KP123 Diary - Day 7 and counting

Wow KP that certainly was a wake-up call - I hope you have fully recovered from your trip to A & E! Congratulations on putting several strategies into effect - getting your friend to handle your money and the blocking software, and also telling your parents. It looks as if you have a lot of good people behind you.

A good start, but you mention that thought in the back of your mind about another bet - we always have to be on our guard about that nasty little troll sitting on our shoulder and whispering 'Go on...'. Visiting this site and reading the comments here will help you enormously, as well as keeping your Diary. Good wishes for the counselling, and for the journey you have embarked on towards a saner and more worthwhile life.

Hi Baggins.

Thanks alot for reading my diary entry and for your kind words.

KP

Hi mate I am to on day 7 with no gambling aswel and finding it really hard but this time it aint beating me.i had the same feeling as yourself at 26 and am now 32 and nothing had changed until I lost a fortune last year/month/w,end.it never gets better if you can give up now do your best because it only gets worse.

Scottyboy

Hi Scottyboy.

Well I'm over the first milestone of 1 full week without a bet... still a long way to go. I also hope you've woken up this morning gamble free.

I've really found given my money to my friend a massive help, and he knows not to give me anything outside out my budget.

Have you got any measures in place to safe guard any urges you get?

Also the last few nights have been weird. I still keep getting dreams where I am gambling. When I wake up I panic thinking oh no I gambled yesterday but then realize it was just a bad dream. Freaky stuff man.

Hi Mate welcome, i too am on day 7. Today was one of my goals reached. It felt great but because i met my goal my guard was a little down this morning. I felt like betting on the Spurs Liverpool game later today. I quickly flicked that ugly troll off my shoulder and told him to go P*** in some cornflakes because i don't gamble anymore. Well done on giving your funds to your friend i did the same but shes my wife :). The paracetamol was not a good idea at all and don't want to read that from you again. You are young have your entire life in front of you. You mentioned you could or would of had so much money if it wasn't for all your betting, well i am in the same boat too. After 7 days of saying these words " i would of had so much money if i hadn't gambled it all away" it has finally dawned on me i can have all that money i will work hard for it and not give it away. I hope you continue your winning ways as each day you don't gamble you hit the jackpot my friend :

CasinoRoyaLoser

Hi CasinoRoyaLoser.

Thanks for commenting on my diary. Well done for also hitting the 1 week mark.

You've made a very valid point above.

Being gamble free will free up all that money we have P***** away on gambling over the years. I could never go out and spend £60 on a new shirt, I would always have to win it first. Stupid because in the end I could of just bought the shirt but would end up losing £200 trying to get it for free.

Yeah well done on avoiding the football bet on spurs today. Try not to even look at what the odds would of been - it's irreverent.

Stay strong mate.

KP

Well day 9 of being gamble free.

No urges as such to speak of, but 2 separate people at work have come up to me telling me about their bets over the weekend. 1 asked me what I had and I just said I didnt back anything again.

I think after a few times of me saying that they will stop asking and get that I dont gamble anymore....hopefully.

KP

Hi kp123 its always the same,when we try and stop everyone round about us are winning but even when they lose they are different to us as they dont chase all bets lost.WE DO because we have a problem.i am on day 9 myself its not easy but I have been busy at work and keeping my mind on other things i.e the debt I now owe. Keep it going my friend,together we can do this. 10 days tomorrow 😉

Scottyboy

Cheers Scotty . bring on double figures day10!

Well day 10 of being gamble free.

Today at work I got sucked in a bit when outside for a cigarette.

One of the old guys who ALWAYS talks about gambling to me, mentioned that Man Utd were a certain price in tonights game. I then got sucked in and asked ' so what price were Bayrn Munich'. I kicked myself but I was not tempted or didnt not get urges which is good I guess.

I need to learn to completely shut off the gambling world 100%.

Well got footy tonight with work. Laterz all!

Day 11 today of being gamble free.

Just got off the phone to Aquarius who offer 1 on 1 counselling.

Sounded a bit strange as they said we like to meet you first to make sure your suitable. A bit of a strange thing to say I thought when you are struggling with an addiction. They have booked me in for next Wednesday so I will post how it goes.

Again a manager at work told me about his bet last night but I did my best to cut the convo short.

KP

Well not much to report on today. Day 12 of being gamble free. 2 days days and its been 2 whole weeks 😀

I haven't had a drink since my last gambling 'incident', and it's my birthday this weekend so I will be having a few drinks.

Alcohol has triggered actions towards gambling in the past but I am not going to let this beat me from having a good time.

My laptop will be staying at home and I will keep positive.

Beating this weekend will be a huge step for me.

How is everyone else doing today?

Peace out - KP

Well I made it through the weekend and had a lovely birthday gamble free!

That means I am now on day 15!

I guess the urges haven't been too strong over the last few days, but it is pay day on Friday and obviously this will be when the real test kicks in.

Nor have I been to a pub since giving up the gambling where there are fruit machines in proximity.

My mum will have my money and I am up for the challenge.

Each day at a time....