Hope

Funny just wrote the same thing on Irene's thread about checking in with the past feelings to motivate the current abstention.

Running times sound heroic to me and better fun with the 118's. Things are generally sounding good so hope the job hunting come up with something real soon as you should be valued at work much more than you are and reap the benefits financially and emotionally.

xxx

Day 329 gambling free.. otherwise known as 47 weeks without a penny having been gambled on any form of gambling.

Thanks Dragonfly 🙂

I been for a 7 mile run in the wet this morning.. slow and steady.. loved it. I got my dodgy eyesight about an hour after the run. I drank a lot of water and hey presto it got better within 5 minutes.

The more I think about things the more I think my eyesight issues is a water thing rather than a sugar or blood pressure thing, though I guess they are all interconnected to a degree. I think am chronically dehydrated most of the time...especially with all the running I do. I shall try to drink more water.

No gambling issues but already feeling stressed about the working week ahead. Day at a time as always.

I off to the cinema with mate this afternoon. Don't think av been cinema for atleast 2 years. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Day 330 gambling free.

A nice day yesterday. Went to the cinema with a mate and then pub carvery and a pint.

Today has been a tough day at work but ive held myself together and done my best and made my contribution.

No gambling issues. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Day 331 gambling free.

Another pretty full on day at work. All I wanna is sleep now. I will see if I can get my a**e out the door for a little run before I vege out for the rest of the day.

Thankfully no gambling thoughts. Onwards... S.A 🙂

Hey SA

Just wondering if the 118 118 boys are "garmin" round later ...lol :-)))

Xx

S.A.

Amazing share earlier on "Worst Gambling Experiences". Your journey is incredible and the progress you are now making is brilliant. I love to read diaries where the low was low but now they climb to new heights. I look forward to congratulating you on day 365.

I fell in love with marathon running a few weeks ago. I know you have ran a marathon but wasn't sure if just once or on several occasions. I want to run loads of them. I still cannot explain in words the enjoyement I experienced from running my first marathon. I got up at half five yesterday morning to go for my run and winter is defo upon us. Dark, cold and wet but as you will know I have yet to return from a run not feeling great about myself.

Keep up the excellent work.

Tomso.

Hey SA,

Hopefully you having a better day today and work is not too hard on you:)

Bloody rain stops me from going for a run lol...maybe sign up to the gym over Winter:)

Good to read you still moving forward and staying strong in your journey. Can't wait to congratulate you on your 1 year abstinence from evil habit.

Keep it up!

Day at a time

Sandra x

Hi SA,

A powerful post from you on tomso new thread "worst gambling experience". I so relate to its not and never was about the money, it never was for me.

I know i used gambling as a form of self medication to numb like a typical addict i suppose, to numb so i didnt have to feel or hurt or think.

Your story and journey inspires me and others.

Take care

blondie x

Hi SA

Thanks for posting on my diary.I see you are almost up to a year again but i know you have had many more gamblefree days.Stay strong all the best Jeff.

Day 332 gambling free.

Thanks for your posts folks. Am really over-tired today, but keeping calm and gambling free.

That worst gambling experience I posted was exactly as I described it, but was just one among several. The capacity of the human mind to forget the bad times and then to repeat them is baffling. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

.............((((((((((((( SA )))))))))))))...........

Thanx for sharing your experiences;-)

Have some rest and good and peaceful sleep

S x

Thanks Sandra 🙂

Day 334... otherwise known as exactly 11 months since my last bet of any kind. Mark the little milestones as they come and go.

What a difficult week at work its been. Changes happening and about to happen over which I have no control, stress levels rising but I cope, for now, just about. That's the world of work eh carry on carrying on.

If i'd of just had a gambling binge would I still be coping, who knows. I think you toughen up when your not consumed with addiction, any addiction. I think I am facing my life problems and inching my way forward bit by bit. Life is a marathon not a sprint. Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

Day 335 begins.....

I suppose I should be drifting away from the forum now that I haven't gambled for a while (again!) but it never seems to happen. Am just as dependent on this place as ive always been. Still need my gamcare crutches.

I been wide awake since 4 a.m stressing about work. It really has been a tough week. Thought for the day "relentless"... thanks for listening... S.A

Day 335 continues...

Just been out for a cycle ride and to buy a few bits. I feel a bit more on a level now.. S.A

Insomnia is a nightmare which I guess is a contradiction in terms but suffer with it badly when stressed.

Hoping the job of your dreams turns up real soon as I have so much respect for what you have to offer in the right scenario and your personal experiences have given you such insight into the needs of others. Make that leap into the unknown I am sure it will be worth it and we are all here to cheer you on.

Selfishly would miss your steadiness on here if you left so do keep checking in even if less often as we are all still listening.

xxx