Life begins again

Hi suzanne

just thought i would say well done to you and keep it up! Your support on my diary is greatly appreciated and same as the advice. Heres to another gamble free week!!!

Bring it on!!!

Gazza

Hey Gazza

Thanks

Bring it on x

Suzanne

Hi Suzanne

The feelings you had are quite normal so don't worry you did the right thing by posting , to make the change you are making is difficult and life changing so it will take time to adjust

Your doing just great

Castle2

hi suzanne

hope you are well.

thank you for your post on my diary.

its always appreciated.

shellyb

Afternoon diary

Day 36

Thanks Shelly

Very tired today late for work as had lots going on before work this morning

Got through the Monday I had a bad day yesterday not to gamble it is all the aftermath it brings

Been to doctors this morning have a chest infection on with the antibiotics now

no wonder I have been feeling so tired lately

No thoughts of gambling today not even one penny

Don't want to play it's made me ill will win again today cos I am not playing

Have a good peaceful gambling free evening all

Suzanne xx

Suzanne,

Your comments and support on my diary are a great support and I can't tell you how much I appreciate it. Thank you very much. When Iam as advanced beating this addiction as you I hope to be the same support.

Bring it on

Regards

Gazza

Hi Suzanne

Glad to see you looking after the pennies but sorry to hear about the chest infection. Never good!

Hope the aunties bionics ( as my mother would say) does the job and shifts those germs ASAP

My shift is about to start....that dreaded 4 letter word hey but it pays the bills.

Today for me has been busy but relaxing. Went for a leisurely swim this morning and racked up 1600m before heading for the steam room.

Got the dreaded shopping done, it's my most hated past time

Picked kids up from school and dropped them off for their evenings training, got a good friend to collect them for me so I can work and they don't miss out on what's important to them. My daughter and future son in law are home for 2 weeks so life is busy and a little noisy lol

I do like my peace 🙂

Right work is calling

You take care of yourself

Shelly

Good. Morning diary

Today is 37 days since I last spent even one penny on gambling

Feel more positive this morning and more determined to abstain from gambling

First good nights sleep for a long time must have been antiobotics kicking in lol

Late shift today (hate late shifts) but I will win today because I won't be playing today

One day at a time

Have a good peaceful gambling free day all

Suzanne xx

Hi diary

I have just put my last pd loan on a plan

Not the nicest of things to ring them up and plead for a payment plan but I had to do it

did them all over stages very relieved they eventually agreed because it is only my own fault through feeding my addiction that I took these out the money never went on anything else A BIG lesson to learn from this never to get a pd loan to spend it on gambling

Nine loans I have taken out over a period of time I am ashamed to say but that's it now no more

My OH has not taken over my finances he said sort it out he did not want to get involved in that and I prefer to do it on my own as it is my own doing

So my debt will not spiral out of control anymore it can only go down slowly as long as I abstain and that has to be positive doesn't it

Keeping strong and positive today won't play today don't want no more debt

Suzanne x

Hi Suzanne,

Thank you for your encouraging words this morning. I suppose this addiction has very sneaky elements to lure us back into gambling. Not every day is the same and when you feel vulnerable the urges usually strikes the hardest. Guard always needs to stay up and we just have to ride that storm. Urges always passes, they are only the thoughts. Keeping busy and having strategies in place to fight the f****r are essential.

I am really pleased for you keeping on a straight and narrow. Day at a time, as always and you will find yourself in a better place to be...and stay 🙂

Wish you well on your ongoing battle against this horrible habit. You are wining my friend, keep doing what you doing, it is working! !!

Take care

S x

Hi Hun,

So glad to hear things are going well for you still.

You really seem to have things under control and you have amazing focus and drive 🙂

Your kind words to me this morning have really helped and kept me determined to keep away from those darn sites!

Heres to tomorrow !!

well done xxx

Hi Suzanne

Keep going you reach 40 days on Saturday, a great milestone, that is 40 whole days Suzanne has gone since gambling!!!!!

Sounds good doesn't it.

Shaun

Thanks for your post on my diary

I guess although I don't agree with gambling and the way it's done I understand the bit about chasing losses

What I don't understand is ... The debts as gone,the family you lost are in contact again. You have a massive support network of doctors councillors etc when you finally have a happy relationship with family and friends again when you've built a social life with new things in it

Why would you then head straight back to gambling and throw the whole lot away again.

It's what he did to us and this j can't get my head around

I'm so happy that your doing so well. Never take recovery for granted and never waste that penny

Shelly x

Good morning diary

Day 38 has arrived strange it does not seem that long since I last played still very fresh in my mind

And I know I might not have reAched this far if I had not found this site

Also I only am leaving 8 in my bank account after paying bills and debts because I would need 10 for a minimum deposit to gamble

Reading other stories and writing my diary and getting support from others on this site is definitely getting me through and if I help one person on this forum not to gamble today by posting it will be great

I feel quite level headed today and that feels ok

Another late shift today but hAs to be done

My regret today is I know my OH is not spending one penny on himself how unselfish is that I wished I could make it better for him today but I can't today but I will one day am determined to keep strong and not spend even one penny today on gambling today

Will not play today I have broken OHs heart and my own through it

Have a strong positive gambling free day all

Suzanne xx

Well done suzanne.

And believe me, your support and others on my diary has hot me in the right mindset not to gamble which im very thankful for.

Have a good night at wotk

bring it on

gazza