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Good afternoon diary

I could not get onto the forum this morning to do my morning post, it must have been down, and It has made me realise even more how important this site is to me for my recovery, and others on here.

189 days of 100% abstaining and maintaining and Continuing to make that right and only choice for me, which is to keep doing that, one day at a time, and therefore winning one day at a time.

Staying strong positive determined and focused today.

Wishing everyone on here a positive, focused and determined gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Hi S,
Thank you for your supportive message which was very uplifting 🙂 So good to see you making that right choice and moving on with your life one day at a time. This site is god send and i agree that it can send you to the panic mode at the times when it's down. To be honest i am trying to wean off from here and sometimes just an email away to request gc to take my diary off. But then i think...is that gonna help? My life is on these pages, so many amazing souls out here and this site helps me immensely at tough times (and good times indeed). I guess i will be sticking around..well at least i will be celebrating my one year of abstaining for sure lol. Enough games girl, we have chosen the right path..path of recovery is never dying, we are winning each day and most importantly - we unite on here..we are never on our own. Now, i have finished waffling on lol so just leave you in peace and enjoy the rest of you day. Be proud, you are making the difference 🙂 take care xx

Hi Suzanne

Many thanks for your post.

Well done on 27 weeks! A great achievement, well done. Just had a look at what I was doing 27 weeks ago, wasn't nice!

Keep up the good work.

M

Awe...that's nice Suzanne and thank you again. I do know that feeling of wanting to wake up and have no thoughts of gambling or not gambling. We are humans and want a normality in our lives (whatever it is lol). I suppose we will be walking with devil close to us for the rest of our lives. Does it scares us? NO, why should it? Cause it is not harmful and cannot hurt you. WE are doing all this harmful stuff to ourselves. We need to accept addiction following us everywhere we go, let it be. We are in control and in a safe place for as long ad we believe. We can do anything with our lives, more over - offer so many good things to our loved ones too. WE are the power my friend, and we will carry on stamping on it's ugly head every passing day. We can do it and should be proud of everything we have achieved so far. Stay positive and determined - keep winning every day. Xx

Hi Suzanne,

Thank you for your positive and welcoming comment on my diary. Well done on your 27 weeks gamble free days!! Amazing ......!

Hi Suzanne,

Glad to hear you are still gamble free, that 200 day marker is quickly approaching, and hope you give yourself a well deserved treat. Hope that positivity carried you through the day, could have done with a bit to share around my cranky colleagues at work today!

Well done for continuing to make the right choice.

Ryan

Good morning Suzanne.
A big fat 190 days.
Great work.
Have a great day.
Steve xxx

Good morning diary,

Yes a big fat 190 days of being gamble free and sane.

Feeling calm and relaxed this morning, but not having to worry about work helps, i have decided to take it easy until after Xmas unless the jobs of my dreams comes up lol.

When I receive my redundancy money I will put it in an online saver, and draw an amount out each month equal to my wages.

I still have another at least 3 weeks wages to come, and holiday accrued, so believe it or not no immediate money worries, my long term debt I can't /won't worry about, because 20000 is too much to even think about paying off, as long as I pay the rest of the PD loans off, I will be ok, as the long term debt is very small payments each month, and are all interest free, so as long as I keep abstaining and maintaining one day at a time, I can keep my head above the water.

So no immediate worry, about money which is very positive, because the addiction will hate that,.

I am going to make the most of my time off, so gambling will be well out of the equation, a big fat zero, even if it keeps gently trying to persuade me otherwise,I am in control of my My LIFE and DEBTS at this time, because I am making that right and only choice to keep moving onwards and forwards.

Wishing everyone a positive, strong and determined gambling free day.

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne and great stuff on your big fat 190 days gambling free!

I have been in similar situations in the past and like you say it feels nice to be in control of ones life.

I am the opposite to your good self at the moment and it feels awful but in time I can change things as long as i keep the gambling away once and for all.

Once again, well done... regards.. S.A

191 days. Wow.
9 more to a great milestone.
Well done you!
Steve xxx

S.A thanks for your message on my diary I can't get onto your diary forum won't let me for some reason, but I hope you have a good strong gambling free day xx

Good morning diary

191 days today of not spending even one penny on any form of gambling, and that feels soo good to have come this far.

Having problems still with the new forum, as I cannot access some folks diaries, some I can and some I can't.

Enjoying my time off so far, getting out and about, spring cleaning the house in autumn lol, and I guess getting me back whic is the most important, because by getting me back, my family have all of me, not some washed out zombie who was not interested in any of them because I was too a fixated on that horrible self destructive addiction that is gambling.

I am making that choice today which Ofcourse is to abstain and keep maintaining.

I will not be playing today because I am staying focused and on guard today because I love starving you and therefore winning.

Wishing everyone on here a positive strong and happy gambling free day

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne am finding the same problem with the new site. Tryed to go on your page the other day but couldn't.absolutely excellent to see you still gamble free,its not a easy thing for us to do but 1 day at a time we will get it right in the end.hope you are enjoying a gamble free day today 😉

Scottyboy xx

Hey Suzanne, firstly well done on 191 days of freedom and this is simply amazing. Keep up good work, road of recovery is never ending so just keep taking it all out of it, you are worth it 🙂 ...forum eh? Lol..well in my simple mind i think they still getting everything in place and these hitches might accure for a little while. I could not get on some diaries last night also but looks like today is a green light and i am given go sign lol so grabbing the opportunity while i can lol. Enjoy your days off, back to the grinder for me but have next week off! Planning on sparkling house too and getting back in a saddle with running. That's about it, enjoy your day and keep abstaining and maintaining. Sandra x

Thanks Sandra and Scotty, much appreciated.

Evening diIary,

It s Bonfire night and I wished bonfire night would blow all thoughts and actions where gambling is concerned into oblivion.

I wish this for me and everything single lost soul on here who is fighting for their sanity and freedom to live a normal life.

Gambling is a total waste of time we all know that, it doesn't necessarily stop us, because we are addicted to this horrible addiction, the only way forward is to abstain and maintain, to a sane life, feel very proud to be walking along side of all of you tonight, because I know how hard this journey is.

I have just read a few posts of people's anxiety and desperation in some to want to stop, it is heart breaking to read, I congratulate all of you, this addiction is simply awful, But by determination self belief we can starve the addiction, I have now for 191 days, I feel

Very positive, and I want everyone else, who is either just starting on this journey, or who have slipped either after a short or long time, we are all only one bet away from more destruction, and I sincerely wish everyone on here a strong and determined evening to keep carrying on, I salute you all, for fighting, keep going with head held high and let's wish bonfire night will blow gambling into oblivion.

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne,

Great post - thanks for sharing your positive vibes.