Day 49!
7weeks achieved and surpassed my PB - boom! Next milestone - 50 days and then 8 weeks (2 months!!)
Day 51!
Day 50 got past me there, busy organising the house for guests and before I return to work after the break!
Had councilling today. I've only got 4 more sessions to go. Not sure how I feel about it coming to an end but the focus this week is fun as relief 🙂
Day 52
I love being a non gambler!
Day 54
Worse for wear wkend, but not due to gambling. Just fun times with people I love 🙂
Day 55
SO tired! But able to go and get shopping with no worries of 'I can't spend more than X cos I've only got less than nothing to pay day in two weeks'! Not minted yet but reminding myself of how bleak and pathetic used to get is a real motivational tool.
So glad you have been having fun. I remember these feelings well from my 1st attempt - when you have been GF long enough to actually notice a difference - a feeling of freedom similar to giving up smoking - not having to worry to fund the habit. In it together xxxxx
Every penny counts now red , and its not getting thrown away which will take the stress away !. Stay strong and focussed m8 !
Day 56 - 8 weeks to be more precise!!
Thanks guys, the support is always appreciated no matter where we are in the process (the amount of slips I've had thank goodness!) having somewhere to keep you grounded and share with honesty is invaluable. Next couple months are going to be tight for us but we're being honest about it and hopefully will get through another gamble free month together. o*g have just realised today is 8 weeks!! (2 months) wow. I did it. After the last slip I would never have thought I could make it to this. Next mile stone is 60 days then 66 the number which is said to be the number of days it takes for a new ha it to stick! Hopefully it will be very sticky!! 🙂
Checking in 🙂
Day 58
Feeling super anxious the last couple days. Having crazy vivid dreams and restless. Feel like I used to just before started gambling. Talked about it in counselling and then talked to OH after which felt a lot better to be open. Having an early night and reassuring myself. One day at a time
Day 59
Had a more positive day at work today and reminded myself why I love my job as I wasn't so tired I couldn't concentrate! However, got home and feeling, as me and my counsellor have named it 'sh**ty'. Can't stop eating and want a cigarette, even tho I'm trying to stop, and I know it will just make me feel worse cos this is what happened the other night when I gave in. Feeling needy and restless. I know I should go for a walk or do some exercise but just feeling like a stroppy teenager. Going to rest and maybe pick up the knitting!
Just read a comment and made a mental note of it for future use but didn't think I would be quoting rose80 this quick lol.
You can't control your dreams but you can control what you do when you are awake.
KTF
Day 60
Day 60!!! 🙂
Day 61! Some awesome numbers here dear Red ☺
Keep on trucking, you're worth it!
S x
Day 61
Relaxing wkend with no gambling 🙂
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