Hello diary
Been gambling for 14 years i have had periods of not gambling in this time lasting a few months on a few occations. I am not actually sure my problem is gambling but a more a problem with slots. I have no disipline when i play them i seem to go of into another world and it almost does not seem real. Over forms of gambling such as sports betting i have no problem with i dont like putting more than a fiver on. But with the slots in the bookies and online ( i havent played online for a long time dont get the same buzz from it i think so less addictive to me) i will not think twice about blowing 300 quid in half an hour). I have a deposit limit on my sports account and have never changed it since i opened it.
The thing that has chnged for me over the years is that i dont play slots nowhere near as much as i used to but when i do i gamble much larger amount that i used to and i am sick of it. I never win the only way i do win is if i dont play, i gamble on average every 2 weeks on the slots in the bookies, i never have any intention of gambling starting out the day and my wife usually has my bank card as being a compulsive gambler i dont trust myself and rightly so, But today for example the wife was at work and i off so she asked it i could get some shopping so left my card. Bang did abit of shopping and convinced myself i would just spent 20 quid, you know the rest.
Anyway some big changes coming up in my life soon as my wife is pregnant with our first child and i dont want to be that loser dad who gambles away his money, i am going to give this a right go this time use all the tools i have used before that helped me before.
Day 1
Jamie
Thanks deano i understand what your saying about gambling is gambling but i have honestly only had a problem with slots and fobts. Anyway the wife has got my bankcard back and ive told her not to give me it back. It feels strange typing back on here different to the over times but im not sure why, i hope thats a good sign but we will see. I think because usually i start out on here flat brooke but as in recent times ive cut my gambling down ive managed to pay back some debts and have some money in my account. I cant think of anything worse than playing the fobts today i need to keep my anger fresh in my mind of how bad playing them things makes me feel and how much hard earned money i have wasted over the years.
Going to have a takeaway and a couple of beers tonight, now thats money well spent
Jamie
Day 2
Hi Jamie well done on day 2 gf! Your story reads similar to mine in that slots are my addiction and over time the money I lost in a binge would get bigger and bigger! What really helps me is the triangle-money, time and location! Take one away and it stops me gambling and gives me time to address why it is I am doing this to myself. A takeaway and beers sound much more appealing than losing money and feeling like c**P! Good luck on your journey, we are walking it with you one day at a time!
Hi Jamie , my problem was always on the Fobt's , I had quite a controlled gambling life until I started playing those things in the bookies a couple of years ago but the problem is that I've tried the cutting down or just betting on dogs or horses approach and it simply didn't work , I was always drawn back to the machines , I can't go back anymore simply because it's out of control once we reach a certain point , so I now accept that I can never gamble again and to be honest I think that's the road for you to take ? Best wishes Buddy ....Alam
Hi Jamie just wanted to comment on you post I play the fobt machines on moastly the roulette and have quit for 11days but for me the last time I quit I still had my sports account and had a 5er now and then, but I had a good win and then that led to going to the bookies and then upping my bets to get that good feeling when you win. I wouldn't give yourself oppituninty to fail. Get rid off the lot because you can't gamble at all if you want to kick a gambling habit
All the best tom
Thanks guys for your comments it really means alot that i know other people are going though this, as being a gambler it can be a lonely place at times. I like the triangle money-time-location way of thinking because its so true as i have said before i never start the day with any intention of gambling but if all them things come together my addiction takes hold. So cut them out and thats half my battle.
Pleased to say have stayed of those stupid machines the memories of my last loss still fresh in my mind. I have been keeping myself busy a tactic that has worked well before. The Mrs still has my bank card and when she does have it i feel like there is a weight off my shoulders.
Out for a meal tonight with my wonderfull wife, first got to do a hours workout with i am not looking forward to after to many bevarages over the long weekend but its alot better than clicking a button and watching my money dissapear
Day 6
jamie
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