Well it seems like things never end. 2 days into being diagnosed with depression and the world seems to be swallowing me up. My wife has told me for years that she feels like I'm depressed and needed to go to the doctor but I was too far up my own a**e to see it, afterall how can I be depressed? I really wish I'd listened to her, I just seem to make mistake after mistake and I don't know why.
I know it's not directly related to gambling but it has made me think a lot about that time in my life and what I did to my family and that along with a few other stressors in my life finally pushed my over the edge and to the doctors. He prescribed me 50mg of Sertraline daily and so far after 2 days it's horrendous, my anxiety has gone through the roof and I'm an absolute wreck. I have read that it is a common side affect, I just hope it settles soon. My mind literally won't switch off and I can't focus on anything.
I'm not sure if I did the right thing logging back into here and opening up those wounds that clearly have never healed, it's brought everything back as if it was yesterday and I absolutely hate myself for everything I did to my family, especially my poor wife. Everyday I've looked at her recently I've been racked with guilt over everything and I can't understand how I could do it to her.
I hope this medication kicks in soon, I'm hoping once I feel better I'll be able to face some form of counselling for my many issues. Something I've been scared to do for a long time, I just don't think bottling up my problems have helped me. If anyone out there is going through a similar position then have a read of this diary, get help as soon as you can and hopefully your life can improve before it's too late.
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Hi Danny
Sertalin takes about 6 weeks to work but it does work mateÂ
I hope so Stuart, all I want to do is get the next tablet into me so that I can get further into the process. This feeling is awful and I feel like hell.
After six weeks I felt completely different..They still make me sick for a short period of time but it's worth it.
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