Hope

Sa

Fella thanks for dropping by my thread, this journey is really something quite special, with great fortune I am priveledged to be sharing it with some truly wonderful folk.

For that I thank you.

Regards posting and using the forum, if it is'nt broke as they say it don't need fixing.

Keep up the good work.

duncs stepping forward never back.

Hey SA,

Thank you for your supportive post on my diary.

Stress, sleepless nights and tiredness, can really affect our recoveries. To find a middle with it all is a challenge but slowly we barging our way through it 🙂

My diary is very important in my recovery too, really helps to cope at hard times, and it's always nice to share good things too:)

Good stuff SA, keep going and don't let the thoughts about work take over ur weekend...Just Relaxxxxx........;-)

Keep posting

Sandra x

Hi S.A.

I know all about drifting away from the forum....and I know that it means drifting back here in a worse state later on in my life, at least that is how it has been for me so far in this battle.

It's hard sometimes to find time to come on here, think about your own situation and to read about other people's problems, but I must admit it is better to have a crutch to hold you up than simply falling over. What I've always found when I've come back is that there is always good support here, and it does help in recovery and staying recovered.

All the best mate,

Ryan

Day 336... otherwise known as 48 weeks without a penny gambled on anything.

Thank you everybody 🙂

Yes Ryan, better to have crutches than simply falling over and its like when people say "its hard to find the time to come on here" I say "well you always found time to gamble"(just a general point Ryan, not aimed at you). Anyway as Duncs says.. if it aint broken don't fix it.. so I go on reading and posting... cos it works.

Anyway the brum half-marathon completed once more... 1 hour 54 minutes.. which was 5 minutes slower than last year 🙁 but 2 minutes quicker than the year before :-)... so basically am still in pretty good shape for a man of my age. My mates the 118 118 twins (they don't actually look like them lol) 17 years my junior were only 4 minutes quicker than me.. not that its a competition of course!! 😉

I had an urge to gamble after the race when my mates and I went are separate ways. It was the usual city centre thing which often gives rise to gambling thoughts with me, felt lonely and otherwise frustrated (in all ways you can imagine) but I coped without gambling and am now safe and sound at home typing this. Thanks for listening everyone... S.A 🙂

Day 337....

Well that's Mondays working day over and done with. Stress high and morale low, but no thoughts of a sneaky gamble after work. Not today anyway and that's all that matters. Thanks for listening... S.A

You're right SA mate....I always found time to gamble. I guess I'm just trying not to neglect the things that I've neglected in the past, and not putting off the chores that I used to in order to make time to gamble.

Congrats on your run, its still one hell of an achievement to complete the course. The key thing is beating the temptation, and not letting it beat you. Getting close to a year away from the last bet, keep up the good work!

All the best

Ryan

Day 338 begins... and thanks for your support Ryan 🙂

I can't sleep so ive decided to join the wide awake club. I really should be a postman but they rejected me 🙁

Not sure what else to say, other than I certainly won't be gambling at 5 a.m. or any other time for that matter. Thanks for listening... S.A

Day 338 continues...

It crosses my mind that I can't afford to gamble even if I wanted to.

That's an obvious thing to say when your on a low wage, but its still worth saying I think. Anyway work looms. Cycling in the rain again.

Just for today I choose to be agreeable and not criticise one bit.

Thanks for listening... S.A 🙂

i am inspired by your thread i hope i get as far as you have

Hey SA,

Cycling in a rain is refreshing..as well as running in these conditions, which i'm about to do ( been 2 days since my run lol...)

Good stuff on g free life...better less money than no money at all 🙂

Take care

Sandra x

Day 338 still continues.... thank you both 🙂

Am back from work. I had to go and look up the definition of sarcasm and here it is...

Sarcasm is "a sharp, bitter, or cutting expression or remark; a bitter gibe or taunt."

...and this has been my boss today. Ive seen a real nasty side to her character today and all because she received criticism from her boss and now us "the staff" have been getting it in the neck. Nasty, nasty, nasty... there was no need for it.

Its a stressful enough job as it is without the cutting remarks where your not quite sure whether the remark is aimed at you and she is angry with you or whether it is general anger aimed at everyone and everything. It seems that she is unable to cope with criticism. Its not felt nice to be on the receiving end. Am glad I was able to get away from her and be out. Thanks for listening... S.A

Yup...all those things are true there with definition..and the Latin means literally " to cut flesh " ..

I am deeply sarcastic and sardonic when hurt ...the lowest form of wit but I can't think why anyone would want to hurt you SA as I know you do a terrific job and go over and above the call of duty ...

Think you just got caught in the crossfire ...don't take it to heart xxxx

Hi rach.. No I haven't taken it to heart ive risen above it but it was unpleasant to be around. The team leader is supposed to show support to the staff not run them down. Its not nice, not nice.

Hey SA

Thanks for popping in ...hope today has been better for you and that that woman has calmed down.

Yes..,.I'm better alone and I aim to remain this way as my gift to all mankind..lol ..

Fact is I can't be trusted to make healthy choices for myself in an intimate set up and that's just the way it is and will always be...However I am happy to live vicariously through other peoples successes and would love to see you loved up one day SA !! ..

R and D XX

Day 339 gambling free...

Yes, its true that I am perhaps at the other end of the pendulum to you Rach in that, I would quite like to be loved up but I do very little about it... and in reality I still don't really know what it feels like to be loved up... ive been "lusted up" many a time lol... but love... that's still an enigma to me.

It use to worry me more when I was 20s and 30s and not loved up, but am not so bothered nowadays as am so use to being on my own. Part of me feels that once the s*x thing had died down that i'd feel suffocated but then I spose if your loved up it doesn't feel like that.

Whats that saying..."better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all".

That's partly why I asked you that question in response to your thoughts on relationships past and how they made you feel, cos when it comes to what women find attractive about men, I still don't get it really. Does it tend to boil down to "confidence and a sense of humour" and never mind the beer belly lol but with a big fat wallet as a preferred add on (yes I did say wallet lol). Answers on a postcard!

Busy and chaotic at work but I managed and I actually feel just fine and on a level. A staff member came to work and promptly burst into tears and is now off with stress. So its not just me that feels the pressure then. Anyway that's me, divulging my inner thoughts to the world. Its good that they come out isn't it and not just left for me to dwell on them in isolation. Thanks for listening.... S.A 🙂