So far so good

@bladesman wow that is amazing its shows it is possible to have a gamble free life i am on day 908 g/f so i too have seen some progress i have only come to terms with 18 years of destruction and what it has cost me which coming on here i have learnt u have to move past it and learn to forgive yourself do i miss gambling hell no the only regret i have why couldnt have put the same emphasis on my recovery sooner this is something which does play in my head from time to time the truth is it doesnt matter what matter now is my present and my future and by you sharing it helps alot of people yes think can change for the better

Hi Bladesman

I have just read through all of your diary!! Just wanted to say a huge congratulations for coming this far 👏👏👏. Especially going through your recovery during Covid and all the other ups and downs you experienced. You are to be truly commended for remaining g.f👌.

Keep enjoying life with your wife and family.

Something in your diary which stuck out for me was when you wrote …….

“I am not a bad person, I just did something bad”!

That completely resonates with myself.  During Covid, I gambled 27K of my own hard earned money/a small portion of the equity I had made from selling my previous property 🙈. For someone who sees herself as being “sensible” 99.9% of the time, I just could not believe I had resorted to allow my gambling to waste my precious money like this 🤷🏻‍♀️. If anyone would have said to me “hand over 27k of your money for it to be put down the drain”, I would have thought it ludicrous!! Yet that is exactly what I did do.

I, like you, try not to dwell on this and remind myself that “it was my own money (although I know this sounds very selfish of me) and as a naturally generous person, this did not sit well with me 👎. However, like you, I am just trying to move on, not look back to these times too much and remain g.f and back to my normally sensible self.

Wishing you and your family a happy and healthy 2026.

Pink Lady 🩷🍎.

@tazman Hi Tazman, thanks for your message and big congrats for 908 days. It's amazing what you are doing and wish you well for the future!

@j5a6meyr4z Hi and thanks for your message. I think as the days count up our minds become clearer and we start to think logically again. As you say the sensible part of us would never have done what we did but it gets a hold of you, chasing losses you realistically know you will never recover but keep going. The main things for me I think were accepting what I had done and that what was lost was gone, realising I'm not the bad person I though I was and looking forward not back. It takes a lot of willpower but with the blocks in place and support you get through the bad days knowing there will be better days ahead. 

Keep rolling those days up, all the best

@bladesman Thank you 👍