My last time of dealing with my demon was October 2020, it’s been a struggle but I’m still clean, I’m finding each day I’m getting stronger, it’s easier to make decisions and I feel sharper and more awake. I overcome a cannabis addiction, opiate addition and this devil of a gambling addiction which I battled all 3 for many years (the gambling being the worst and longest) I had weeks of physical and mental pain but I’ve done this. I’m a full time carer to my daughter, I’ve no support network as all my family kicked me to the curb oh and to throw in the mix I also got ditched last October too which was a long term relationship, I’ve pushed many people away as felt I was a failure in every area of my life, despite all this My life still is better, I know I’ll never go back to my vices, if I can do this I have faith in other people with this god awful illness, life is hard but is better without my vice now. I’m lucky if I get 4 hours sleep a night as I can’t switch off, I’ve still told no one as I’m ashamed but I’m secretly proud of myself of what I’ve overcome, I’m saving for my future, I’m facing decisions I’ve put off and  can’t believe how strong i am...there is truly hope for everyone, believe in yourselves!Â
Well good for you!
I can read that you have been through a lot and I see where your motivation is coming from. Falling down is not an alternative so you might as well stay up. Remind yourself from time to time where you are and how you got there. When it comes to sleep Imagine that you breathe in and exhale through your heart. That is a calming thing to do and should help. There are a few more things you can do but start with this one exercise. I find it does wonders for me.
Best
C
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