My Diary - Day by Day

Well done on getting past that great milestone 100 days.

But as our Sandra.says be careful, because we will never crxxk this addiction lol, but by continuing to abstain and maintain one day at a time we can live along side it, keeping one step ahead.

Suzanne xxx

Can't believe I missed your century :-0 Massive well done to you 🙂

Look after Paige, look after you & stay on your guard - ODAAT

Day 102 - 16/5/15

Thanks for the advice + support guys. I know failure is just 1 wrong decision away and i am sure i will be tempted again i just believe i am strong enough to overcome it now. (especially with all the support) To another 100 days!

Day 103 - 17/5/15

Another night entry - we are still awake me and my little night owl.

First time in a long while that i actually have savings (not a lot but its a start) - just shows what you can do with money if you dont gamble.

Day 104 - 18/5/15

Dissappointed this morning to find out the OH has been gambling the last 3 days 🙁 Only found out as he didnt shut down the game before coming to bed. Upset because i had actually started to trust/believe him. Unsure whether i should confront him in the morning when he wakes up.

I am still gamble free but times like this i think f@8k it why bother! (+ then i remember all the reasons why i bother)

Two wrongs don't make a right...Never give up on you & Paige! You knew from the start that this was your journey & it was an unexpected surprise that he got caught in the wake! Going back to that poison will make you miserable & grumpy, which you really don't need as a new Mummy! Keep supporting him mentally by all means but ensure that he doesn't drag you down financially! Better you find out now & realise that unless his credit file/banks accounts are visible to you, you cannot trust him with money! I'll leave it to you to decide when to have the chat!

Keep doing what you are doing - ODAAT

Day 105 - 19/5/15

Thanks for the advice ODAAT - i wont let him bring me down/back into thisterrible cycle just expressing how it makes me feel but i know i have the resolve to carry on for me and Paige. I did tell him that i knew he gambled and i wa upset with him as i had started to trust/believe him. He said hes not addicted anymore he just had a little go??!! (the words of a true addict) I hope its just a blip

Still winning myself at 105 days 🙂

Just logged in to put a new pic on couldn't help myself. Just love my baby so much 🙂 xxxxx

Hi you, thanks for dropping by...Glad I raised a smile & my, what a sweetie 🙂

I have to confess, I'm a bit of a stalker, just ask gav123 :-0 for some reason seeing pictures of children, knowing their lives are going to be so much better (just like mine is) because of this forum, smiling out @ me never fails to light up my face!

Keep doing what's right for you & Paige, protect yourself financially as with eyes wide open, you can keep you both safe - ODAAT

Day 106 - 20/5/15

Another day another dollar saved!

Thanks for the post ODAAT and you are welcome to stalk me - lol. Its a good job you can only put 1 pic on here as it would be over run 🙂

Day 107 - 21/5/15

Day 107 on here and week 4 for baby! (also starting diet - need to fit in that bridesmaids dress) Time has flown. I have spent the £50 reward for 100 days - bought mr men little miss book set £15 nursery rhyme set £10 (for baby) 2 adult colouring books £5 new pants + socks £10 and some jeggings (never worn them before but will be more forgiving than jeans - fed up of wearing maternity stuff still) £10 🙂

wants2stop wrote:

Day 52 - 27/3/15

So here are a few financial aims by the end of the year -

Have over 250 in savings

Save over 100 for baby in JISA

Reduce my debt to under 8000 (currently stands at 9908.52)

Keep going guys - onto better things and better lives....

Update on financial aims -

I currently have £250 in my ISA (cant remember the last time i had any savings) - NEW AIM £500

I have £35 in JISA for Paige so far - NEW AIM £150

My debt is currently £7870 - NEW AIM £7000

So already hit 2 out of 3 targets (will prob amend them for end of year targets now) just from not gambling! Now there is motivation to keep going 🙂

Day 108 - 22/5/15

Here is to another gamble free day!!!

Really annoyed/angry/upset/dissappointed - came home to find the OH gambling - he wasted £1350!!!!!

Hey there,

So sorry to hear you have to go through this and it is devastating to see, since you put all the efforts to get out if that dark place.
May i ask and sorry if you already mentioned it on your diary, is your OH still in denial about his addiction?
You know yourself what it takes to pull yourself out of that mayhem we seem to create for ourselves, at this moment in time your OH doesn't help you one bit. Did he considered looking for help? I do hope this painful realisation of the power of this addiction only strengthens your resolve and be a wake up call for him also. New chapter has started for you, i wish with all my heart he will follow the lead also...

Please stay safe, have a chat with him and tell him how you feel. Recovery is the only way forward to the better and calmer future. You so deserve it, little angel deserves it..he needs to start making the right choices straight away, else he will hurt you and himself even more.

Keep breathing

S x