Online slots...

Arghhhhh !
A burnt Albert ....nasty lol

Cheers Hun as I've just said to Al it's not something I'm actively looking for the situation in in at the minute does not suit but I did have an enjoyable day/evening I'll go with the flow I ain't chasing I did enough of that when I was gambling and it never turned out well, just take it a day at a time and see what happens the day at a time approach is working on gambling so why not on the rest of life's challenges.

KTF

Morning Luuuuvly ,

Now rumour has it , that back in the day when Disco ruled and I was in my prime I was considered quite a good dancer and would always be found at the Mecca on a Friday and Saturday night ( before bingo took over ) boogieing the night away , thankfully there's no actual film footage around that would prove otherwise , so I'm clinging to that memory of being wonderfull on the dance floor . That being said the real truth may come out in spectacular fashion in Italy and my daughter witnessing her dad throwing his shapes around the dancefloor to the sound of Donna Summers "Hot Stuff " , well !! Hopefully what happens in Italy stays in Italy but knowing my girl and my partner it will be recorded by at least 27 camera phones and used at every opportunity in the future :)) .

I'm quite lucky in fact because many of my family have no rhythm at all ( sometimes wonder how they managed to have kids ?) my uncle and aunt who are going basicly just line dance or jive to everything because they go to clubs apparently ? but I think the money could have been better spent on some nice emulsion for the lounge :)) , my partner just basicly throws herself around wildly ( my kinda girl ) so I've every chance of looking pretty good , I have been caught dancing in the shop before , when I'm closed and the 80s classics are blaring in the background , there's nothing like frying to tghe sounds of Earth , Wind and Fire but the trouble is I forget how big my shop windows are ? .

I've got some really good pills from the nice Lady doctor which seem to help my old pins at the mo and I went to see my surgeon yesterday whos gonna try and get my injections done before we go , no promises but worth a shot , on tiop of which he's offered me a hip replacement , this year , next year or whenever I feel I want to go ahead so they'll be no stopping me once I get my Bionic replacement :)).

Wow ! what a load of rambling tosh that was , expect your glad you asked now Loxxie ?

Same time tommorow ? LOL ! xx

Argh
"I've won the jackpot"...story in my magazine..
Wonder if the lady proudly holding her cheque will end up here like me !
Will she become another compulsive gambler like me...who lied. ..missed time with family and friends...manipulated people and situations so I could play online...
Who knows !
What I do know as a compulsive gambler. ..one more spin for me will be the start of the nightmare all over again....so I will work hard today...t ommorrow and everyday to never revisit those days that started as a bit of fun !
Stay safe x

I'm always suspicious of those stories I'm sure they are a set up to lure their target market in. The biggest growth area I see in gambling is the female market. I assume they won on bingo which I don't think is the issue its the temptation of the slots at the side of the site the quick fix. nearly always a big win early, it's easy money well it's easy money for the sites when they get you hooked.

Sorry a little rant then

Sadly I think there true...I can remember when I had a win...they sent me chocolates and offered me £100 to print my story...I declined obviously as I was playing in secret !
But whilst we all know sites are "governed and regulated "...it's the inticing and ways to keep you play ing that annoy me....reverse withdrwal being another way...I can't see any logical reason for that facility ....except to keep you playing.
Anyway. ..I just would like to see warnings in place ...like on the
f*g packets..."gambling can be addictive"...maybe one day this may happen...for me ...who can now see how these sites manipulate players it adds to my determination to not get sucked back in....for new players it's just luring them in

Totally agree, we are currently creating a generation of gamblers ! I was suckered in by them and I bet there are so many others currently going down that path and end up here.

Anyhow, thanks Loxxie for your kind words recently it is much appreciated! Love the last post and the determination you show!

Thanks rose. ..
Drizzling in Devon..again !
But I'm alive and my family are safe....feeling so sorry for all caught up in last night's tragedy in France..
At least we're all here...we all have another day to look forward to...another day to cherish our loved ones....another day to do whats right ...for us...for our families. ...worth a thought isn't it..
So....another gamble free week notched up....great...but not really worries about keeping count anymore....because for me my recovery will never end....because I intend to always work at being a better person ....a honest person...to always...pause and think things through...to look at life from other people's point of view...to understand how other people feel..
Why...am I doing all this...because I want to....because I can...because I'm no longer a prisoner to an online slot machine...and that's how I plan to remain ..
Have a great weekend people's. ..be safe...be kind...be honest ! x

Thanks Loxxie for your words of encouragement always good to hear from yer me luvverly :)).

Still stressing but I know its becuse the day is fast approaching and I've still loads to do and not much time to do it in but I'll keep an eye on myself and will be straight back here for a good talking to from you and the rest of the posse if I think I need it ?.

Sorry to hear about yer little sheep dilema , Hope you told em to " Flock off " and leave your Tubs alone but hey , Ewe being Ewe I'm sure you coped just fine :)).

Off to the garden centre again then I suppose ? , have a great day Lox and stay safe honey .

Love and best wishes to you and your's AL xx

How you doing kid been a while since I've heard some positivity coming from these parts.

Ooh ktf....yep....all good down here in sleepy devon...pubs been mega busy...keeping me on my toes. ..struggling a bit to cope with 2nd - job...but know once the cricket seasons over and the grockles have left....I will be in need of the extra Income again...so at the moment I feel like a juggler with all my balls in the air...! but I'm a toughy. ..so keep plodding on lol
Hubby...kids..grandkids...all rickety boo at the moment....but hey ho...never say never lol
Got a stinking cold ...but I'm female so it is just a cold...not man flu ! ; )
Time seems to be wizzing past so fast...or maybe I'm just getting slower with age lol..who knows
Sooooo.....with 200 gamble free days fast approaching....life's good....life's better....but then...all my adopted big brothers on here told me it would be when you all scooped me up all those days ago....xxx

yeah not far off 200 days its flown by, great to see you keeping busy and hope the cold clears up in time for you to celebrate the 200 days milestone but as you say you are a female so will abttle on through the agony.

KTF

Tough lot you bird's aren't you ! I'd be layed up in bed for weeks if I had man flu but not you Lox eh , soldiering on like a real trooper :))

Sorry your not feelin so good hun so hope you feel better soon .

Yeah at some time I need to drag myself "Kickin n Screaming " into this century and get on FB , I'll give it a go after all the holidys have died down a bit and catch up a bit more with you all .

Tough about the second job but like me , needs must Lox and all the pennies help :))

What you on now 196 ? , way to go girl , I was just wondering if I'd be about for the celebrations but should be as I'm here till Monday so I'll catch up with you again before then hun .

Take care of yourself Lox , stay safe and stay busy xx

So...another gamble free milestone ...200 days since I last played online slots !
Am I proud...?
Yes of course I am. ..those early days after I held my hands up and admitted I was a compulsive gambler were hell. ..I remember feeling every emotion at some point...fighting the urges to run back to my beloved slots...trying to move forward with relionships...sort out fiances. ..being open and honest with my counsellor. ..I remember feeling battered mentally...head spinning just like a slot machine...
But slowly....very slowly taking one day at a time...days into weeks...week's into months life improved...everything improved..relionships..finances..mental health...the whole lot !
I'm one of the lucky ones....I've got family and friends who have been amazing with my addiction....but actually it was me who changed things....me who set up blocks...self excluded for life...changed my routine. ..kept busy...showed financial transparency when needed...
So I done it...myself..because I wanted to....I've worked hard each and everyday to understand how I fell under the dark cloak of a compulsive gambler...I understand that now...I can see how I got addicted...life's no bed of roses...but at least mine's not complicated any more with my addiction being my only thing on my mind....I've faced things several times in the last few weeks that would have sent me to slot land before....well not now...I can deal with carp without slots !
If I'm honest...and I've tried to imagine it...do I miss playing slots....well I think I do a bit...do I miss the s**t that came when the addiction kicked in ?. .do I hell !
So ...for me it all seems quite simple now as I face the rest of my life....I'm a compulsive gambler......who as long as I never take that first spin again will be fine....and that's what I intend to do....I will end this load of waffle the same way i did 200 days ago ....please let my strength continue x

Congrats Loxxie...excellent work and reward for your hard work