Hope

Hi S.A,

Thanks very much for popping in on my diary the other day.

Since then I have just about managed to put together 7 days of non-gambling. I have carried minimal amounts of cash most of the time which has undoubtably helped me over the last week.

I have also really tried to focus on what I have in life. A few tweaks here and there and I know that I can improve my well being in general. Gambling just clouds so much when it gets me. Without it I can be a much better brighter person all round. Rambling a bit now on your diary!

Just wanted to thank you again for that post you sent though. It really did help me when I was down.

Rach, Duncs, Judy, Gazza, Shiny and others have been a constant support too and I also cannot thank them enough also.

Keep strong my friend.

All the best

Ade

Into day 251 without a penny having been gambled.

Iv'e been tempted mind. Ive been away. I didn't want to announce it on here before I went. I was down south, cat sitting for my sister and a short walk from all the temptations of a seaside town. But I didn't gamble. I went swimming and cycling and running instead.

On the face of it I had a nice time. I love swimming in the sea, running along the front is just awesome and my sisters partner has a state of the art road bike which I used to cycle for miles.

Anyway just checking in... no gambling here. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Day 251 continues....

I feel somewhat rejuvenated on the NOT gambling front just now. Ive been a bit wobbly this last week or two. In truth I came close to a binge. I feel proud that I did not succumb. It remains the case that I do not particularly enjoy my life but and its an important BUT, I am in a better place psychologically than if I was gambling.

Hey SA

Thanks for posting and glad you had a good time at your sisters...cats eh? ..I remember the days! Lol

It's weird becasue despite never being married I have done "the time"..often longer than most marriages ..a 10 yr stretch , a 5 yr stretch etc ...could have done murder and got out faster ..lol

I'm sort of over that now ...a big part of that being reproductive and a feeling of "what's the point "if its not leading to family extension ...

There is really no need for me to marry as love alone as I have painfully and exhaustively established is not enough...however friendship is!

R and D xx

Different place..same heart xx

Hey SA

Thanks for posting and glad you had a good time at your sisters...cats eh? ..I remember the days! Lol

It's weird because despite never being married I have done "the time"..often longer than most marriages ..a 10 yr stretch , a 5 yr stretch etc ...could have done murder and got out faster ..lol

I'm sort of over that now ...a big part of not needing or now wanting to go down that 2.5 route is reproductive and a feeling of "what's the point "if its not leading to family extension ...I got knocked up at nearly 45! With not much effort so the lands pretty furtile but now the hearts not in it.

I know I won't win any friends by saying this but if you are a woman who wants kids you'd better factor in single parenthood as a possible .

There is really no need for me to marry as love alone as I have painfully and exhaustively established is not enough...however friendship is!

R and D xx

Different place..same heart xx

Thanks Rach... Day 252 (36 weeks) gambling free.

Didn't go out for my run until late morning. Thought I might struggle with the warmth but it wasn't too bad. Last nights rain and a decent breeze freshened things up nicely.

Feeling a bit depressed but that's ok, all part and parcel of an ordinary life. Thoughts cross my mind of playing the lottery (it be nice to win a bunch of money) but just for today I wont ( I will repeat the just for today tomorrow)... my guess is that in a few days the thoughts will pass.

Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Hey S.A,

Thanx for popping by, really appreciate it. I do agree, taking some activities on, is one of the best medicines for body and mond. I run a lot every day( except today actually, decide to hav some rest this month + work did drain me last night too...) anyway, well done on such a good achievement, of course thought will pass, and you will feel better with yourself tomorrow.

Day at a time....will do the job:-)

Take care

Sandra x

SA

fella glad to read the winning streak continues.

I admire your efforts to abstain and maintain, even when opportunity arrises.

That state of the art bike sounded like a better idea, The technology is outstanding on the new ones.

I don't drive never have so the treader is my modus operandom.

I have to say i currently am fashioning a 1940's sit up and beg triumph, of course pimped with bmx peddles and brakes to which it seemed not to possess when new lol!!

I picked this one up for £20 its my summer take things slow addition.and it flies!! Nice to suprise a few folk on the road.

Anyhow enough rambling!! My friend keep doing what you are doing so well. That's bettering your mindset rather than battering it!!

Cat sitting always raises a smile as the cats round by me all seem to live a somewhat nomadic life.

Like the old Paul young song

wherever i lay my hat, that's my home

type.

Truth is i don't even know there owner's!!

Keep bettering those tomorro's

duncs stepping forward never back.

Thanks both 🙂

O dear... after promising myself that i'd never do another summer marathon ive just signed up for another summer marathon the same one I did last year and this is what I wrote about it last year...

O dear... marathon completed but in the last 5 miles I just died a death. Beyond 20 miles it ceased to be a running event for me and turned into a death march to hell lol

A marathon is a trully humbling event for ordinary mortals like myself. It pushes you to your very limits. It pushes me to my very limits. One things for sure I will not be doing another marathon in the summer. I hate running when its warm.. even when its cloudy and warm.

I don't know how it happened I ment to tick the half-marathon box but the mouse arrow went into the wrong box! It wasn't my fault!! 😉

So there we go, it looks like I will be stepping into the ring with the big beast once again... here is hoping that I don't get beat up quite as bad as I did last year. Happy days... S.A 🙂

Hydrate hydrate hydrate ....that is all ;>)

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Hi sa

I climbed snowdon last year nothing like a marathon but hit the wall about three quarters of the way up and my boyfriend gave me fruit pastels they did the trick lol.

Go you, an awesome goal and just goes to show we should never say never.

Take care

Blondie

Hi SA

thanks for popping by. As you say some days it is so difficult to write and it makes it all the more appreciated when someone takes the time to add their thoughts to my diary.

Are you being sponsored for the marathon, sounds like a real commitment but do take care, no doubt we will all be nagging you nearer the time - just because we care.

xxx

Hello S.A

Many thanks for your comments on my diary, very much appreciated. I have to say i really love your opening letter to Dear Mr Gambling (or not so dear) i hope i can be strong and not lapse again, 8 moths was a long time to stay gamble free ! i need to get back there. Thanks for your support, and well done to you and your continued gamble free life. We are better people because of it, Dark Place

Hi SA

Just read about your signing up for the marathon-you go for it!!!! I'll be cheering you on from afar- doing my wee 10 mins treadmill no doubt lol.

Well done on the gamble free time- keep at it 🙂

take care

Irene

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