Rock bottom again

My internet was down first thing this morning as I ran out Off electricity and never read my posts before I went out.

That would have rearmed my mind......

Gambling has a way Off trying to make you forget all the s**t you go though..

I am going to win today as am not betting at all..

going to pay my bills and get ready to go back to work.

Keep busy with painting or something

Hi and well done. I realised last weekend that I must never gamble again. I ended up with a 1.5k overdraft. Luckily I start a new job on monday, so will pay it back over the next few months. My sister has been fab, as I owe her money aswell (not gambling).

I still feel very low, as I was tempted last night but have changed my passwords etc to make it more difficult.

I cannot beleive how sick I feel at what I have done. Many emotions I am sure we have all felt and pretending to the outside world that everything is fine.

My mind is looking at the worst case scenarios...what if I am sacked? what if my husband finds out? why can I not turn the clock back? how am I going to hide the fact that I am earning more than I am telling my husband?

Sorry if I am nicking your thread buzz but I found your situation very similar to mine. Onwards and upwards my friend and keep going x take care

Hi Rose

Well done in identifying that your gambling is a problem. it is hard to deal with the financial nightmare.. For me the penny has dropped i can never gamble again ...but i am aware it will try pull me in....

I was nearly tempted today i even went in the bookies, It was a surreal feeling though i knew i never wanted to go back and felt sorry for the people in there not knowing whats to come.

I have put barriers in-place to limit the danger area.. change bank cards banned myself from sites , not much cash on me etc.

Its imported to remember things get better once you have stopped, I feel better after one week and am excited how happy i can be in a gamble free future.

Yeah because i kept my problem secret when i even won i could int spent it , close family would then know so pointless

thanks for your support

Hi

I failed again lost my last couple of hundred on Saturday done so well Friday too.

This time i am not accepting it just going to step up the meetings and posts , new ways to think up limited access to cash.

I am pleased it robbed my like a mug took me a hour to lose a weeks work.

Glad i never got the win as i ken that would be worse.

Could have bet more but managed to sort something out

Gutted

hello

Feeling ok today not had a bet and never really thought about it

long way away till i get money must work on that coming .Going to try and get to a meeting this week.

I feel so low just can't seem to find the energy to beat this , I feel like a slave , i work for nothing