Taking responsibility of my life

another week is over I finally have time to stop by and reflect, it's been a strange week work really started to get on top me something that's not happened in this job, but instead of letting it take over I stood my ground made sure I finished early on Wednesday to take the youngest to his football training, I know in the past I would have put work first, called him and let him down in the hope that maybe his mum could take him, not any more I stood by my word and he had a great time.

Normal if things get on top of me I would unwind in the bookies a specially when I'm home alone but I have managed to stay in total control I've come home cooked eaten properly and got some good sleep no staying up till 4 am playing just been a normal person.

It's never too late to change, I can't change my past I lost my wife because of this but not my kids they see who I have become and want to spend more time with me I can never go back now, braking your child's hearts once is bad enough. I love my life now no self pity no trying to punish my self it's In the past locked away I'm moving forward every day. I hope we all have safe week head

Hi, thanks for posting on my diary...yes let's pull that lever and banish gambling forever. I also am finding it harder than ever to let go of the paSt but we can do no more than not gamble and look ahead. Also it shines through that your family and recovery come first now.So be kind to yourself and enjoy your children as the grow up so quickly, have a great GF week S 🙂

It's finally here day 100, sure I've been here before at some point, but was I been honest with myself in the past probably not, but this time I know that's it's 100 days without gambling a single penny, not as much as a lottery ticket, and in those 100 days I lived life had fun, spent time with my boys and never looked back. I knew that one day I could retake control of my life and I am well on the way to doing it.

You can't change the past so just let it go, take what you have today and move forward. It's 167 days to Christmas and that's my next big target that will but me on 267 when I make it, but I'll keep an eye on something a little more short term and 150 will be a stepping stone.

Keep safe one and all and make sure you smile to yourself in the morning and stay GF.

Question for those who follow my dairy, I'm invited to a family BBQ tomorrow got a 30th b/day party but it has a las vagas theme, should I go and not take part, or avoid 103 days without gambling I really don't know which way to tackle it.

Any way on an up, should finally get the keys and get to move in to my house in 2 weeks only 2 months after completing.

Belated congratulations on 100 day, fantastic achievement, here's to the next 100 and beyond S:)

Been a while since I was last here, been a lot longer since I gambled still enjoying the gamble free life style, doing what I want when I want. Did have a few thoughts recently but I know it would never be just a £xx so put them out my mind and did something more fun with my time, even if was just watching a movie. I now have more talk about when out around other normal people which makes been out and about much easier.

Even one stay GF and enjoy life

Hi screwball thanks for posting earlier and great to see you still GF on 113 days. I know not gambling opens up a new you and a new world, It'S great to be in control again. Take care and have a great GF week and beyond S:)

Evening diary, well it's been a long time since I was last here but for once it's not because I am ashamed and failed, this time it's because I finally got the keys to my house and have been so busy making it my home, and had to fit a weekend break away with my boys because finally I didn't give my money away I've put every penny to having fun and making my future brighter and happy. Over the last few days the thought of buying a lottery ticket have popped into my head mainly after hearing an advert for the jackpot but I've not given in life's to good to risk it.

To everyone here keep safe and keep GF.

Thanks so much for popping by with kind words, equally am really glad your enjoying your GF life. Putting family and your wellbeing first feels awesome doesn't it? Fab to hear from you, take care S:)

Belated happy 200 days! Enjoy your new house and a GF future, take care S:)

I know I’ve left it some time since my last post, but not much has been happening just getting on with life, enjoying time with my boys and even helping out with coaching his football team now, much more fun than just taking him and watching from the sidelines, but even tho I’ve hit that magic 200 now the best I’ve ever done the odd thought keeps creeping back, “who would know if I” the answer is simple I would know and been honest with yourself is the biggest step to been in control, yer it may not hurt anyone but we all know no matter what the out come would be win or loss it would never stop there and I would be back to day1 week 1 sleeps night and feeling sick something I don’t miss. So even with the thoughts I just stay away enjoy what I have and wake up with no regrets from the day before, we all wish we could have done this sooner but unless you can time travel that’s never going to change so no point in dwelling on it, I have a new life ahead of me and those people who stuck with me in my darkest days can now enjoy it too.

Take care all and enjoy your GF weekend

Fabulous to hear you enjoying the GF life for yourself and boys, your so right being honest with yourself is half the battle. Have a great weekend and take care S:)

Congratulations Screwball on 202 Days GF. Great to see you doing so well.

Thanks S and Abstainer for stopping by great to see others still have the time to stop by and check in on others something I really must start to, I have taken a lot from this site but having failed so many time never felt that posting on others was appropriate, but now I feel I can. I dont have the answer but I know what/where I was when my life changed