Day 92 - 6/5/15
Going to be a long night. Paige really wont settle and its our first night without daddy!!!
I have installed K9 too and it seems to do the trick 🙂
Looking forward to rewarding myself with some new clothes for my 100 days although i might wait until i have lost some weight before shopping
update - Paige had me up till 5.30am screaming i dont know why she was clean fed etc - must have been missing her daddy! Got grand total of 2.5hrs sleep before she got me up at 8am.
Was productive with the time and opened a Junior ISA for her and deposited 10.00 (its a start to the 10'000 aim for her 18th) - would not have been able to do that if i was gambling
Day 93 - 7/5/15
Survived another day! Bit worried the OH might gamble come the weekend as he has over 1000 holiday pay coming (which would set us up nicely) but we have a way of destroying things with gambling. As far as i know he not gambled for approx 3 weeks so really hope he doesnt give in now. I know i wont give in 🙂
Day 94 - 8/5/15
Sleepy head - only had 2hours sleep again! Hopefully get my head down in a bit if Paige will settle.
Dont even get chance to think about gambling. Need to arrange my rewards as it will soon be time to choose some new goals.
Next milestones/goals
4th payday 27th May
4 months 3rd June
125 days 8th June
5th payday 26th June
150 days/5 months 3rd July
completely missed Day 95 too busy to get on here - 9/5/15
Day 96 - 10/5/15
Booked my indian head massage (30th May) for my 3rd payday reward and bought my sunbed course for my 3rd month reward. Only 4 more days to 100! also the OH says he still hasnt gambled since Paige has been here its all looking up - now if i could just get some sleep x
Beautiful pic, and with 96 days and OH not gambling, be very proud of yourself,
Keep going and stay strong and positive.
Suzanne xxx
Day 97 - 11/5/15
Thanks things seem to be looking up 🙂
Day 98 - 12/5/15
How time flies - nearly hitting 100 - didnt think i would get this far. 🙂
Day 99 - 13/5/15
Seriously i cant believe how quick the time is going. Even if i had the impulse i dont have the time to gamble (cant even read at the mo)
1 more day to a century - my reward was £50 for clothes but no where near a weight where i want to buy new clothes yet so i might change my reward x
99 red balloons are flying by today, well done you.
Suzanne xxx
Day 100 - 14/5/15
amazing I made it to 100 days. Definitely think I am going to change my reward as clothes will be useless now. Had my first sun bed session today. Got my Indian head massage on 30th. Think I may use the £50 for some beauty treatments 🙂 bit of pampering after all the trauma of birth lol. Really proud and the OH still not gambling too. So happy! X (just need sleep now and it would be perfect)
Day 101 - 15/5/15
I am still going strong not having many urges anymore so i think i have cracked it (so to speak) although its probably more that i have no time to think about anything but baby!
Hey there lovely little angel...and you dear mummy 😉
Ohhh dear...and that's danger my friend! Sadly we cannot c rack it and need to stay on guard all the time. Yes, you are focusing on things what matters the most and i pray to god you will keep doing so forever! ..just please don't start letting addiction find a sneaky way bk in..it is sneaky and it is painful.
You might think i talk bull....please believe that today is what counts the most and you will always b only one wrong decision away to jeopardise yourself and your recovery. Stay as vigilant as you are doing so well uptil now, most of all - enjoy it! You and your family are sooo worth it 🙂
Take care, stay safe, keep winning
Sandra x
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