Life begins again

159 days. Be proud be very proud.

Have a great weekend.

Steve xxx

Hi Suzanne

Well done on 159 days and you seem stronger and more determined than ever to beat this addiction.

Ty for support and it's sad we now seem to have lost Helen. Have a lovely gamble free weekend and keep strong

Take care and best wishes

Cheryl xxx

Good afternoon diary,

159 days of not spending even one penny on any form of gambling.

Thinking back to obtaining PD loans to feed my my addiction ( and not to get me out of debt) I still cannot apprehend in any way, none of it makes sense.

Before PD loans came along I was already 20000 plus in debt through gambling, what was I thinking.

I can only believe that now today that it is truly a self destructive addiction, that will take us to the darkest Pitts if WE let it.

I thank my lucky stars that it took all it could from me and totally broke my heart because only after reaching rock bottom could I begin my own true recovery.

If that makes sense.

Recovery is making my life sooo much more real I cannot describe it, I WANT to be totally involved now with my sons problems (and they both have problems, they don't go away as they get older( lol.

Infact I want to be be in loved with everything in my life because it is my life.

Why I became a VICTIM of gambling I will never know, but I will not let it it destroy MY life again,

I know we mAke our own choices, but once I had that big big win my fate was sealed.

I am making a very very big and wise choice today, because my life even only after 6 months (nearly) is sooo much more sane for my head than any family problems or personal problems gave me, or any BIG win gave me (what a joke)

I am careful as my days build up, no less determined now as on day 1 because I do not want to go back to that desperate hanging on a thread to life for anything.

Yes I was hanging on to a thread, must never forget that.

I am soo much saner happier and indeed healthier and therefore so are all my supportive family.

Happier days indeed for all of us, why because I AM abstaining and maintaining.

Wishing everyone a happy sane positive and determined gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Suzanne

Great post truly showing your understanding of what you are dealing with and inspiring everyone with your ever strengthening recovery

You have come so far in such a short time , you deserve all the rewards that life as to offer now gambling plays no part in it

Castle2

Good to see you going so strong

Graeme x

Hi Suzanne,

Really glad to see your resolve growing with each passing day. That's it, you are doing it and should be soo proud of yourself! ! Every day of freedom is something we should treasure. And yep...it does get better so just keep doing what you doing, and reap the benefits of life. You and your family are worth it 🙂

Well done

Sandra x

160 days is just fantastic. 40 to go until the next great milestone!

I have every faith in you! We are in this together.

Steve xxx

Good evening diary,

160 days today, and I have no thoughts whatsoever to gamble.

Been a long weekend because I have been working all of it, but the days of coming home to unwind with slots have GONE.

OH is cooking a lovely roast for me, just spent an hour on the phone to grand daughter, having my favourite topple Voddy and orange, before dinner, no stress in my head, what more could ask for today, absolutely nothing.

Wishing everyone a peaceful,and happy gambling free evening.

Suzanne xx

Thanks for your message Suzanne. Reading your posts on your diary or others is great fuel for my fire to stop gambling. Congrats on the 160 days, an amazing achievement - I'm looking forward to clocking up the days too.

Keep strong!

Buckaroo

Thanks for your message Suzanne it was well appreciated. Your point about learning more about this every day is a very good one - I didnt think it was possible to abstain let alone stop but we are proving it's possible aren't we 🙂 x

161 days and firmly on my tail but never catching up!

Fantastic in every way because we all know how hard beating/fighting this addiction is!

Keep strong look at me i never thought i would get to 200 days.

Steve xxx

Good morning diary,

161 days.

Gambling today, find the idea of playing absolutely boring, It does not interest me at all.

Once I get bored with something I move away,.

That is good to write, because I really have no wish to play, the stimulation I had with playing has gone.

Day off today weather is awful here, but I am going to enjoy my day off, because it's going to be a normal happy and peaceful day.

Wishing everyone a normal and happy gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Suzanne

161 days fantastic achievement.Thanks for posting on my diary.I can see that you will have no trouble emulating what i have done,and wish to continue,Things do get easier.you are right gambling is boring.All the best Jeff.

Hi Suzanne,

I think the horrible rain that you have today was with us over in Wales yesterday, if its any consolation, hopefully you'll get the blue skies following over this afternoon or tomorrow, it is lovely here today.

Well done on continuing to rack up the winning days, because that's what those 161 days of not gambling are. You kicking a**!

Ryan

Oooh, Suzanne, you are fairly clocking up those gamble free days. What a star you are, and so positive. You are inspirational to us all.

Keep going, girl.

Elfie x