Decided to start a diary to try & help get myself rid of gambling from my life once & for all
Basically I've been gambling for around 10 years on the internet, sometimes reasonable periods in between when stopped but always went back to it, bet before occasionally but never much & any losses were instantly forgotten, internet betting is too easy to lose control, I am pretty tight with my money when I have it in my wallet anyway
Started out betting on sports had odd win but lost a lot more than I won like most people & chased those losses, worst part has been since I came across roulette initially & then blackjack, lost ridicolous amounts on them games, lost check of reality time & time again, it's only afterwards you realise how stupid you've been, but your mind regroups & encourages you to try & win it back & it always ends the same way
I'm currently at day 11 bet free, I've been at that point many times before but this time I am determined not to go back to the feelings you have to deal with after losing money
First thought I get every morning is how could I have been so stupid, but I can't change the past but I can the future, I accept now nothing to be gained through betting just misery & am determined never to bet again
I have no debts & I'm in employment so I'm lucky really as this problem could have got much worse if I'd not done something about it
Rich
Day 13, Early days but not even thinking about gambling & the daft sums of money I have tossed away are not on my mind as much, feeling quite positive at the moment
Day 14, Bank statement came today had a quick look & ripped it up, not pretty reading, my next aim is to have no transactions to betting companies on my statement next month
Day 17, no urges to place any bets but not getting complacent as been this far many times before
Enjoyed watching plenty of sport this weekend with no interest in the betting aspect of it
My job at working is changing so going to be involved with a lot of training in the next few weeks which should be a good thing in keeping my mind focused
Early days but so far so good, good luck to everyone else
Huge well done on 17days, good for you! Stay strong C x
Huge well done on 17days, good for you! Stay strong C x
Day 24, going well had no thoughts of gambling at all, still think about the daft amounts of money I tossed away sometimes & wonder how I could have been so daft but not beating myself up about it
Started setting myself a monthly budget to live off & trying to save so much to buy something for myself, already saved a reasonable amount in 3 weeks by walking to work
Good to wake up not thinking about chasing the previous day's losses, never want to be in that position again
Hi Rich, well done on 24day gf. I'm think your budget and setting yourself a goal is a great idea. Good for you! Stay strong c x
Hi rich
well done on your journey, was a good idea too stop not having any debt and understanding that gambling is not a life for you. I know people who lose more than they think and say they haven't got a problem. Problems are clear with people's mood and action. I am a far better person not gambling. Cool, calm and relaxed. When gambling being up tight and nervous your team scores 5 mins in and then trying too hold out and your team loses a goal in Injury time too bust your coupon. Nine times out of ten you have the money counted and spent. One of the worst feelings ever. Block that feeling out my friend and build a good future gf stay strong
Ally
Day 30, had no thoughts of betting at all, not keeping much money in my current account any more, that stops any temptation, wish I'd done that before but obviously did not want to stop then, very determined this time, next target 50 days
Stay strong everyone, life without gambling is much better than life with it
Day 37, Days going by quickly, enjoying life without gambling, sleeping well & no stress well a little at work but I can live with that
Been thinking about a few things & look back on my gambling in boxing terms as a me a lightweight fighting the bookies a heavyweight, a fight I obviously could not win, on the 1st September I threw the towel in on that fight & started a new fight one to stop gambling, this is a fight I can & will win
Enjoying watching sport without betting on it, off to watch my local football team this afternoon then home to watch the rugby & darts finals
I've accepted the money lost has gone for good & looking to the future only, which will be a good future without gambling
Reading diaries on here as helped me with positive thinking
Take care everyone, it's not easy but it gets better as each day goes by, the only winners through gambling are the bookies, your lifes will be much mor enjoyable without it
Day 41, bank statement came today was good to open it & see no betting transactions on it that was an early goal of mine
Not had any thoughts of gambling at all, life is so much better without it but I know I have to be on my guard in case the urges come back, only carry my cash card when I need to get some money out & do not keep much money in my current account any more, stupidly I kept large sums of money in my current account previously as the interest rate was higher than my isa, daft thinking really don't get any interest on money that is being thrown away
Day 50 today, gets easier as each day goes by, no thoughts of gambling at all for weeks now, 75 days my next target now, enjoying life without gambling I am a better person without it that's for sure
Well done Rich on your 50 days thats a great achievement
Day 75, reached my next target, gambling seems a distant memory now a bad one at that, next target 100 days
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