My Diary - Day by Day

Day 38 - 25/3/16

Lovely day today. Still turning to food for comfort. Better than gambling but not good for the waistline x

Day 39 - 26/3/16

OH been gambling again even after self excluding last week and talking all the bull about stopping. I have been at work and even too busy to even think about gambling

Happy Easter and 40 days 🙂 in it together xx

Day 40 - 27/3/16

The big 40! Happy Easter 🙂 xxxx

Day 41 - 28/3/16

Back on the diet again today. Trying not to use food to replace gambling. Still feeling low 🙁 Happy to be gf though

Chin up Hun xx you're working so hard, one thing at a time 🙂

Day 44 - 31/3/16

Thanks Red. Still gf. Seem so busy lately hence no check in. New month tomorrow. Hopefully a better one too 🙂

Day 46 - 2/4/16

Still Gf facing my own struggles but still succeeding. OH on the other hand really P*****g me off!

You have the patience of a saint! You are doing fab...Do NOT let him drag you down! Paige needs you to keep fighting for her & for you - ODAAT

Day 47 - 3/4/16

Thanks for the continued support. Fleeting had a thought of f**k it going to join in and gamble my life away too - cant be bothered with all this. Then the sane me said 'that isnt going to help anything' Stuck between a rock and a hard place. Still Gf tho x

And yes Paige is worth more than that life

And I am SO proud of you too! So hard to resist when the one you love throws caution to the wind and doesn't support your line of thinking. You are truly amazing for not giving in and sticking with the feeling of 'it won't get you anywhere'. Your are the rock in a hard place, there is a way out/forward and it's you feeling proud to be a non gambler. In it together xx

Day 48 - 4/4/16

Thanks Red your encouragement is just what i needed x

Day 50 - 6/4/16

Really fed up with the OH i have bailed him out every week for ages now he owes me over £1300 which has got me in more debt. Each time he promises he isnt going to do it anymore but he keeps gambling. Just found out he gambled again using paypal money he hasnt got! Really dont know how much more i can take. I havent got the means to bail him out again. Its getting worse again. 🙁

Hey you, I have to ask...Why are you bailing him out? He doesn't need to stop if he knows you will dig him out of any hole he gets into & as you say, you're not in a position to be giving him money to throw away like this! I applaud your strength in staying gamble free when he is not only flaunting it in front of your face but you are actually paying for it...Enough is enough surely? You are enabling him to continue in this destructive way, hurting you & hurting Paige...You need to lay down the rules now & stick to them because he is bleeding you dry & will NOT change while he has it this good! Stop the handouts please!

You keep fighting now - ODAAT