No looking back

Hi,. 

Guilt can be like compulsive gambling, it consumes us in the same way gambling consumes us. At the end of the day you're a CG not a mass murderer. Maybe you've lost enough money to take your kids to Disneyland. But if you walk to the local park & push them on a swing for an hour it's been a good day & most importantly a worthwhile one.

What CG doesn't feel guilt ?. All I can say is by punishing yourself you punish your loved ones. One day at a time and each day you give yourself to your family no matter how hard, no matter how tiring, if you can say I did that today then it's a stepping stone to being better tomorrow. CGs I think spend years hurting their loved ones, forget the guilt & try making up for lost time is the best advice I can offer. You're young enough to achieve providing more good days than the bad times of the past, but time won't be on your side forever so best get started.

Best

Al

Hi al, thankyou. Needed to read that. X

Day 13 no gambling but can't even think about it,  so so ill. Trying anything to get mentally better but have made my self feel physically worse in process. Regretting agreeing to a certain treatment, struggling to function. Pretty scary with kids to care for. 

One day at a time, today I won't gamble ?

Days 16 gamble free.

Not much else to say apart from I'm doing it, will keep trying and taking it day by day, sometimes just hour by hour.

Stace,

Whatever works half hour by half hour or day by day it really doesn't matter. I was a bit worried tonight as you came on chat then disappeared shortly afterwards. I know it isn't easy but nothing in this world that's worth having comes easy or cheap.

Keep Going

Al

Thanks al. I'm not so good at moment ,  so think hanging around on chat won't benefit me or anyone else properly. Il be bk properly soon. 

Take care x

Think I'm around 18ish days gamble free. I think things are finally starting to look up for me. Bout time..I think me, my partner and kids deserve some happiness ?

Pitter patter ???

Hi. 

You've hit the nail right on the head, we're all entitled to happiness don't let the online casinos tell you otherwise.

Keep Going

Al

Thanks al, we all deserve to be happy.

Not been active on here as much as I've got a poorly girl. She has to go hospital soon and I'm worried sick, so I haven't relapsed  , think I'm 19 days gf, I'm just worried sick and comforting her. Shes sleeping at mo so thought I'd pop on and update.

Take care everyone

Hope your daughter's ok Stace and that things go well for her in hospital.  

J 

Hi,

Sorry to hear about your daughter can't imagine what you must be going through. Maybe you'll think I'm being harsh but what do you think matters most ?. A mum who can be there for her every minute  or one who'll do the best she can in between gambling bouts. Please don't think me cruel I simply don't want you to be like me a s--t parent cos when you look back & realize you can't recreate the past I truly believe it hurts you much more than them. Sometimes they forgive but believe me Stace they never forget.

Best

Al

Hi jess, thankyou very much, she's still currently having tests but is on medication and doing ok..thanks for your post ?

Hi al, I don't think your being harsh at all..I listen and take on board everything everyone says to me. My daughter is ill, times like these I realise even more how much my family need me. I have to be the strong one, the one who can reassure the children when there upset, scared or ill. Not the mum who's stressed after a gambling episode. Thanks for your post ?

I'm not counting days no more, each day gf for me is a huge achievement,  when I log in it shows me how many days gf I am, and today I'm 20 days gf. The fog is lifting, and I can feel the old me, the happier me, slowly appearing again. ? Just need my beautiful little girl better now. 

Stace

Day 22, still not gambling.. not even thought bout it.. I'm counting my blessings..family especially my kids are my world, never letting them down again. ?

Lots to say, but no energy to write it, so will keep it short.....

Day 25 gf, I'm feeling ok and doing ok ???

Stace

Been a terribly difficult week but am 27 days gamble free. One day at a time.

? life is like a book. Some chapters are sad, some are scary, some are good , some are exciting, but if we never turn the page, we will never know what the next chapter brings?

⭐ NEVER GIVE UP, BECAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW IF THE NEXT TRY IS GOING TO BE THE ONE THAT WORKS⭐