My diary, my new life, my fightback

Another Saturday, used to be a dangerous day but how I’ve changed.

weather isn’t great so not much planned, bills all paid and my money is mine not the bookies.

Hi Holycrosser,

Like you Saturdays were especially dangerous for me. Numerous race meetings & 4 football leagues to go at (that's without scottish league ) they couldn't produce enough markets & betting opportunities to satisfy my addiction. In June of this year my son popped in & happened to mention it was Epsom Derby day. I'm not  lying this was the 1st time in 40 years i didn't know it was Derby day & someone had to tell me rather than the other way around. I never thought i'd see the day.

So don't ever think we can't change our mind sets or the way we've become programmed, keep doing what you're doing & abstaining becomes as natural an instinct as gambling once was. I missed Cheltenham, Royal Ascot, the guineas and the Derby this year & lets hope i can do the same next year. Today has been what some may say rather mundane stuff, been shopping, walked the dog, met a visiting relative for a coffee but you know what, all of those things have given me more satisfaction than gambling ever did.

You're Doing Great, Stick At It & Best Wishes

AL 

Thanks AL , doing things normal people do feels special.

Im appreciating people and life a lot more

Beginning to lose count.

That's a good thing eh?

Today I wont gamble 

Off out to treat a friend and her daughter, I’m paying and it’s not annoying me to do so.

what a difference in my mindset.

Day 140 according to my calendar.anhyhoo another working week begins , no meals or trips planned so a free week thankfully after a packed last 6 weeks.

Still gambling is way to the back of my mind, no triggers so that helps.

Work just about done, did a lot of reading stuff on here today whilst bored at work.Incredible how this has hurt so many folk .

i don’t want to ever go back to this c**P

Last say of the month.treating myself to a Costa,past habits would have me trying to win the £3 I've just paid.

I enjoy a coffee now

Start of another day,  did the googling betting sites thing again late last night.no idea why, tricky period so need to stay strong, getting one or two urges from absolutely no where this has come on.

It wont get me

Talk Sport crept back into my habits of late, habits like checking racing results, looking at new betting sites via google.

really need to be on my guard at the moment, head has become full of gambling and I’ve no excuse, I’m the most settled I’ve ever been, why is it creeping in? 

Got to stay in control, online can’t get me, if I walk into a shop I will be devastated, stay strong lad.

Got through todays wee wobble,  stayed in control thankfully. 

Hi,

You'll get through today too just remember how far you've come, and all the good things that have happened in your life since you've stopped. Don't ever dwell on what you've lost but look at all the good things you've gained.Remember we're all 1 bet away from disaster.

Best Wishes

AL

Posted by: alwalm

Hi,

You'll get through today too just remember how far you've come, and all the good things that have happened in your life since you've stopped. Don't ever dwell on what you've lost but look at all the good things you've gained.Remember we're all 1 bet away from disaster.

Best Wishes

AL

Thanks Al, hated the feelings and yes 1 bet away.....dunno about disaster but it would be for me personally as I’ve set the bar high, never again, not once is my intention.

Hi Again Hollycrosser,

Like you a week ago i got that "I'LL JUST HAVE A LOOK THOUGHT " regarding internet betting sights & something clicked about something you said about switching mobile phone off in the evening in one of your previous posts. That's exactly what i did, even at 64 never too old to learn.  It worked a treat thanks.

Stay Strong

AL 

Meant sites not sights maybe dementia setting in lol