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Day 164

Bit of an emotional rollercoaster at work today but at least the sun had its hat on and it had a bit of warmth about it.

Relax and chill this eve with the added knowledge that I would have been feeling a lot worse if i'd of recently gambled my money away. I am a better employee when not gambling.

Not much else to say, just checking in like I do. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Hi SA,

it all goes to s**t when i gamble to... lol..... short and to the point and sums it up nicely .

thanks

take care

blondie

165 days with not a penny gambled

Thanks Blondie 🙂

Another very tiring day with tonnes of driving but it was also nice to have the warmth of spring finally here.

All for now but thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Morning SA glad things are going well. Soon be weekend and you can enjoy that wether. Take care mate.

Day 166

Thanks Dave

All is well and no gambling problems. Thanks for listening folks... S.A 🙂

Hope you have a lovely relaxing weekend.

xxx

Sa

fella there is only one person throwing sh#t, and glad to see its you right in the face of gambling.

Keep flinging it my friend.

Enjoy it.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

"Still reading .com"

Day 170

Hey thanks all. I not been on for a few days. I went down south to see the family and run the marathon. Am back now, tired, sun burnt and really not myself. Had a few gambling thoughts but didn't act on them. I guess I will get back into better recovery head space soon enough.

Marathon was a bit of a disaster. I was sick at 17 miles and it was all down hill from then on. Had to walk. It was pretty soul destroying walking in the warm spring sunshine with most of the field running past, but hey I guess it just wasn't to be. I finished the distance but nothing more to say. A post-mortem may follow in due course.

Anyway nice to see the family. Bought my sister a bottle of wine to say thank you and took my mum out for a coffee, something that just wouldn't of happened if I was gambling. I guess its one way I can demonstrate that am not "at it".

That's me. Thanks for listening... S.A

Into day 171 with not a penny gambled.

Another day off, which is always nice but need to use it productively. Easy just to float around doing f*** all and feeling lacklustre.

My boss texted me saying about the working day today and what she wanted me to do without realising that I was off today too... though part of me thought that she was just trying it on, cos am probably missed cos I do more than most of the rest. Its true I do.

Anyway time to try and get myself out of this depressing apathy that's drifted over me and get on with the day and actually do stuff. Thanks for listening... S.A

Day 171 continues...

My marathon post-mortem... the sun came out and it was too warm. The end.

S.A

My friend I am sorry to read your marathon did not go to plan, looking in from here fella you finished it, for that take a huge amount of pride, that takes alot of guts and determination.

You keep giving the same to your recovery and gamble free you will stay.

hope you get the well earnt rest you deserve today.

Duncs stepping forward never back

f*** work it's your day off lol. Ad ya had a nice time with ya family. But sorry the marathon didn't go as planned. I can't really imagine 26 miles but even doing a couple of miles in this heat is tough enough. Take care mate and I'm sure you'll smash the next one

Day 172 without a penny gambled.

Thanks Dunc and Dave for your support

I really haven't been in a good place the last few days. I got to work this morning in such a depressed state that I could hardly speak and I just wanted to burst into tears.. but I didn't.

I guess its just the come down from the marathon and the whole being away for a few days visiting family and the upset of my usual habits and routines.

To be honest work has had a positive effect on me today... I think its the fact that work has taken me away from myself, has given me something else to focus on and stops me dwelling on stuff. The driving today has been surprisingly therapeutic.

My mood has lifted a bit as the day has gone on. The chatter with collegues has helped. Hopefully I will continue to get back to more positive headspace soon, but whatever happens I won't be gambling.

My mate at work is a total stress head just now cos he's been gambling and my other mate has gone to ground probably cos he's gambled his money away again and can't afford to put credit on his phone. I have credit on my phone, nuff said. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Glad you are feeling more cheerfull today. Such a shame after all your practice runs but not surprised as it was mega hot at the weekend and I was just sitting in the sun.

Know what you mean about work as I find it takes my mind off my physical pain as well when I am really busy.

So good that you are not following your friends lead and wasting all your hard earned.

xxx