I wish there was a pill you could take to stop this terrible illness/addiction

hope you're having a good day Anon. Fully agree with your post about betting adverts. Its the reason i dont watch live sport anymore. too many ads for it

Day 30 , been very busy at work, no urges so all good. Had a weird dream last night that I had gambled, pretty sure I hadn't as I have blocks in place but still had to check my online banking phew glad to see money all still in there x x

Day 30 almost over so tired , still no urges x x

Yay happy 31 days to me, still gf, I keep checking my bank I'm usually worried sick at this stage a few days after payday and thinking how I'm going to rob peter to pay Paul etc., and get through the rest of the month, so much better without mr g in my life x x

Hey !! Good for you Anon , glad to see you smashed your first month :)) So now you have to sit and work out how much you would have lost had you still been gambling ? even if you said just a tenner a day your £ 310 up already but in all honesty its probably much more if your anything like I was , Scary isn't it ? , and here's the sweetner now you can afford it " As much Lip balm as you need " Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyh !! No more chapped lips for you girl , EVER ! ! :))

Take care Hun xx

Thanks Alan just got in from the cinema, watched Bridget jones baby , some really funny bits in it . Your so right about the money I was doing over a 1000 per month. I'm tackling this gambling like I did the smoking, train your brain to think differently, also all the blocks and this site. I'd smoked since I was 15 and only gave it up in March 2015 early 50s, I know I can never have one again like you can never gamble again once you quit. X

Morning, 32 days for me. Reflecting on the last week whilst having my coffee, well I've got through my first pay day and paid two pay day loans off. o*g I never even looked at the interest when I took them out when I was desperate for money to cover the losses of gambling and to get through the month till next payday. How they pray on the needy but then again we have to blame ourselves for getting in that situation. It felt good to say bye bye to two of them, another one will be complete the end of November. I've worked it out and if I watch what I'm spending for the next 18 months I can be debt free and have some savings. That's my aim as well as seeing the days clock up on here, next target is 45 days, then 60 then 100 etc., anyway have to get moving things to do and people to see - so much better then sitting on my xxxx for several hours at a time just feeding and being a slave to mr g. Oh and by being more active my b*m which sort of started to look flat through sitting so much has started to perk back up lol x x

Good Morning Anon :)) .

There's nothing more pleasing than to come on here in the morning and see a reflective post from a CG in recovery full of positivity for the journey ahead and that recovery is already gifting you rewards already in the shape of a perkier B.um and unchapped lips , shows you it's not just about the money but that does help as well :)) " Go You " :)) .

Have a great day !!

Good morning and it's day 33, slept well after a busy day and still gf, scares me a little how relatively easy this is so far so always on my guard waiting for the bad urges to start. I ask myself is it easier for me because it was just online, I've said previously I only gambled online and I cannot do that because of the blocks, I'm retraining my thought process , ive had closure on the losses and accepted that I would never be able to win them back off mr g, because he,s programmed to beat me, but with the occasional win just to keep me hooked. Anyway last night I completed another jigsaw puzzle and watched tv. IVe started another puzzle now, not costing me anything as they are free on the internet but they keep me occupied when nothing on tv and all jobs done (times I would have turned to my ex friend mr g). IVe had a couple of sessions of counselling also now, very strange for me as I'm a trained counsellor myself albeit I do not do it for a living and I could not counsellor anyone else with this addiction because it's what called the ethics iceberg , the internal frame of reference.

Hit the save button before I'd finished, anyway thanks for your post Alan, as the saying goes every little helps, best wishes and hope you have a brill day x

Hi anon thank you for your post.
Well done for reaching 33 day's gamble free. At the start it seems almost impossible to get to even a week gamble free. Certainly as the days progresses the clouds lift a little more and it starts to get a little brighter. From what I've learnt from previous Relapses is
Even on a sunny day. A thunderstorm can catch you out in no man's land.
But even a thunderstorm like urges will pass eventually.
Well done for letting go of the losses because that is paramount to giving yourself the best shot.
Have a great Sunday
Deano x

Hey Anon!!

I'm smiling reading your diary...I'm so glad with the commitment you have made. You're managing to keep Mr G well and truly in his place!! Keep up the good work. I agree with you regarding the adverts. I read some unbelievable statistics regarding gambling addiction. I just can't believe more is not being done to stop/limit these companies 🙂 x

Yay day 34 o*g what a day got up late, went to work, fire fighting and trying to play catch up still after my hols. Didn't feel quite right all day realised at 4pm the reason why, knickers on the wrong way! On the plus side it's another day I've knocked Mr G well and truely out. NOw I'm chillin and no urges x x

Another day almost over and still remaining gf, going to bed nite nite x x

Hi Anon great to see days clocking up for you :)) best wishes Lu x