My Diary - Day by Day

All the more reason why the helpline would be a good port of call!

Give the helpline a call if you don't like what they can offer you can just hang up. Go and find yourself a quite space and give them a call you won't know unless you try.

KTF

Day 49 - 1/7/16

7 weeks GF now 🙂

Going to update financials monthly on 1st to see whats happening

15th June £6659.56 debt

1st July £6417.85 debt

Reduced debt by £241.71

Day 50 - 2/7/16

Half way to 100. Feeling positive x

Happy half century w2s ☺

Little steps forward, no looking back!

Have a lovely day

Well done on getting to the half century mark, keep strong and keep going, you know you can do it.

Day 52 - 4/7/16

Thanks for the support.

Had a little urge earlier but literally just a flicker of a thought which i squashed!

You're doing amazing chic 🙂

Know what you mean about the antidepressants - don't go back on them if you don't want to But you can still go to the doctors for extra support. The nhs are getting better generally at dealing with stress and anxiety.

The counselling I received was through gamcare and free, 12 sessions! Just ring the help line or I think the number I rang for counselling is on the drop down menu. They find out where u are and then assign u a counsellor near u. So easy and the best support/counselling I've ever received.

Onwards and upwards and those rewards worked for you before so go for it. U do deserve it xx

Day 54 - 6/7/16

Thanks for the advice Red. Was it one to one counselling? Yeah keeping strong and taking it one day at a time. Feeling a little better since admitting how i am feeling to a few people x

Day 55 - 7/6/16

Feeling good x

Day 57 - 9/7/16

As far as I know the OH hasn't gambled this week. Have enrolled in a course to keep busy/mind active.

Yes it was 1 on 1 Hun. And my counsellor was lovely! Have never got on with a counsellor before which made it difficult but this one was completely non judgemental and focused on implementing coping mechanisms not dissecting. so proud of you! 🙂 xx

Day 58 - 10/7/16

Thanks for the info Red. Been having a few little worries that i might be tempted next week when OH on nights but got plenty to do to keep occupied. Need to get back on the healthy eating too - helps me feel better. When i feel low i am more likely to gamble so need to try and lift myself up and take control.

Day 61 - 13/7/16

Was so proud of OH but he disappointed me and secretly gambled yesterday and in front of my face today. Told him how I felt. Worried about whats going to happen tomorrow now (payday) More upset as I was starting to feel positive and believe him.(and the relationship this week was much better until now)

Joined yet another course spending money on positive things rather than gambling is great. Still have a lot of obstacles but trying to keep positive so I dont fall back into the gambling trap which was my escape

I wouldn't recommend measuring his progress or yours on a daily or weekly basis. Look back over, say, six months or a year and see what (if anything) has changed. And if it's just more of the same, is that good enough for you and Paige? A few days holding your breath while he abstains or pretends to doesn't get you or Paige into a better situation. Looking ahead, will you always dread pay day? Is it all to be one big struggle?

Change is possible if you make it happen but it's long term. Same for him.

CW