How far will I go before I stop

Thanks Suzanne, I had a read of some of your threads. Good to know we have that support and were not alone. Angie x

Just when life can't get any worse my dad receives a bank statement in the post and realises I've been stealing from him. Just want to end my life now, I have really hit rock bottom.. Just when I thought things were getting better.

Hi angie

When we hit rock bottom there is really only one way to go,and that is up the aftermath of gambling hits us hard and every so often hits us with something else this can only make us more determined and strong to continue abstaining and maintaining no matter what

Keep going one day at a time

Don't be too hard on yourself but we have to be honest with ourselves and everything to achieve abstaining and maintaining you can learn from this and turn it into a big positive and move further forwards

Suzanne xx

Thanks Suzanne. Nearly a month now. Not lost a penny! So happy for that. X

I have just come on here cause Im at my wits end, this morning ive lost 9000 and I owe 2000 of that out like now, so Im dead, I cant control it, evrytime I lose I think that's it, but as soon as I have money again, I gamble, I hate it and I hate myself. I could have done so much with that money, but no I give it to bl**dy ***********

And to make it worse Im too much of a coward to top myself

I curse the day I ever started gambling

Hope Angie that you do better than me

Hi angie

Well done you are doing brill keep going staying strong and positive

Suzanne xx

Derbyrob we have all been in that position. At the end of the day it's money. We came into the world with none and we will leave with none. Our graves will always be the same size. Life will get better, it does for me everyday now. You have got to put all the barriers in place, get rid of your cards, or access to money. Let someone look after your bank account. It's not us in the wrong, it's the addiction. Don't let it take over. Be strong, and I along with many others are here every step of the way. #1month2days xx

Hi Angie90

Have read your diary and can relate to all, especially the lying and using someone else's money to gamble. Your posts are an inspiration and am so pleased you are staying so strong.

Best wishes

Cheryl xxx

Hi Angie, just wanted to congratulate you and say well done on staying gamble free you are doing brilliantly, I have been on and off this site many times and am determined to beat this addiction, Day 5 today for me am aiming for day 100.... then more. Stay strong Jaz x

Sad post tonight 🙁 received a new debit card today. I've not had one for over a month and thought I could handle it now. Unfortunately I have gambled 🙁 I feel distraught and feel like I have let myself down massively. I have gambled all I've saved, I'm gutted. Tomorrow marks a new day.. And the journey re begins. 🙁 Angie x

Morning angie

Well done for not giving up giving up

You are in recovery so dont be too hard on yourself

Turn yesterday into a positive by learning from it and keep going forget yesterday it's gone focus on today abstain and maintain one day at a time remember

I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP

Use every barrier you have to help you keep strong

The only way to win each day is to abstain each day

Best wishes Suzanne x

Thanks Suzanne. Feeling positive about today, I know I can do it. Trying to get a refund on yesterday's deposits, because I have excluded from all websites this bookmakers is associated with. Probably won't have much luck though. #day1 x