If staying away from gambling sites isn’t hard enough, large institutions such as PayPal now being freely available on gambling sites makes life even harder. Using it somehow desensitised me and distanced me from the fact I was using my bank account. Also it takes up to 4 days to come out of your bank so again encourage me to play. You don’t even have to enter any details just one ping as finger sensitive log in!! I am not shifting the responsibility that at the end of the day I chose to gamble but it seems the whole world of finance is making it easier.
Finding it very hard to stop thinking about gambling. More I tell myself how bad it is for me, the more I have urges. Am out tonight so no worries there an tomo out for mother’s day so hoping will help with the urges getting less strong.
Had a lovely night out. Don’t even think about gambling when I am having fun. Bit edgy now but am out for mother’s day meal tonight.
Well back to day 1. Reading the few posts I put on I don’t think I was ready to realise I had to give up completely and it must be a lifestyle change. Found it harder before to self exclude from all networks but now have pressed those buttons so done. Know it won’t be easy but have to approach with a more determined attitude.
Minnie, it does sound way too easy to get cash via paypal and then the entire addiction on top of that ease. In the usa it's harder to online gamble and I thank my lucky stars that my attempts failed because of all the steps. 13 plus years in casinos and $$$ down the drain along with how other areas of life suffered as well. Good to get those blocks in place for the online betting as it's way too easy ... but, you are doing it! bravo... keep on going and all the best. tara2
Thank you for support. Having been having a terrible time trying to find other outlets. Think it’s been such a long addiction that will take a while to ween off that need. Will continue but very miserable
Early hours of the morning an still awake. Think it’s the dislike of myself that’s stopping me settling. But it’s a new month so am going to keep trying to stop thinking of what I feel I am missing. Feel so selfish especially when I see my daughter struggling for money an yet I have flittered money away over the years without a thought. So angry with myself. Am going to bed but will have a restless night
Hi Minnie. What an addiction - you know it's wrong, you know that in the long run it only brings misery but yet you still yearn for it. It's pull is amazing.
Console yourself with the fact that you are now questioning those feelings. You are now stopping, thinking and evaluating the situation.
We also know that it's the addiction that makes us dislike ourselves - yes, none of us are perfect but this addiction makes us recognise all the bad in ourselves when really there's so much good that gets forgotten about and trampled all over in our efforts to try to make sense of why we throw our money away.
We're not bad people, we fell for the tricks of the gambling trade, we're not on our own, now we've just got to get back onto the right path. The path that allows us to be the parent that inwardly, we know we are already.
We can do this because we're worth it!
All good wishes x
Thank you Little Miss Lost, your comments are so true and give me hope. Typical but haven’t thought about gambling today as family party. Wish there was a party everyday lol as would be so occupied reakon I could beat this addiction hands down. Am now determined to get my finances in order and as put safeguards in place, will be able to see through the fog. All the best to you too
Feeling better today. More upbeat. Off to town (do stamp my feet a bit that can’t spend on myself due to wasting money on gambling but remind myself won’t always be the case) nice day out though.
About a month ago got rid of my car as thought would save so much money but any monies went on gambling so getting buses but benefit is I have lost 4lbd in weight so only pounds I want to lose from now on lol
My friends are planning a cheap holiday abroad. Will have to juggle as in my overdraft but by not gambling I should able to make the instalments so good to have a goal but will be hard as still getting urges especially in the evenings.
Well twiddling my thumbs as normally on mobile slots. Will keep busy tomo as much as possible. Been eating more today than normal as not sure what to do to stop thinking about gambling yuk
Well it’s 1.30 in the morning an feel sad an angry all at the same time. So wish I had the willpower years ago to not gamble. Would have been in such a comfortable position an yet time an again I just selfishly gambled, never at the time thinking about the effect on my family. Keep strong out there as will be best decision you ever make
Well a good positive day. Out with parents an even though evenings normally hardest, I am feeling fine. Good luck to everyone out too
minnie16, Many people see gambling differently in that it can be an illness but i make sure i commit to recovery. glad your current way is helping. Keep being upbeat and looking for new ideas to stay stopped. tri
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