . well done keep going , simon

Well done scotty lad. Thanks for the message about ga meeting, still not sure if that road is for me but I am definitely thinking about it.

Going strong mate, lets make it ten in a row tomorrow 🙂

Day 10. Had alot of dreams about gambling lastnight but if its only dreams and not reality that will do for me.day going well for me apart from hayfever bringing me down 🙁 never mind still bet free and steping forward. 🙂

Hi Scotty

You are doing great 10 days and you have not even spent one penny on gambling

Onwards forwards and upwards with positivity

Suzanne xx

Well done mate we are really getting on a role here! So glad the meeting worked for you, ye like you say 2 hours is nothing when you think of the time we have wasted gambling. We only get one life, lets make sure we don't waste another second on this poisonous destructive addiction.

Mark

Scotty

Fella thanks for popping by my thread,as I said the last time you were here you bring a great deal of good to the forum,I hope it rubs off on your own life first and foremost.

For the forum is a great place to share the good and bad in honest measure,they show a true account of gambling and the compulsion to gamble.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hello mate,

Hope the day is going well for you.

Will be two weeks clean before we know it.

Mark

Day 11 done and dusted. Hard day at work in that heat,then game of 5 a side.tore mussel in leg but not to worry am still bet free yeee haaaa 🙂

Hi Scotty

Day 11 done and dusted indeed well done on your determination and yes you are still bet free

Thanks for your post I know I could be in dangerous ground with so many days I have seen people fall sadly around this stage I understand what you are saying real life problems start to kick in but I am on my guard and fighting to be positive thanks for caring I really appreciate it and you stay on guard too

Suzanne xx

Hi Scotty

Simply thanks

Suzanne xx

Pay day has come today,feeling worse than I have all week because having to pay half my wages.:-( never mind head up scotty next months wage will be better with less to pay out.bought myself new golf kit worth 70 today so atleast thats something I would never had done if I was gambling.head is down the now but not for long. Day 12 halfway done.

Scottyboy

Scotty,

keep your chin up mate I need you strong! We have to expect down days that's the legacy of the addiction. But that is in the past and like you say if you can take the short term financial pain then the future will be bright, though we have to stay clean to have that bright future.

I'm having to sell my computer and phone to keep the wolves from the door. Abstaining is the only way out.

stay strong mate, nearly at two weeks 🙂

Day 13 feeling really tired as I had a few beers on a school night lol never mind,got up early and got job done.now I can enjoy the rest of my bet free weekend 🙂 drove past bookies on way home and felt sorry for the people inside as some of them are probably the same as me before I chose to walk away a winner and dont gamble,almost 2 weeks now.hate when I look at my wage slip and have to give half of it away 🙁 not to worry al be in better position soon

Well done again mate. Good positive post, keep your chin up in the short term and the long term will look after itself.

onwards to xmas scotty 🙂