Just why???

Hi all glad we are still doing well I haven’t felt the need to post much these days as I’m not constantly thinking about gambling which can only be a good thing. 2 weeks after payday and I still have money in the bank, that in itself is a minor miracle! I still get the odd urge but it’s far and few between these days and I hope it will stay that way. The mop is still my prized possession and always will be:))). I’ve got a busy day today as Saturday is always my worst day and I still need to keep focused at weekends. Oh and I bought an exercise bike, good lord I thought I was a fit bird but clearly not!!! Wobbly legs:)))) Anyway here’s to the next month of gf and another major milestone. And the air fresheners!!

That’s brilliant sosad- totally agree.. it’s so weird having a bit of money in the bank after the bills have gone- it’s the first time in forever that I am not in a constant state of anxiety! Well done on the exercise bike- I’m not that good yet haha. So proud of us all and keep strong and keep going. I think it’s important to say that it’s ok to have urges - I did nearly slip one day and give in. I’m not sure I would’ve had the courage to say that on here if I had as I would feel a bit of a failure- but that’s what we are here for. I didn’t slip thank god but I suppose it’s easy to take the eye off the ball when stuff is going well. It gave me a bit of a wake up call. But... for now all is fab and I am loving life again :))) go mop club ! When are you getting the fancy wellies sosad??

Hey mrs airwick if you do have a relapse (which you won’t) this is totally the right place to fess up to it, there’s no judgement here and we’ve all messed up before and no guarantees that we won’t again. We’re all doing so amazing but we’re all human and we’re far from perfect. So, the bright yellow wellies will be bought feb 28th along with the air fresheners and a new dog bed! Well that’s if the exercise bike hasn’t killed me first! My god why did I think that was a good idea???

Awww thanks sosad. I managed to resist which is the main thing- I knew that it would be the biggest challenge once I had money available. I paid all my bills then just took out the cash - just incase. Ooooh nice about the upcoming treats ! Yeh I need to plan what to get next I think. I’m going to get some beauty products I think, nice ones again- rather than the cheap c**P I have been using since washing all my money down the drain 🙂 gotta feel glam and gf afterall haha.

Glam looking and smelling nice:))). It gives me such a high listening to how happy you sound it’s a real boost for me and keeps me going. Every time I look at those air fresheners I smile and think of you. Soon they will be mine all mine!!:))

Hahah thanks lovely- same goes. We’ve come a long way since those first posts. Still have rough days but I am able to keep busy and enjoy the good stuff, rather than “plotting and planning” how to get time to myself to play. Hope you’ve had a brilliant gf weekend! 🙂

So I’m off to Spain for a few days (as you do!) this is my proper treat for being a good girl. The fact that I can afford to do this is unbelievable. Only paying for the flight as my friend has house there but still this is major that I’m paying it and I’ve not wasted it yet again. No deicing the car for awhile:))). Be good while I’m gone.

Hey girls. ...sorry to but in...but just wanted to wish you all well and say a massive well done...I scan about here as and when I can.....and I often see myself in you're posts. ....it's lovely to see the United strength of you mop ladies. ....keep going moppettes xx

b**t in anytime you like loxxie.

Had a blast in Spain, see what not wasting hard earned money can do. Life is sooooooo much better, even the bad days are livable nowadays:)

Hi Ladies - just catching up as I’ve been a bit under the weather and so busy at work. This has had a two fold effect of me being too busy to properly think about gambling, but at the same time not getting properly support as well as having urges at strange times and worried that I may suddenly give in without even properly realising it. Finally have some time to catch up though and I am soo proud of you all! It really cheers me up to read how good you are all feeling and how we are still taking one day at a time. xxx

Hi lil been reading your diary off and on, you’re still doing great keep going just keep going. 47 days is humongous!!:))

Hi all!!! Hope Spain was fab sosad. It’s pretty great that we are all doing so well and the posts have died down because of it I think. That’s got to be a good thing though I suppose. Lil I get urges at the strangest times too so I think that’s normal. What I have really noticed is that I don’t get them often now and only usually when I am on my own and a bit bored. Hence the reason I am being stupidly busy all the time. I’ve also got my sleep routine in a much better place and I think that’s helped me loads- my worst times were weekends very late in to the early hours - so I make sure that I get to bed at a normal time now. This is probably going to take up a very long time to kick completely but we are doing it and that’s all that counts. Keep going ladies!!!

Oh yes sleep! I sleep properly now and also have an appetite. I’ll be ten tonne tesse before long!! I’m going to get to 50 days then sign off here, I’m not cured by a long shot but I know how to be happy again so hopefully that will keep me motivated. Fat and happy:))). Good job I bought that exercise bike!!

Well chappies that’s my 50 days done so time to bid you all farewell. Thankyou so much for your support it’s been amazing it really has. I’ll have a little chuckle next week tracyd when I buy those air fresheners!! You kept me going mrs airwick and I truly hope you carry on being good, smart and happy, wishing you all the luck in the world. So mopettes ciao to you all and keep being strong. X