Hope

Thanks everyone... I feel all warm 🙂

Am just checking in. No gambling problems. Am feeling good. Thanks for listening.. S.A

Yay! glad you are feeling good. Sunshine always helps too!

You remind me of myself a little. When the lows come they are pretty intense, but when the highs come they are full-on too.

Long may the high last 🙂

f x

This may sound kinda wrong S.A but i look foward to reading your posts.......

being the non gambler that i am i dont quite get 'it' but your posts have helped me no end in trying to ..........

Thanx

Have a great weekend

Take Care

Stay Strong

Kim x

Thanks for dropping in Freda and Kim 🙂

This just a flying visit. My home computer has finally died which its been threatening to for a while now. I can't get the thing to boot up at all now and as for blue screen of death... whats all that about lol

Must admit I had a slight urge to gamble cos I havent especially budgetted for spending a bunch of money on a new puter. Desktop or laptop?? The urge has now passed though. Also makes me think that i get a bit lost without internet access. Am in an internet cafe and a big sweaty, smelly man is sitting next to me... not very pleasant. The suns coming through and its hot as hell.

Anyway like i say.. no gambling since my last entry and despite the slight urge described above am basically fine. Prob won't have the oppurtunity to reply to others until puter situation is resolved. Regards to all. Keep safe.. S.A

Your last post made me chuckle mate..how many fat smelly men did you notice next to you when you were feeding them pesky machines..i know what you mean when i post from the library sometimes i notice others from todays society keeping up there facebook accounts yet prob never done a days graft in there life mate..i know also where you comin from with the demon drink...lethal combination s but you still got to enjoy yourself mate.,anyway get that computer back asap and stay bet free..best wishes we can do this 🙂

Thanks wp 🙂

Am in the library today. I havent been in a library for years. I use to be in here all the time before I got internet at home. Its all quite plush and the download speed is v.quick but can only use for an hour b4 it kicks you off.. but thats fine.. its Free!

All is fine with me. No gambling problems. Am away on a family visit soon so prob won't be around or posting for a week or so. I think am gonna get a lap top for home but may wait until closer to pay day and see how much i can afford. But just wanted to say hello to all my fellow diary writers and wish everyone well in recovery. Take care and keep safe. I am saying the same to myself.. S.A

Good to see you doing well s.a my library is the same (1 hour only but you can log out after the hour and in again for max 2 hours 🙂 ) best wishes you we can do this 🙂

Hi S.A.

Just wanted to say hi and let you know I am reading the diaries but am often too tired to reply.

Keep going my friend. You are doing well.

Sending love and hugs.

God Bless

Charly/Sabine xx

Thanks for your thoughts wp and Charly 🙂

Am just checking in. No gambling since my last post... though I have had thoughts and a few urges but I have not acted upon them. I was expecting them. They were all wrapped up with a family visit i just got home from. It went well and it was good to see parents and sisters and nieces and nephews. Its just that I find it all a bit emotionally exhausting and then a part of me wants to chill out and relax with a few hours gambling.

Added to this ive been wrangling in my mind about how much to spend on a new home puter so my gambling head says.. "well why don't you make it a little easier on yourself by winning some money.. and then you can get something a bit nice".

Ive been down this road so many times before and it always ends in disaster.. so there is no reason to suggest that it wouldnt end in disaster this time. But in the moment when i want a little bit of escapism, any old excuses will do to justify a gamble. Its all quite childish stuff really.

I am proud of myself though cos I havent gambled. I am stronger than my addicition. I have ordered a recondition pc for a price that i can afford.

Gambling because I want more money or gambling because I am emotionally run down are not reasons to gamble. I have no reasons to gamble.

Today I feel settled in myself. Thanks for listening.. S.A

Hi S.A,

Nice post there mate, you've obviously clear in your mind about how your going to beat this addiction. You describe your ways of dealing with urges by thinking about its consequences rather than its potention. Thats exactly what i do now which i didn't in other failed attempts. When i have an urge i think for maybe 5 minutes, maybe even walk near the bookies, but the difference is i now think if i win x amount, i will lose that plus a whole load more. To losing is losing and winning is losing.

Great to see your still as positive as ever and battling on strong!

Take care mate

Jimmy

Just dropping by to say im glad you are kicking those daft gambling thoughts into touch so well.

I can very much relate to contact with family stirring up difficult feelings. I admire you, that you dealt with those feelings without gambling.

Hope you have a good weekend.

Take care,

f x

Hi SA,

sounds like you are in a good place just now, its a pleasure as always reading your posts. Well done on resisting despite the family cr** 🙂

Enjoy the weekend.

love

W xxx

Hi SA

Just popping in to say hi, been ages since posting on your diary, hope you are well mate and enjoying the sun.

Like i said before you are the ODAAT king in my eyes and my diary. You and Jasmine where the first posters on my diary nearly a year ago!

So thanks mate, have no words of wisdom for you, you have inspired many on here, me included!

take care, ands

Hi all,

Thanks as always for your supportive words. All is fine here, no gambling problems. Not much else to say. Am writing from the library again so its against the clock. Home computer delivered next week so will endeavour to catch up with your diaries then. Am off to enjoy the lovely weather. Here's to another day gambling free. Keep safe folks.. S.A

Hi SA

Glad you are getting a new computor soon SA your diary and imput to this forum really do help a lot of people i had noticed that you hadnt posted as much as usual keep up the good work Jeff.