Starting my recovery journey

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(@karenca)
Posts: 21
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Today is day 3 gamble free. I feel a little irritated I don’t know if it’s because im not working today and I would usually spend all day on online slots. Just need to try and find myself a hobby that will keep me busy and take my mind off gambling. I have promised myself that I will not turn back this time. 

 
Posted : 13th March 2022 4:04 pm
Walliss77
(@walliss77)
Posts: 180
 

Hi Karenca, 

It's quite normal to suffer irritability and restlessness when you start to separate from addiction. When I stopped my wife nearly moved me out because I was so bothered by everything and everyone. If you stick with it the withdrawals will gradually subside over the next couple of weeks.

Well done for making the change. 

Kind regards 

 
Posted : 13th March 2022 4:22 pm
(@karenca)
Posts: 21
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@walliss77 Hi and Thankyou for your reply. 

i was thinking about starting jigsaw puzzles again like I used to with my grandma and then I remembered I have no patience ? 

once the weather starts getting nice maybe I’ll get back out on my bike. 

 
Posted : 13th March 2022 5:10 pm
Walliss77
(@walliss77)
Posts: 180
 

Hi Karenca,

That sounds like a good plan to get outside on your bike once the weather is suitable. 

I found it so difficult to have motivation to do other things when I first stopped gambling because my emotions/feelings would change from one moment to the next.

When I look back over my 25yrs of gambling I would generally only stop for a few week in-between paydays and never fully allow myself to come out of the other side of the withdrawals. 

In the early days I had to just wake up and tell myself that I only have to get through 12 hours by doing 1 day at a time. I found as an addict I'm very good at complicating the most simple things. Say that I was stopping forever was far too scary to face but just keeping it as 1 day recovery made it very possible. 

I found that as the days, weeks and months passed I started enjoying the most simple things such as nature/wildlife which would have never held my interest whilst still gambling. 

 

 
Posted : 13th March 2022 5:23 pm
spendspendspend
(@spendspendspend)
Posts: 75
 

Well done on stopping I’m not even on day one yet and feel a bit scared already but like you I no I have no choice can’t do it myself so have put blocks in place today x

 
Posted : 13th March 2022 11:52 pm
(@karenca)
Posts: 21
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Day 4 being gf. I’m sure I had a dream about online slots last night ? 

other than that feeling positive and looking forward to all the things I can do when I get paid. I feel like a weight has lifted. 

 
Posted : 14th March 2022 2:04 pm
(@karenca)
Posts: 21
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Day 5 gf. Long day at work so it’s keeping my mind of gambling. Can’t say I’ve even thought about been busy thinking about all the things I can do in the future. 

won’t be able to join the group chat today but will be joining tomorrows ☺️

 
Posted : 15th March 2022 4:54 pm
gadaveuk
(@gadaveuk)
Posts: 1732
 

Hi

It is a healthy choice to abstain from unhealthy habits and getting connected with healthy like minded goal seeking people.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave Of Beckenham UK

 

 
Posted : 15th March 2022 8:36 pm
gadaveuk
(@gadaveuk)
Posts: 1732
 

@karenca 

Hi

I found that my recovery was very much like a jigsaw.

I had no clue how recovery worked for me.

Yet once I started to understand more the edges of the jigsaw started to fit together.

I started to understand more.

I was so lost so confused, I had lost all faith and hope in myself.

Now today I no longer want unhealthy habits in my life today.

It is because I value myself more than at any time in my life.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave Of Beckenham UK

 
Posted : 16th March 2022 2:06 am
(@karenca)
Posts: 21
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Day 6 gf. Today I managed to go for a driving lesson something I’ve been trying to do for so long but because I kept gambling all my money away I couldn’t afford it. 

After 6 days of not gambling I have finally been able to do this. This is a massive achievement for me and I don’t want to have to stop now so this will remind me to stay away from gambling 

 
Posted : 16th March 2022 4:58 pm
gadaveuk
(@gadaveuk)
Posts: 1732
 

@karenca 

Hi

Taking driving lessons is a healthy action.

It is productive it is a healthy choice.

Staying committed to our self is very important.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave Of Beckenham UK

 
Posted : 16th March 2022 6:58 pm
(@haystack0915)
Posts: 106
 

@karenca - hey, it’s been a long time! I had a slip up and had to restart, but I’m now on day 13 gf today! I hope you are doing well & still on your journey, keep fighting and stay strong - you’ve got this x 

 
Posted : 26th April 2022 9:48 am
(@juicyj)
Posts: 24
 

Today is day 1 for me I have put all the blocks in place I  finding it hard though already but I have got me calendar and diary in front of me and I'm writing down everything I want and want to achieve 

 

Because I want a better life for myself I know its going to be hard as I have been a secret gambler for years spent thousands I have never never been in debt I have always payed my bills until this year where I have been getting loans and payday loans I don't want to be this person anymore I want a life before I lose everything because I have my own house a great partner that is amazing and my everything a great family great friends but this is me saying out loud to my self now if I don't stop today and mean it that's it everything has gone everyone will walk and I lose everything 

Sorry for going on I just need the help and anyone that has any ideas to help me with the urges and thoughts would be amazing thank you 

 
Posted : 26th April 2022 10:10 am
(@karenca)
Posts: 21
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@haystack0915 hey, how are you? I’m sorry to hear that you’ve had a slip but well done for coming back and well for being 13 days gf ☺️I’m doing okay I’m 47 days gf and still going strong. Been so busy lately that I haven’t had chance to join the group chat but I must find time to join. Stay strong you can do this! X

 
Posted : 26th April 2022 1:42 pm
(@haystack0915)
Posts: 106
 

@karenca I’m doing good! This time round seems abit easier, I save £1 a day to a jar for each day gf?. How are the jigsaws coming along, haha? 
You’re doing amazing, keep at it! You’re smashing it. 
take care x 

 
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