Hope

SA

fella as ever thanks for popping by my thread, you wrote nothing to add, but you add by your presence fella, that gifts my resolve, for it I thank you.

Glad to read your still looking after number one, it will serve you well to listen to what your body wants, to look out for the most important thing, that's you!!

regards counting, I see it as marking your achievement, each day you add is another brick, something solid between you and that punt, is a lottery ticket worth 476 days of abstinence?? because the damage by sowing the seed we both know the results of.

It reminded me of that joke

How do you make a compulsive gambler a millionaire??

start him a billionaire!!!!!!!!!!!!

enjoy your day fella, always good to see friends and enjoy a meal, enjoy it.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

S.A.

You count away buddy. Add those days up with pride. Also, if you need an easy weekend then take it. You deserve it. You've had a tough ride recently.

Stay strong.

Tomso.

S.A.

You count away buddy. Add those days up with pride. Also, if you need an easy weekend then take it. You deserve it. You've had a tough ride recently.

Stay strong.

Tomso.

Hi SA, thanks for the post the other day, much appreciated. A big 'well done' to you too over how far you've come in not only 470 odd days but especially in the last month. You took a leap of faith, and faced all those doubts, worries and fears. Don't worry about resting up at the moment, never feel guilty, soon enough you'll feel overflowing with energy, ideas and sure enough more opportunities will come your way. It will happen because you were brave enough to set the wheels in motion and because you have a resilient character.

Enjoy the sunshine, winter is over.

Steg

Day 477 gambling free.

Thanks everyone for your support. I suppose I have become a bit more resilient over the years. Maybe its a getting older thing. I have become a bit more realistic and accepting of my life and how it is in the here and now. I am much more able to take each day as it comes and not worry quite so much about what I don't have. Maybe its just that I have become worn down "psychologically" because physically I still have lots of energy.

I get these automatic emails about higher awareness. I thought that todays email kind of highlights some of the issues I want to work on...

"A person's worth is contingent upon who he is, not upon what he does, or how much he has. The worth of a person, or a thing, or an idea, is in being, not in doing, not in having."

-- Alice Mary Hilton

As a human being, as spirit manifested in form, you are innately worthy. Your worthiness does not have to be strengthened or improved. However, you may not PERCEIVE yourself to be worthy.

If you doubt your self-worth, consciously or unconsciously, you will limit the good things you will allow into your life.

Do you consider yourself worthy? It may help to answer these questions:

• Do you find it easier to give than to receive?

Yes, much easier to give rather than receive.

• Do you have as much money as you would like?

No, I would like more.

• Do you feel driven to improve yourself?

No I don't feel driven to improve myself, except with running.

• Do you value other people's time more highly than your own?

Yes, am more likely to go that extra mile for others rather than myself.

• How would you feel if someone offered to pay you a salary of $1 million/year?

I'd feel elated.

If you find you lack self-worth, don't despair. Just being aware of your self-worth issues will help you let them go.

Well that's good then

Thanks for listening... S.A

Day 478 gambling free.

I had quite a good day working in the school. Friendly staff and good natured clients. I was expecting my usual late afternoon call asking if I wanted to work tomorrow... which would suit me fine... but for the first time, it hasn't come. That's the nature of agency work of course and is perhaps my cue to get my finger out my nose and do some job search.

Iv'e really enjoyed todays lovely sunny weather. Cycling to work was blissful.

No gambling issues, though at the back of my mind I worry a bit about money and lack of. Gambling ain't gonna solve that though. Ive been round that merry go round a zillion times before.

Thanks for listening... S.A

Day 479 gambling free.

It crosses my mind that we really are "spirits manifested in form" and that this spirit has never quite found his true vocation. Feeling pretty empty today. Work passes time and today am not working. Motivation to make things happen is what I need. Nothing changes if nothing changes.

Will I be gambling?.... No!!!

Thanks for listening... S.A

SA

Fella I hope you made good use of your day, one which I hope that sun beamed inside aswell as out!!

Keep making the right choice my friend

Duncs stepping forward never back

Day 480 gambling free and thanks Dunc's

Well I had a good run yesterday, at least that was positive.

I need my diary more than ever just now. Not only has work suddenly dried up but my friend who's usually around in the week has decided to switch his phone off (probably something to do with Cheltenham, he being a compulsive gambler in action), so I have eon's of time to pass with not a lot of human contact or conversation... bar some cursory chats with my neighbours. Lets see what today brings... lets see what I do or don't do.

What I do learn from the past is not to put temptation in my way. I learn that going for a walk past my old haunts is asking for trouble. Just because I haven't gambled for a while doesn't mean to say I won't just wander in and do my b*****ks. No gambling.

Thanks for listening... S.A

Glad to hear you're going well S.A. Remember, agency work in this area starts off as 'drip, drip, drip,' but after a while, and when decision makers get to know you, they ask for you personally and then you get a steady flood of well paid work. I'm sure youve noticed the difference in standards in this new workplace for both you and the 'service users.' This can only be a good thing and as I've mentioned previously, working with kids is uplifting because they tend to see the world with infectious optimism, even the ginger ones and they haven't been worn down by the misersble, mundane reality of true existence!

With a bit of time on your hands I'd just chill, keep networking and finding new opportunities for something to do. Enjoy this time of peace (very hard for cg's because our brain likes stimulation). Don't entertain any feelings of guilt or condemnation, work on freeing yourself from them, if anythingvthey demotivate.

Take care SA

Steve

Day 482 gambling free.

Steve, you seem to know exactly what to say and suggest to me... thank you. Self-condemnation is something I excel at and I easily get de-motivated (except with running).

After a couple of quiet days I worked 7-4 yesterday which meant getting up at 5 a.m and the long cycle in the fog and later I met some of my old work colleagues and caught up on the gossip and had a few beers and then I was cycling home at 11 at night. I like the fact that I have the energy to do this.. though I wouldn't want to do it every day.

I just been reading Dunc's post about the balliffs and unpaid council tax from years ago and then low and behold this years C.t bill dropped on to the mat. I shall pay a chunk off it very soon whilst I have the funds. When gambling paying bills becomes a nightmare... not anymore!

Thanks for listening... S.A

Hi SA

ditto to what Steve has said, he does have a way with words.

Just to say still listening, digging myself out of a low as well but we have done it before so onwards and upwards.

xxx

Day 483 or 69 weeks with out a gamble of any kind. Thanks Dragonfly.

I had a cracking run this morning... 14 miles in 2 hours and a few secs. I really enjoyed it 🙂

Thanks for listening... S.A

Another great run under your belt SA, you must feel good after that. I agree with what you say about changing but at least now that we're not gambling we've broken that Groundhog Day of miserable repetition and given ourselves a fighting chance. In time the thoughts and behaviour patterns will vanish like a bad dream.

Hope you have a good week SA, enjoy your chocolate, I certainly do.

Stegustus Gloop

S.A.

Thanks for the post on my diary. Massive well done for the run. 8.5 minute miles for 14 miles is great. You keep that type of speed up and you will be blowing your P.B. marathon time out of the water. I don't know if I will get to do a marathon this year. I would love to. Last year's experience was totally amazing - something I will remember forever.

It is amazing how quickly runners can lose it if not on top of training. I haven't ran anything like 14 miles for a couple of months. My runs tend to be around the 5 or 6 mile mark at the moment. Having said that, I know that with training I could get back up to speed quick enough.

Have a nice day and well done for your continued abstinence.

Tomso.