reborn on the 4th July

My phone is broke havin a mare will hopefully sort soon

Ok Castle ...hope you get back on line soon xx

Hey castle,

Hope everything is well your end, and you will get your phone fixed soon...missed your inspiring posts:)

take care and have a great weekend

Sandra x

Castle,

I hope all is well with you. Look forward to hearing from you soon. Hope you had a lovely weekend.

Tomso.

Yo,

Just wanted to thank you for your message of support xx

Just been watching Americas got talent , enjoyed every minute , spect Jess might have you roped into that as well. Lol

Hope things are ok with you , your holiday with Jess must be edging closer , no doubt more happy memories to be made 🙂

Take care Hun ,

Shiny xxxxxx

Castle

fella sorry to read your phone has been playing up, as i myself post using my phone or the library computers and my phone is nearing it's end, it seems to have a mind of it's own. I would like a new one with buttons that I can actually press with hitting six others at the same time!!!

I hope to see a return to your posting as the support you give others is missed when your not present.

An important part of our recovery has been found in this and I believe helps with our resolve to remain gamble free.

I am sure your free time has been spent well with that apple of your eye.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hey Castle ..

Just popping in to say hi...missed your posts but I am also as pleased as punch if you are out there living and having a wee break from the forum ...

As you know ..it's 24/7 here and refreshments always on the go...

R and D xx..back to normal transmission

Thanks everyone

Been a testing week, my phone froze last Thurs so had to send it away to be repaired or replaced fortunately I had insurance on it so just had to say 25 excess always a catch with anything for free, just received it through the post bout an hour ago

Jess been away for ten days now and missing her like mad but it has give me time to think , had some real tough days with loads of urges and came close to relapsing but stayed strong I thought it through and looked at the reasons why and it was boredom when I was working no problems when off I had too much time and wanted to do something, in the end it came down to a simple choice gamble or don't I followed all the logic I'if I placed that1st bet the result would be win and I would want to win more lose and I would av chased, the only way I could win was by not placing any bet and that was my choice, in my view a big test passed with jess been away no support in place with no access to this site from my phone

Off to work now on a late then an early so will catch up tomorrow

Hi Castle,

Thanks for your recent support I really do appreciate it and I can't wait until the Premiership starts, it is dragging now.

Great to read your last post, that's brilliant and I'm pleased you continue to make the right choices. You are more likely very bored and missing your daughter but this is a test you are passing with flying colours, just continue to make the right choices and stay strong.

Andy.

Hey Castle ..

Fact is ,..urges came , urges went and you didn't act on them..and identified the trigger of boredom.

You're making all the right choices ..be proud! Xx

Hi Castle

Thanks for the post and I am delighted that my diary helped you resist your urge, long may your abstinence continue.

Years ago I always operated as you describe by placing random bets every time I went to place a sports bet or collect winnings. I have gradually become better at dividing the two types.

My summary was that the sports bets I place are analysed and selected and the stake decided at home calmly and under no stress or time restriction and the events start and finish while I am at home.

Random bets are available continously from opening to closing time, involve little or no analysis and are made in a rush, in an environment where if I do not win quickly I become stessed and anxious and staked amounts increase to ludicrous levels - just a recipe for financial disaster.

Even after dividing the two I think the main reason it has taken me so long to get to this stage is that I love the rollercoaster buzz of random and its all too easy to remember the winning days. I have had more winning days than losing days but the pattern of winning 15 times then losing it all and more just couldnt continue. Being focused on remembering the dreadful losing days has been key, allied to an acceptance that I needed to acknowledge and start to deal with my financial situation properly.

Hey Castle,

Yes you are absolutely right, we have to accept good and bad days. i knew from the start it's not going to be easy ride, life altogether is not easy, but i suppose every day just makes us stronger.

Very well done for staying strong for the past week, it was real test for you. I sometimes think how would i cope having too much time on my hands and no access to this site. You passed the test my friend and i'm so proud of you.

May long it continues, you deserve all the best in this journey.

Day at a time, that's the key

Take care and thank you for continued support.

Sandra x

Thanks everyone

Back at work and no urges at all just got Friday to contend with but then jess is back the next day so hopefully back to normality and dare I say routine lol which is scary has my parents are ruled by it but its what I need its tried and tested and it works

Its been a weird two weeks without jess missed her loads of course but like I said it gave me chance to think to take stock of my life now the divorce has gone through it leaves me with such a huge opportunity to move forward and put the past behind me

Been thinkin a lot bout relationships with my ex and friend from work on my side giving everything and getting nothing in return this has def made me feel more cautious goin forward and changed my views on been to open and giving one of the downsides to been a nice guy is certain people will take advantage I now I can't change that but I can play my cards closer to my chest next time, at the moment I'm quite happy on my own with jess not a lot of stress which is good and certainly not looking if anything does happen it will be when I least expect it

Last weeks resisting the urges have me a real boost

To carry on from there this new phone is giving me grief posting lol

Fighting the urges boosted me big time as remembering as well it was the start of the football season something which I was worried bout so really pleased and proud on that front

Comin up to a fair few weeks now and long may it continue I just keep telling myself I want that better life

And I do

Well done mate avoiding them urges and getting through your time without jess must've been a hard week and with the footy season starting as well. Thanks for the post, helped getting it all out and maybe your right. I just to focus on the here and now and the rest can be dealt with as and when it arrives - I will try. Cheers castle.