Wow 100 days mate well done we all know how hard a day can be at times so to do it 100 times over is a great achievement.
Beware the milestone wobbles had a few myself when getting past 100.
Stay strong keep making the right choices and enjoy your night of footy.
Thanks for the post mate, glad to join you on triple figures. The first 100 days has been brilliant, now imagine how good things will be once we hit the double century! Keep making those right choices.
Phil
Day 103
No urges. My wife was asking me if I'd had urges and I said yes, she wanted to know how I dealt with them. I didn't really need to deal with them as they just went away, I don't think I have any techniques to deal with said urges, only years of experience that knows where it can lead.
That and how I am feeling so much better now compared with when I was gambling, when you are feeling good you don't need that distraction on gambling. It's such a vicious circle once you start and snow balls out of control.
I know know these small 'harmless' bets are not worth it for me. The risk is losing everything, my marriage, my home, my health. The reward is a few extra quid which I'd likely only gamble and lose again or splurge on nights out drinking which I can do without!
Off on a stag do next week so need to change some money, whilst I'm not flush and it still makes an impact, it would have been an impossible task a few months back, begging, stealing and borrowing to afford it.
Things are looking up, I just need to keep on the right path.
Day 104
Almost 13 weeks.
No gambling thoughts or urges in the last day or so.
Looking forward to the weekend although don't have much planned, chance to get a few jobs done etc.
Start of day 106
Up to my mums for mothers day, had a few beers last night but feeling fresh
Had a vivid dream of gambling and losing last night. Was worrying about where I would get the money from and felt the feeling that my world was collapsing. Found myself half asleep saying to myself 'Please be a dream, please be a dream!'
Luckily it was an really pleased I've completed another day, Saturdays are probably the hardest as my mates post a lot of betting slips across social media and I do think about the odds and what I would go for. Also my wife has a season ticket for a local team so I'm left to my own devices on a Saturday, which I enjoy but has been dangerous in the past.
Hi tears,
Well done on 106 days it's a massive achievement to hit that 100 milestone, welcome to the century club.
What a relief to wake up and know it was only a dream, it is a reminder to us about how awful gambling is lol
Stay strong and keep going.
Suzanne xxx
Thanks for all the postitve messages!
Up to 107 days today, off on holiday tomorrow for 4 days so probably won't update on here for a while.
No gambling urges at all really. My wife left her credit card at home the other day and I used it to buy something as didn't have the money in my account. Part of my brain said I could gamble with this but there was no gambling urge to take that thought any further. My wife was naturally worried when she got home and saw the card in front of the computer though!
It's little things like this that will build up the trust but I'm no where near ready to admit I've recovered.
Next few days will be boozy and some of the lads are talking about going the casino. I've said I've stopped gambling so don't want to go and a few lads also said they aren't interested so should be able to swerve going or else I'll just sit at the bar and talk to the bar staff!
Day 112
Back from 4 days away and shattered! TIme to recover and get back to normality!
No gambling, no one wanted to go the casino in the end which was a relief! No thoughts either, it's getting much easier to go through a day without urges although I am continuously working on making sure I don't slip back into old habits.
Couple of quiet months now prior to stag dos/weddings so will try to chip away at my debt.
Day 114
No urges although fleeting thoughts of gambling. I'm sure they will start to fade but I have a habit of thinking how to make quick money when I am skint, gambling has always been an opportunity to gain more money. Now I know that opportunity comes with addiction, lying, debt etc and I'm not prepared to do it.
Really fancy a new job, bit of a fresh start but not sure what I want to do. Once I've recovered from yesterdays drinking I'll start to have a look.
Day 115
Again no urges, dreamt about it again though!
Back on the fitness drive now my 2 day hangover is over! Got 3 months to lose the gut!
Well done on 115 days days, you are doing great.
Suzanne xxx
Thanks Suzanne.
Up to 116 now.
Must be up to the longest I've ever not gambled in my adult life now. Feels quite easy, the urges are few and far between. I think my honesty with my wife was the key factor this time.
Previously when I'd hit 'rock bottom', secretly I'd know I would still gamble and would leave doors ajar to get back in. This time I've been 100% honest and done everything in my power to get better.
I've been so dishonest over the years, the biggest benefit I'm feeling is lack of guilt from lying. The debts and bills remain but hopefully they will subside with time.
118 118
Coming up to 4 months. No real urges but had some money in my bank for the first time in quite a long time and it did cross my mind.
Not strong enough urges where I was seriously contemplating it. Some vivid dreams though.
Out tonight for some fun and games at a 30th, then a quiet remainder of the weekend. Need to get out jogging as I'm doing a 10k in 6 weeks. Thinking of trying a cheeky 5k on Sunday.
121 days gamble free
Plenty drank over this weekend but no signs of gambling, brief chat with a mate who appears to have a bit of a hidden gambling problem. Didn't really go into my issues to much but just talked about the up and moreso the downs on gambling and how better life is without it.
Hoping it starts to warm up a bit this week, hoping to start playing golf a bit.
128 days.
Been feeling a bit low of late. I'm worried about the money I owe but continue to spend more than I can afford. Although at least it's not gambling.
Need to start enjoying the free things in life a bit more, I'm forever thrill seeking, whether it be gigs and nights out or just buying stuff I don't really need.
Bit of a blow out over the Easter weekend, hopefully allow me to get on the straight and narrow now.
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