NEW DAWN , NEW DAY , FEELING GOOD !

Ffs alan....you nearly gave me a heart attack !
I've just had new nails .....I was about to start biting them....you naughty boy...lol
Glad pooch is doing ok..
2 boys together in recovery. ...perfeck x

Boris , Boris who the f**k is Boris ? Think it's someone I used to know but who used to prefer Tea and biscuits if memeory serves ? :))

I thought the battered jaffa cakes might give you a clue lol

300? Blimey doesn't time fly when you're having fun? Well done Uncle Albert, shamazing achievement. I know you've turned over a new leaf and all but I'm afraid I can't resist - HIGH FIVE!

xx

Thought as much , are you back or gonna do another Dexit ? Thats like Brexit except for you in case your thick ? LOL , whatever it's good to hear from you old buddy x

Had a few rough week's wanted to run and hide. Popped in saw you post and thought I would drop some moral your way
No dexit this time lol

Just like me to come on at the wrong time then egh ? . :))

Seriously though , nice to hear from you buddy , I've got to shoot now but I'll catch up with you soon and listen to your tales of woe , just have you've done to me on many occasions .

Hope your alright mate and I'll speak to you soon x

Morning Uncle George, just popping by to say huge congrats on day 303 (ok, so I was meant to say it on day 300, but I'm a little bit late. Not my fault...I was playing a game of cow tipping but one fell on me and it's taken the last few days to get out from under it).

Lovely to see you enjoying life to the full. I hope your dog is ok, and recovering well from the op. Good to hear that your family and the little ones are ok. Exciting (maybe a bit daunting?) plans about the shop eh? It'll be interesting to see what you decide. But of course, the big event on the horizon is the wedding. Not long now. I'm sure you'll have an amazing day. Make sure you pack some tissues as you'll no doubt need them. Nothing wrong with a few man tears. Keep up the good work, and make sure you let us know how it's all going.

LB x

Yo me booty...
Yer made me day..anyway can't stop now. ..off for eyebrow wax and pedicure....
Even had new nails and hairdo tother day !
Blimey. ..I'll be like an old yaw done up lamb fashion in a while !
Hope all good up your way...kids
.dog..shop...wedding...loads going on me dear...enjoy it all...as we can both now see the way to happy times clearly....well...if I can find me specks ! mwahhh cxx

Evening diary , Very quiet on this old place of late and seems kinda odd sometimes having a look around and not knowing anyone but I guess I didn't know anyone when I first arrived and whoever we are on here we all still have a common goal .

Life's just whizzing along at a alarming rate at the moment , with hardly a moment spare to dwell on anything and all energy and focus aimed soley at my daughters forthcoming wedding , just over 3 weeks to go and all last minute preperations being taken care off .

Just spent most of today locked away , putting effort into completing my Father of the bride speech , it's looking pretty good now soo maybe a re read during the week and a bit more tweeking at the weekend and we'll be there .

Son caame back on Wednesday to work at the gallery and this weekend to work at his other job at a champagne bar , hes returned to his uni digs tonight as the surfs looking good for tommorow , so didn't get much chance to talk with him for long .

The foster kids are all doing really well but a bit miffed because they cant go with us to the wedding in Italy as we can't take them out of the country just yet but wev'e promised to take them to the Isle of Wight later in August for a few day's .

Puppys recovering well after her op on tuesday and already I know I did the right thing cause she's full of life again and is already starting to use her repaired leg, the insurance are trying to worm there way out of paying by saying it's an ongoing condition because she had the other leg doine 2 yrs ago but my vet's pushing for a trauma injury , so we'll wait and see , I wouldnt have whinged about blowing £1200 on gambling back last year so I'm certainly not going to whinge when it's helped my old faithfull out , I owe her big time as she's caught 2 people trying to break in my house over the years and watched me sob my eyes out over past events in my life and never ever judged me :)).

Life feels strange now , can't explain it other than to say " normal " whatever normal is ? but normals good because it's not full of the wrong kind of stress I used to get while gambling , its not full of worry and of sleepless nights thinking about the damage I'd done to myself the day before in the bookies and wondering how I was going to cover up a huge loss or where I was going to get another loan or balance transfer to add to all the other one's I accumalated from other groundhog day's stuck in the cycle , 10 months is all it's taken to feel like this again , from the dark place I was back then when I contenplated ending it all while sat at my daughters 30th birthday last september to the position I'm in today , happier , healthier and looking forward to walking my daughter down the aisle as a proud gamble free dad . And for anyone reading this especially if your new to the site I'll say this , just dont give up , however bad you feel right now you can do this , you just need to make a desicion to stop and stay stopped , hiowever you choose to do it is down to you as there are many , many options but just one day at a time is fine and really is all it takes , I know because Iv'e just completed my 306 th one day at a time .

My name is Alan and I'm a compulsive gambler , night diary xx

Oh b****r !
Write a long ...soppy...nice...complementary reply....then lost it..arghhhh
Bloody new nails !
but basically saying ...top man me booty...

Morning Harold. A few of us have been on our holibobs I guess you didn't get the memo. Probably the reason we're all a bit quiet. I remember last week my mate telling me about his mom and dad we're going to take there dog to be put down as the vet said she didn't have to leave no left as she was to ill. My mate took her on one last hunt with him and she sprung to life another 5 year's she lasted. I guess that's where the saying comes from there's life in the old dog yet?

It's always a pleasure to read how life is going well for you
I'm sure you will smash the speech especially if you use the same humor as you do on here

Anyway just thought I would check in. I've had a great little break with the family spent a fortune but the memories are priceless. And I did my first long motorway drive.
Gratz also on the 307 days of winning my freind
Deano x

Mr Deanooooo , as I live and breathe !! I do wish you'd get your own place as I feel I'm talking to myself when I post to you on my page ( mind you I do talk to myself quite a lot as iyt's an age thing ) . " There's life in the old dog yet " , your'e quite right mate , in the dog and me I';m glad to report :)). I've even started having Sunbeds now , because my daughter saw me in shorts the other day and mentioned that she wasn't looking forward to her wedding quite as much because she'd never been abroad with an Albino ( cheeky cow ) , so she gave me a £ 25 voucher for a sun shop but when I put it in the machine it said top up with £30 and get another tenner credit , so that added to the £18 quid I already had on there friom a previous life gave me a large enough sum to start looking like David Dickenson ( Mahogany ) I think the colours called , so now she's worried that they'll think I'm a refugee trying to claim asylum ( no pleasing some people is there ) ? :)).

Glad you had a great time with your loved ones mate , nothing like spending your time and your hard earned on em and seeing the pleasure on there faces and as you said giving them memories to treasure . That motorway driving is pretty scary when your on your own fior the first time though mate , I can remember it well , although I did have a bloke with a red flag showing me the way :))..

Hope everythings going well for you on the gambling front to , are you still doing the meetings ?

Whatever your doing buddy is down to you and as long as your happy in life thats all we need , plese start a page up on here so I can respond , otherwise old Mr magoo eyes will miss something , or maybe my retinas have been burned out by all the Tanning ??.

Have a good one bud , thanks for the drop by as it's always nice to hear from ya !!

Talk to you soon Deano xx

Jesus Alan you will be shaving your legs next. I thought I was the one who was supposed to wear a dress round here.
I would of thought working in a chippy you would have an all year round glow anyway?

I'm not going to meetings anymore no as they wouldn't stock the right biscuits.
I'm just not the therapy type of person to be honest al
People might call it lazy or half hearted but whatever.

I'm not starting another diary as I don't want the abuse plus I'm out of diehard film title's

Anyway don't forget to take a spare sock next time you're going to the beds as you dont want to get the old boy burnt lol
Deano x

A dress , a dress ? , Mate with my stunning tanned pins , I'm into " Hot Pants " now :)) and yes the " Old chap " stays covered as years of working in the chippy has taught me there's nothing worse than a burnt sausage ? .

Abuse ? , whos gonna give you abuse , tell me and I'll have a word if ya like ?.

Look if it doesn't feel right then there's no point in just going through the motions , it helps many but there's still no guarantee at the end of the day , youv'e been around here enough to know it's about you and what feels right , you know my opinion on it and I would never say never but I felt I've always been in control of my journey so far and at the moment it's working just fine , I wouldn't call it lazy or half hearted but I'm sure others would disagree ? but I can't understand why you wouldnt come back here to work through it , ok sometimes it all gets a bit crazy but it lets you vent and get all your shi.t out in txt ? .

I know Iv'e not been around much of late but once the weddings sorted I'm sure I'll pick up again and try and offer a bit of support where I feel able and that goes for you too , you were always good at relating to others , particularly the newbies who you can really empathise with . But all said and done it's about you buddy and how you work your recovery and you know full well I'm not gonna judge or preach , coz people in glass houses and all that eh? .

I'll talk to you soon mate , just leave a post if you feel like a natter ?

xx