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Day 126

Del

Fella keep adding to those days.

re the cycling my friend it might be skinting your bank balance but it gifts you a product

As a pose to the bookies which gifted me nothing except a cache of sh#it pens lol!!!

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Cheers Dunc

Day 127 and just over 1 month to my new job and a new life!

Day 128

The brown stuff has hit the fan!!!!

A while back i bumped into the counseller i saw at the CAB when i was out with my partner. Nothing was said because she knew my partner which was awkward but nothing was said. Phew.

But last night my partner went out and met the mutual person and she told my partner how she knew me! I told the counseller at the time that my partner did not know that i was seeking advice!

My partner went off on one last night(to be expected) she knew i had a gambling problem but didnt know that i went for advice!

My blood is boiling that a Citizens advive gambling counseller had broken the confidence of her job!

What shall i do as i feel like dropping her in it poo!

Del

fella I don't think you will like my view but it is an honest one.

This is a small world, one in which secrets tend to not stay that way.

The question I would ask is did the counselling help? Was this person good at there job? .

if so why feel so angry.

I can play out many sinarios some of which your partner may have led the conversation, it happens.

Addiction will try to use this, plant a seed, give you a reason to go

Back at it?

you have worked to hard to be angry.

don't

lesson learnt honesty is the best policy.

There is no shame in taking help, the shame is when we don't.

f**k I didn't for twenty years!

keep making the right choice

abstain and maintain

duncs stepping forward never back.

Del

fella I don't think you will like my view but it is an honest one.

This is a small world, one in which secrets tend to not stay that way.

The question I would ask is did the counselling help? Was this person good at there job? .

if so why feel so angry.

I can play out many sinarios some of which your partner may have led the conversation, it happens.

Addiction will try to use this, plant a seed, give you a reason to go

Back at it?

you have worked to hard to be angry.

don't

lesson learnt honesty is the best policy.

There is no shame in taking help, the shame is when we don't.

f**k I didn't for twenty years!

keep making the right choice

abstain and maintain

duncs stepping forward never back.

I agree with you mate but what has made me angry is that the counseller new that my partner didnt know but she still told her which has broken the confidence in her job. TBH she could get into a lot of trouble if i went to the CAB with this! Why she had to say anything i dont know!

Anyway its all out in the open now and the sessions didnt do me any good anyway, being on her has helped me abstain for 128 days!

Del

Fella for me the point of my post was to raise the point you have grabbed by the short and curly's!! That the most important thing is you don't take the anger and have a punt.

The only loser would be you fella,the effort you have given recovery deserves more than that,

For making the right choice a huge well done.

Regards doing what's right,I couldn't agree more,could a different situation this counseller deals with in confidence have greater effects if she can't keep it in the 'room'

So maybe talking honestly to someone at the CAB is the right thing to do.

My advice do what your head tells you to,you are a rational thinking top fella,you make the call on where to take the knowledge,in truth I believe only you can.

All the very best

Duncs stepping forward never back

Morning del

Wishing you strength and positivity this morning to cope and deal with issues

Keep going keep riding that bike but most of all keep abstaining

Pushing you along lol

Suzanne xx

Day 129 and all good here.

Hi del

Well done 129days and staying strong

Suzanne xx

Day 130

Thanks suzanne.

My partner now knows everything and all is cool and i am not going to drop her freind who dropped me in the poo in it.

So 130 days and counting.

Steve

Hi del

We have to be honest otherwise we cannot 100% commit ourselves to abstaining

Very well done on being honest and keeping your cool and rising above the situation

fighting gambling makes us stronger in other areas in a strange way cos we can rise above it and hold our heads up high cos we are winning del cos we are not playing keep strong and positive day 130 be proud

Suzanne xx

Day 131.

Thanks Suzanne.

Knackered now after a very hard bike ride last night and over slept but wasnt late for work. Just over 4 weeks until my career change. Happy days.

Morning del

You are doing fine stay strong think HAPPY DAYS

Suzanne xx