Heeeeeeelp!!

Had a good weekend still gamble free. I have to be honest tho at times I was bored I do miss the thrill of the gamble I hate the way it makes me feel tho so I need to continue. Hopefully through time I don't even think about it

Hate fobts wrote: Another mile stone achieved. Today I bought some new clothes without the idea of trying to win some. So many times previously I've gone to buy new clothes but get into my head I'll win a couple it hundred and have some free stuff, 20 mins later I'm 200 quid down and buying the same top but instead of it costing 50 quid it's cost 250. I could've gone on holidays with what I've lost a few times. Anyway felt good to have a little control, now trying to find the motivation to go from a run and am absolutely struggling

I can so relate to this, it is terrible isn't it?

Mental mate it does weird things to you. So much can be lost in moments of madness I'm in a trance when gambling

21 days gamble free so far. Look forward to making a month I haven't been gamble free for that long for a while. It's not because I'm skint either it's cos I'm sick if not being able to leave the bookies because I cannot stop there literally is no point whatsoever in me gambling

Worked on a couple of hours this afternoon. Usually I'm busting to put the bets in. Waiting for a haircut now where usually I would've walked out an ended up losing 100 quid because I couldn't be bothered to wait around. Managed to keep £60 cash in the house all week without spending a penny. Think I'll take the wife for tea. God it's better without the stress

Still not gambled. Lost half a stone last week, went to a Spinning class tonight which almost killed me. Be nice to get another few pounds off this week. So much easier when I don't have chaos in the rest of my life. Bought new gym clothes instead of winning them roll on next week and I will have gone from payday to payday without a bet

Well back to day 1. Had a disagreement with a family member was a bit annoyed driving home went past a bookies and put a bet on. I'm gutted but couldn't stop myself such an idiot. Worried about it all unravelling again just feel like this will be me for the rest of my life

Stop it at that one bet. It is done now, you cannot change it but press re-set now! And move forward

​. Work out a coping strategy for them times x

It really doesn't need to be like this for the rest of your life :)) .

You just have to learn how to deal with situations that will make you run to the bookies ? . There was nobody worse than me for doing that for many years , Infact I'd look for anything that would give me an excuse to run to the comforting arms of my mistress , who as long as I kept her well fed with £20 notes would tell me everything's gonna be just fine but of course as soon as the money ran out I felt a hundred times worse than if I'd dealt with the original problem , it's about breaking the cycle of bathing your wounds through gambling which in itself just opens those wound's even deeper , Go for a long walk , deep breaths or just scream and shout till the feeling goes away ..........and believe me it does go away :))

Thank you both for your comments u really do appreciate it. I woke thus morning with a gambling hangover annoyed anxious feeling terrible thinking how I'm going to get it back. As the day has gone on the I realise gambling and especially fobts are making me anxious and are affecting my life. I no longer enjoy it and it needs to go. It's not worth feeling like this. I've written the money off I'm more concerned with how it's made me feel and I don't want that. So today is day 1 again let's hope for a better effort

So I haven't gambled since the last event. Felt anxious most of the weekend. Tomorrow I start back weight training seriously I'm hoping this will concentrate my mind. Keep it off the gambling, I'm glad that I lost tho as this could have been a different story