25th May was doing really well then relapsed 100 quid turned onto my whole wage gone the self loathe is sickening I keep asking why? I'm in a really dark spot can't see my way out . Feel so bad has my partner has been so supportive I still can't admit to him the debt on his card i have wanted to tell him but I just can't fear that my relationship will also be gone ...I know I have a big problem and along way to go to recovery but hoping this diary will help. I have told myself I can't reverse any of my stupidity and the nerves in my stomach have faded a little .
Hi... its surprising how quickly the pain of a big loss will pass. Financially you will find your way through. Your partner will find out sooner or later, so its better it comes from you than he find out any other way. Say it in terms of what you are going to do to stop yourself gambling e.g... if its online, put blocking software on your computer. I use betfilter.com. Its good you can't just uninstall it. If its bricks and mortar places, then get yourself excluded.
Keep posting... S.A
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