my betting diary

As always thanks to seano,russ,ade,viggo brian tommi and mickyd....your support overcame me with emotion....still no contact(it really hurts) im gonnae try and break ice and make contact tomorrow....if i let it go longer i ll get the i dont care treatment or if i get in touch im hassling them ??? Lose lose situation 🙁 sorry friends i feel i am of no use whatsoever to support other diaries at present..finally before i sign off if anyone still thinks a friendly game for a few quid with mates is ok have a read at charlie83 s diary on the overcoming prob page..it certainly opened my eyes...take care all.... today i did not bet,this can and WILL be done 😉

Hi wp

Just thought I'd say thanks for your continued support I really do appreciate it.

You're a top bloke who deserves to be treated a lot better than you are, hope things pick up soon for you mate.

I just wish I had half the strength and determination you have.

Dave

Hi wp

My turn to cheer you up(I hope). You have given so much to so many, including me, with your encouraging, positive posts. And like you said to me a while back when I didn't feel like posting on other diaries -

Get yourself in a better place because in your recovery you are the most important person.

Now as for contact...gently does it. Just because you are in recovery and you know you are getting yourself better, doesn't mean the outside world sees you like that yet.

Action often speak louder then words, so when you make contact, talk about how you feel(if you can) and take it step by step.

I pray for you and I know it will all work out in the end.

Love and hugs

God Bless

Sabine x

Hi Winningpost,

Many thanks again for posting on my diary. I always appreciate your kind words and support.

No problem at all on the support mate - I owe you big time for all the kind words and advice you have given me so far in my recovery.

I am really sorry you still haven't seen the kids mate. Definitely make contact - maybe a text message first to see if you get a response then maybe a call. If you get no joy there maybe a letter or email?

I have my fingers crossed for you that everything works out mate because I know if you get to see the kids it will give you such a huge boost.

We are all here for you mate and wishing you all the very best.

Best of luck mate and stay in touch,

Micky D

Hi wp,

Hope you get some progress with contacting your kids. They really do need their father figure.

Have a great gamble free weekend.

Getting There

with thanks to ade,davep,sabine,mickyd and gettin there...i have noticed that i tend to get agitated very easy these days at the slightest things..i sometimes feel like taking my anger out on someone on the street...not seeing kids and abstaining,the anger is all building up inside....reading a few diaries and there s a few coded messages flying around...never mind its not for me to worry about....each to their own 😉 today i will not bet...we can do this folks 🙂

Hi Winningpost,

My thanks to you for posting on my diary mate - I really wouldn't have got to where I am in my recovery without your kind words and support.

I find myself an odd time getting agitated at little things too mate. Things like a taxi beeping it's horn outside my house, someone knocking on my door, sometimes even someone ringing me. All innocent things done by innocent people but like you I feel like taking it out on them. When this happens I go to the quietest room in my house, switch off all televisions or any other electronic equipment and just sit or lie down with my thoughts until I calm down or clear my head. It works for me mate but I can't even begin to understand the scale of anger you must be going through right now but I hope it passes because you are such a fantastic guy and you don't deserve any of this.

I am sorry to hear you still haven't seen the kids too mate - I really hope you do get to see them very soon because I know this will give you such a great boost.

Congratulations on the excellent progress on your recovery Winningpost. You should be immensely proud of your achievement.

Hope you have a fantastic gamble-free weekend mate.

Micky D

Thanks ade and mickyd..... 300 up today,no celebrations from me !!! ,helluva long way to go yet...today i wont bet 😀

Hi Winningpost

just dropping in to add my support. you have been helpful to me and i know the situation you are in regarding your kids is a nightmare eh. I am also in that boat. through no real fault of my own i must add. i am a brilliant dad and although yeah gambling trys to wreck my life..my kids have never gone without from me or suffered because of my stupidty...i just have a crazy a** b**** of a ex. anyway we will get there in the end matey..you just keep dodin as well as you are on the gambling front and i am sure everything will work out fine for you.

neil

Thanks neil very difficult times but i know gambling is NOT the answer.,i ll find it (the answer where i m goin wrong )someday 😉 P.s ive joined the 10/10/10 club on the overcoming prob gambling page 🙂 no bets today 😀

wp

Just a note from me to say congratulations on 300 days! Awesome achievement!

Well done mate and keep making those positive posts. You are doing just great and helping others by your posts and showing the way that beating this disease is definately do-able for anyone who really wants to do it.

Keep doing what you are doing.

David

Thanks david,always nice to open my diary and find a response...just finished my shift tonight and all the little kiddies were coming out of the arena from disney on ice...standing at the bus stop seeing their excited little faces a tear rolled doon my cheek...filled with emotion why ? Because i spent some of my hard earned this month on tickets for us all to last nights show :'( gambling has destroyed me... as the saying goes i made my bed so ive got to lie in it... sorry for the negativity of this post,hope some newer diaries can take something from this....tomorrow is another day..take care my friends..

wp,

My heart goes out to you my friend. Soldier on.. keep doing what you are doing. A GA friend of mine saud to me before; If you have a foot in yesterday and a foot in tomorrow, you are pi ssing all over today. You will get the time you deserve with your kids. Demonstrating how you are a new person will become aparent to those you love.. it will take time.

I hope this will be the final hurdle you have to overcome before you can be the person you want to be.

Be strong,

Brian

Hi wp, so sorry to read your last post. Not a lot I can say to you fella accept keep your chin up and keep going. Like Brian mentioned, it has to be a time thing. Don't give in wp. Russ

Winningpost-

How are you? thanks so much for dropping on my diary, 300 days, wow congratulations mate, also a moving last entry, your kids are proud of you mate, dont forget that.

Take care