New beginnings!

Hi Lucy,

Wanted to let you know that I have been following your diary and you are truly inspiring.

I have just joined and would welcome any support you can offer xx

Hi Lucy, what a truly remarkable, frank and honest post. I too was moved to tears for you, but as so many have already said, you are free now lovey, free as a bird, to live your life the way Lucy wants to live her life. No more shackles to drag you down, no more what ifs. Just as in gambling its onwards and upwards for you now, no looking back, the future is on the horizon, grab it with both hands and shout yipeeeeeeee.

You have rid yourself of baggage that was weighing you down, but no more bagagge, only freedom.

Life is for living Lucy, you have it all now, and as far as Im concerned, it is no more than you deserve 🙂

You reap what you sow, you give so much to so many, and you are reaping your just rewards.

Have a great evening friend,

All the best

Cameron

HI Lucy,

Just been catching up on your posts, wow lucy what a day eh but you came out of it the other side, its done now you wont ever have to go through that again, that part of your life is over and you wouldnt be human if you wasnt sad in some way.

This time now is about you, your not responsible for someone elses choice or actions only your own and look at what a fantastic job your doing of taking that responsibilty back, your carving your own way in life, its yours to shape it how you want it to be, its yours to choose. My dad always said to me "Dont ever settle for second best". You might have to kiss a few frogs along the way, but there is somewhere out there who when your ready will love and cherish lucy for that special kind, honest, loving person that she is..

Your so strong lucy, i hope that smile comes back real soon.

Blondie day 56 xxxx

Hi Lucy, really sorry to read your post. I had no idea you were going through so much, these past weeks must have been really difficult for you. When any relationship falters its upsetting. When you see someone you loved and invested so much into behaving so pathetically through booze then again it must be heartbreaking. Nothing I can say will really make you feel better. Time will eventually heal the wounds. You must be strong though, you have to be positive. This will be a new, better chapter in your life. You have your independence, you are in control of how you feel no one can impose that upon you now. It's really difficult when someone who's been part of your life is no longer there but it gets easier until you'll wonder how you managed to put up with it for so long. I'd imagine that you still have a lot of things to sort out, painful, emotionally draining things. I wish you the best for this, and strength, keep strong, Steve.

Good Morning

Thank you again for all the support, it's been needed and helped me alot

Was good yesterday, new policy at work started as was apprehensive as i wrote it ! but started ok so less stress there.

Home .... was ok early evening and had a laugh with a mate but later on i started to feel really edgy, a few urges came but i batted them into touch as i know i can never go down that path again.

Lot's of self doubt started appearing, not in leaving the ex (best decision i've made apart form stopping gambling) but in who i am!

I read all the lovely things people put about me but find it soo hard to recognise that person , i've been put down and rejected for so many years i have lost most of my confidence.

I put on a brave front infront of others and at times do feel good about me but too often i just can't see what others see.

I need to start believing in myself, my mantra has always been that 'things happen for a reason' and i got my ' believe' like my tattoo to remind me daily that it can happen and that i am that person.

Please don't think i'am on my knees , i am getting there and know just the huge changes lately are weighing a little heavy at the moment.

So today i have made a pact with myself that by friday i will be back to Smiling Lucy , i will start 'believing' that i am the person you see!

Thanks again for all your support as always

Keep Strong all

Not quite Smiling Lucy but getting there! xxx

Morning Lucy, thank you for your lovely post on mine. My words were no more than the Gods honest truth lovey, spoken from the heart and I meant every one of them 🙂

You have your whole life ahead of you now, its yours for the taking. Grab it all with both hands, and enjoy !!!

Today I am happy, I will defo not gamble, and I wish you the same. Have a great one 😀

Cameron

Lucy.

Together we will "believe" no we do believe!!!!

And together we will gamble free all step forward and never back.

We cannot change the past my dear friend but we really can decide on our futures for us and ours, so lets enjoy the good that is right in front of us and each day keep deciding what is the best way to start a day NO BET TODAY !!!

Guarenteed to bring that MONSTER SMILE back!!! duncs compulsive gambler no bet today.

You can be "getting there" as I changed my name from that to my present one! 🙂

NT

Hi Lucy,

Thank you so much for your post on my diary, am totally into my recovery thanks to this site and a special friend.

Will have a think about councilling and which way I go . I need a little space to seperate things at the moment..longest I have not gambled in last 3 years is 3 weeks..maybe I need to get past that stage first.

Anyways I am also great believer in things happen for a reason!

Sue xx

Good Morning World

What a difference a day makes, friends are sooo important in helping us through tough times and i have a great mate who supports me soooo much and it gets me through with the wise words.

Today

No more feeling sorry and guilty for the ex

No more thinking of the wasted years

Today

I will not gamble

I will smile

I will be happy

I will continue to start my new life in a positive way without looking back

Smiling Lucy is back and is looking forwards not back anymore

Thanks for all your support as always

Keep Strong

Smiling Lucy xxxxxx

Ssshhhhhhhhhh,

I need to whisper, supposed to working (from home ) but took two shakes of a donkeys tail cause have to say.

Bloody Marvalous, yipeeeeeee, and fantazi doze eeeeeee.

Smiling Lucy's Back.

Go girl, and all this without climbing another mountain.

The fairy is also beaming from ear to ear must be infectious .

Right back to it,( time out just our little secret lol )

Dusty xxxxxxxx

Hey Buddy,

Good to hear from you.. I really need to cut out the midweek booze.. sitting here at work with absolutely no inclination to actually do anything! But then I am leaving on Friday so what the hell?!

We have another thing in common… my mantra in life is also ‘things happen for a reason’. Funny thing is when I was having counselling I said that to my counsellor but I just couldn’t see any reason why I would go on a two and a half month bender and lose everything I had and more! But on reflection and after a certain amount of time, I have come to realise that I was just a volcano waiting to erupt!

I too have confidence issues although if you knew me personally, I doubt you would come to that conclusion. We’re pretty good at covering these things up, but without the crutch of gambling, we are just having to deal with all these issues and it ain’t easy!

But you know what mate? All the kind words that people have said about you are true and you have to start believing them. Yes you had a s**t time and yes, you may have used gambling to block it out, but you are coming through that dark tunnel now, you are making real progress and there is light at the end mate.. lots of it and bright as you want it to be!

Like you said, you just have to BELIEVE!! And with great mates supporting you, how can you possibly go wrong??

Oh and I’m pretty sure there is a Louboutin slipper out there that fits you perfectly!!!! 😉

Keep smiling buddy.. it bloody suits you!!

xxxxxxxxxxxx

HI Lucy,

Thats the spirit lucy Onwards and upwards is the only way.

For me I belive that my past relationships and experiences has made me into the person I am, each time i get it wrong or it hasnt worked out I have learnt a valuable lesson the biggest from my ex husband we have a great relationship now he is married with another little girl we was together for 16 years and I just grew out of love with him, although really really tough at the time today its great, I get on really well with his new wife she even sends me kisses on text messages, if you would of asked me if it would of been like this when i split i would of thought you was mad. I suppose what im trying to say is things change, people change and as you move forward you will im sure get a better/different perspective on things.

I used to joke with my best friend that we would still be single in our wheel chairs in a nursing home lol, Who knows what is waiting round the corner.!!!!!

Your doing amazing lucy keep that smile firmly on your face, Im proud to be part of your journey.

Blondie xx

Hiya Luce....

Has our Smiler got some competiton now?...glad to hear you are smiling again and as you may catch on others diaries Im doing a quick hello until i can catch up on your thread as I know a lots happened recently and i hate to skim read....

had to chuckle at Blondies recent post on the nursing home....can you imagine all us women wheelspinning up and down corridors having the time of our lives...

We wouldn't be lonely...

We are never lonely on here as there is understanding and more importantly a willingness to understand each other ....

Keep doing fantastically Luce...standing tall in your Jimmy Choos...holding your head high ...lol...thinking of making a career out of Fendi knock offs after seeing so many on my jols...

thinking many men will be thinking "What ARE they talking about"...lol

Speaky soon

Rach xxxx

yo second visit of the day, really should knuckle down,obviously taking a lead out of Wilsy book.

Smoking................

Thinking of rolling my own but a woman wearing Prada, Louboutins and carrying the Mulberry bag would not be a good look lol lol lol so will have to think of something else!

Rolling around on the floor at that one.think you should have one of those longgggggg cigarette holders , now that would set off the look ........

Oh what a joy this site today , all I have done is chuckle since this morning.

Dusty xxxxx