My first diary!

Hi Diary,

Day 307 - Fine today. Little lethargic not wanting to do a great deal but no gambling thoughts so moving forward day by day with that one.

Day 307 - OK!

Morning,

Day 308 - Another week done. That's 44 by my calculations. Today is going to be positive. Been blaming the time of year for too long now so, it's time to pick myself up. Exercise take 2 begins. I was in really good shape pre xmas and I have about 50 days to get back there. Today is day 1.

Day 308 - Lift off!

Hello Diary,

Day 309 - Back to work today. Had a quick scan of emails on Friday so that's one less job to do. Sure there is plenty to get on with at the moment if I look hard enough. Today though ease back in gently not working too hard and pick up properly tomorrow. Excellent plan 🙂

Day 309 - Gently!

Many thanks for your supprt and encouragement, much appreciated as it surely is a hard slog at this stage and this time of year.

xxx

Morning World,

Day 310 - Feel like the days are really motoring by once again. That January malaise is passing albeit slowly. This whole recovery journey is a steep learning curve and getting to know myself has been a part of it. I thought the low moods, lethargy, and lack of motivation were all bi-products of my gambling but I have now realised they are part of my make up and it's a battle for me to overcome them at certain points.

My gambling and it's associated problems are still raw enough for me to not consider going back and that feeling of disgust toward myself has actually served me pretty well. I guess the tests to come for me are after my Barcelona trip when there isn't something beyond that to look forward to in the short/medium term. Then later in the year when the dark nights draw in once again and it's much easier to just vegetate.

Those problems though are not imminent and I feel I have got through a trying time unscathed and gamble free. Confidence is high that I will reach my 1 year target the test then is to re-focus and continue moving forward. Not had a waffle for a while but say what you think isn't a bad philosophy sometimes so there it is.

Day 310 - Waffle!

Flagg.

You're doing really well mate.

Continued best wishes.

gazza

Hi Diary,

Day 311 - Nice early post today, bit short staffed out in our warehouse so I have offered my services for a couple of hours. A change from the office. Will still have to do all of my day job too so it could be a busy day.

No gambling thoughts for a few days now nice to be back in that groove. Exercise close to lifting off again too so all in all it's not a bad start to the week.

Day 311 - Manual Labour!

Hello Diary,

Day 312 - Nothing much to report today GA on Valentines Day sounds immense lol! No problems here though having a pretty solid week.

Day 312 - All Good!

Hey Flagg,

You sure are racking them days up!

Just a thought but maybe the Barcelona trip will be a real positive in your life.....You will enjoy it so much that you want more!

Sunny here today....ditch them slippers and get your running shoes on!

Happy valentines......enjoy GA tonight.

Sue xx

Good Morning,

Day 313 - Friday rolls around again and what a lovely day it is too. Sun is shining brightly today bit better here than in Russia at least. That must have been confusing as hell for them. Meteor shower is weird enough but in Russia things glowing in the sky they might have thought it was the Sun.

Anyway totally off topic I am absolutely fine today. Weekend should be good lots of football and with this weather change hopefully no cancellations. Looking forward to a 45th consecutive bet free weekend.

Day 313 - Friday 🙂

Morning Diary,

Day 314 - Looks a lovely morning for football today. Sure underfoot it will still be pretty muddy after recent weather but for a fine weather player like me I welcome the morning sun.

Again not a great deal to report it's been a quiet week really and I would take a few more like this really in the lead up to that 1 year milestone.

Day 314 - Sunny Saturday!

Hey There Mr. Flagg,

Great to read that you are on an even keel and to echo Sue that you are just racking up those days. Keep up the good work friend. Your posts are always such a joy to read. We could sure use a little of that sunshine around here today. Have fun! -joanxx

Hi flagg ive really messed up and i need to be taken off the thread i cant believe what ive done. I apoligize as i idint actually complete the january thread i was living a lie on here, dont know why certainly wouldve helped owning up and stopping what i was doing before it escalated as it ofcourse was going to anyway i feel bad about that as i love threads and i knw they do help me, yes i didnt complete them but thats becuase its such a strong addiction. I felt really honoured when you said about my enthausiam for the threads and felt part of something an i feel bad letting you down and ofcourse myself down. Shame i wont complete the cheltenham thread either but im gonna be unfocially checking in in my own mind making sure that i get through cheltenham. Anyway im not gonna ramble on anymore. Im in abit of a daze and hope what ive said has made some sense. Thanks for your help and im still here and will be for a long time yet, i may keep falling but i keep getting up and will never give up giving up.

Hi Flagg,

Just having a catch up, I could not miss u out 🙂 U have made me laugh so many times on this journey I have enjoyed our jokes in chat ...thank u 🙂

I hope u r ok? and that u r feeling better from when we last spoke!

I know u have a tough mth coming up but with ur strength and determination, I know u will get thru it!

U r doing brilliant 🙂

Have a gr8 nite xx

Morning,

Day 315 - Thanks for the posts, I will catch up with everyone in due course.

Good day yesterday through to one semi final and next week have a chance to reach another so still the chance of a unique treble, unlikely but good fun on a saturday morning. This season I have been outstanding and although that sounds a little big headed the point is it's another bi-product of not gambling. I don't have a million and one things racing through my head and I just go out and play.

Anyway, as for the gambling any thoughts have now long gone again and definitely back on an even keel. It's already mid February and the only problem I have right now is I don't know where the time goes too be honest.

Day 315 - 50 days to go!