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take care SA...just popping in to say hello and send you good vibes....your posts are always so honest and real and I can identify with so much you say aside of all things gambling related ...with you in spirit hun...Rach n Dot x

Why have you failed to mention to your readers that you had a door to door taxi service on saturday that bought you to my house where you had a restaurant quality 4 course meal lovingly cooked for you fresh in nice comfortable surroundings and had warm clean accommodation provided and breakfast supplied on your awakening? I accompanied you to your gym sunday lunch time and I personally had a very nice time.

Maybe its because I had a very nice time that my mood dropped so much afterwards. Bless you hampy. x

Am back on something of a level today even though at work the client i was with tried to strangle another client.. the little f****r! lol.. well not lol really.

No gambling problems.. keep safe all.. S.A 🙂

Last gamble 24th December 2011

thanks pal good to see you upbeat,

your 31 months got me to where i am today,i will look over my shoulder the next few weeks so i dont follow the same path.

You are an inspiration on here friend,

take it easy,

w.P

Roses are Red

Violets are blue

Rachie and Dot

Sending Cyberhugs to you...

Happy Valentines Day xxx

Or maybe it was a simple case of attention seeking (pity poor me syndrome) ...just a thought.

No I don't agree with you. I write as I feel at any given moment in time and if am feeling down or tearful or happy or sad or angry or any other emotion then thats is how i feel. I don't conciously write anything on here to try and get a particular response though sub-conciously maybe i do am just not aware of it. I take your thought on board. I try to be open and honest and say it as i see it or feel it... though sometimes it is hard to do that.

Tired today.. am doing some overtime.. no gambling problems. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Last gamble 24th December 2011

hear hear SA....I do the same as you .....Sleep well x

s**t day.. client kicked off on the canal side.. clothes all wripped.. am covered in mud.. I was kicked in the b*****ks... he flung his trainers in the canal (his loss lol).. But hey ho things could always be worse I could be gambling but am not. I feel very motivated to kick this gambling lark into touch once and for all. Thanks for listening.. S.A 🙂

Last gamble 24th December 2011

At least it's now the weekend.

Try and make the connection with his trainers with the word "GAMBLING!"

GT

oh SA! bless your heart - that sounds rotten : (

how strong are you? you are not gambling, and that is brilliant. I would imagine it would be after days like those, that you traditionally went on a sesh.

Stay strong,

f x

your doing great SA...you have lots of support on here and always good to read your posts ...keep on keeping on...x

Thanks Freda, Dotty and Gt.

No gambling problems... and like you say Dotty I just keep on keeping on.

Am a gym J****E just at the moment... just keep on running.

Thanks for listening.. S.A

Hey SA,

was today any better? I would hope the chances of two clients kicking you in the boll*cks are fairly slim...

Hugs,

f x

Well today presented different challenges. I think of an 8 hour shift 7 of which were spent driving... which i don't mind if not for the the fact that the brief time that i spent at the centre I get moaned by the manager at for not having filled out the relevant forms for Fridays incident on Friday.. am am thinking.. I never got the chance I was either managing that client or driving... give me a break!

Sometimes it P****s me off that she's never got anything positive to say. She so quick to find fault to pass judgement and to criticise and seldom ever has anything positive to say about anything or anyone.

Whilst i can motivate myself it would be nice just once in a while if she could acknowledge the hard work and positives that i and others bring to the place.

It won't happen of course.. she is the way she is but its not rocket science is it. Being decent to people and having some compassion and genuine empathy for others will help the smooth running of the place. As it stands her behaviour has a demoralising effect.

Anyway moan over. At the end of the day I felt like i'd acheived and done my bit today and felt quite good really. As recovery goes... we cannot change the behaviour of others and nor should we try. All we can change is our own reaction to it. Its just sometimes its hard.

I find that when am under stress I wear my emotions on my sleeve. Its easy to have a little rage and then regret it. At work its important to contain ones emotions isn't it but they often find there way out somehow. I think thats why i like to write it helps to bring a bit of closure to the days feelings.. one tool in the box to stop me zoning out to the slots.

We are all so different aren't we in how we cope. Am prone to depression when i sit on my feelings. I notice that other people don't get depressed they get angry. I guess the right and proper way is to talk it out.. though sometimes i am not able to do that or I simply need time, time alone to think and reflect and just BE or sometimes a good nights sleep will surfice to uncloud my thoughts and feelings.

Thanks for listening... S.A

Last gamble.. 24th December 2011