Taking responsibility of my life

Afternoon, this really isn't the place to vent this but this is my only safe outlet and by been here it's stopping from going elsewhere and doing something stupid.

Went to pick my lad up this morning only to find that the ex had left her new fella alone in the house with him, but it wasn't until I got back to drop him off, I found out she has actually moved him in the boxes I had seen before where not hers getting ready to move out but his moving in, in the next few days that house will become mine but I have said she and the boys could stay until her new house is sorted, why couldnt she just wait another month till she moved and had her own place not in your martial home, I'm fuming and was so close to going via the bookies on the way taking my anger out there but I'm not going to let her drag me down again I stayed strong I'm here now in a safe place. How long can I keep knowing to myself is the next question

Thank you diary for my saviour today

Hi, I think this is the place to vent...I know I do!! Big up for staying strong and not giving into temptation. Your doing great clocking up the GF days even though it's hard to stay GF when life throws lemons at you. But the amazing thing about this site is no one will judge you and I have found great support and comfort from emptying my thoughts out onto a post. Hang on in there and take care S 🙂

Thanks Sharon for your kind words hope your doing well. It's been a few days, but yesterday after going to pick my lad up for footy I finally snapped but not gambling I just texted the ex saying I never want to see, hear or speak to her again, after that everything feels good again and the days are still counting up. First time ever I didn't turn to gambling for answer, because I know now the answer I would have found would just have made me feel even worse. Hope everyone is having good day

It is truly amazing how much free time and even spare cash you have to do the things you want to do once you have stopped gambling, in the past I would want to go fishing but never could, but would always say to myself if I win more than x then I'll next week, stuff that now 2 out of 3 weekends spent on the lakes and still have more cash in the bank at this time of the month than before.

STOP live life, enjoy your time and stress will become a thing of the past.

Have a great weekend everyone

I know it'S like a switch in your head when you realise gambling will not solve anything just make life more stressful. It sure feels good sticking up for yourself and putting you and your children first. All good here ta, everyday I feel great waking up knowing I have no regrets from the night before and nothing to beat myself up about. Although I do sometimes stew over the past but am realising there is no point and as long as I stay GF that is the best I can do. Have a great weekend and take care S 🙂

Sharon your totally right about the switch thing, wish I knew what triggered it would help so many others on here, but the truth is it just happens over night you wake up on morning and your whole mind set and out look on gambling has changed, I've not even bought or looked at the lottery since that day

Screwball,

I have to say and this is a woman saying it, bad form of her to move her fella into your home, that you once shared! You didn't deserve that, but it says more about her than it does you. I take your point about having more time to do stuff when not gambling. I am finding that tough at the minute. Stay strong.

Julie x

Julie thanks for your kind words and if you ever need something to take up your spare time take up fishing and if you need someone to teach you I'm sure I could make time, have a great weekend

Thanks for the post mate. Enjoy the rest of the weekend

Totally agree with Julie, know quite a few friends who do a lot of verbal man bashing but you are being treated disgracefully, sad times 🙁 But I'm sure you can ride through and I'm sure will find someone who is worthy of you. Take care S 🙂

It's been a few days since I last updated, thanks for the kind words makes me feel it's not just me been bitter about the whole thing. Not much new has happened I've stopped going anywhere near the house at the moment as it just gets me so angry, so I now pick the boys up from the top of the estate, had a lovely evening out with them on Thursday it's such a great feeling to be able to take them out knowing there is money in the bank to cover what ever we want to do, boys seem a lot happier at the moment too, with the eldest talking non stop about this days, took them out again yesterday afternoon just for a few hours to see some super cars another great afternoon and I managed to get some nice photos of them enjoying the time cos I look back I have very few pics of them as it was always the ex who had the newest phone and took all the pics, or maybe I just was never there

Yesterday after I had dropped the boys off I had so much free time was worried how I was going to fill it had to keep very focused not to slip but before long I had filled my time and it was late and time for bed. 42 days and still in control hope everyone is having a fun GF weekend keep safe we can do it.

SB...your better off staying away from the house until that situation has moved on. Focus on the boys and your time with them. It is a worry at first, trying to fill time, but for me there is always stuff to do. Have a fab start to the week ahead.

Julie x

Day 51 and still feel totally in control even the £99 million on the lottery didn't tip me into parting with my cash,

Had a great weekend, great night out Saturday with some good friends at the comedy club in Nottingham haven't laughed so much in years, then to top it off took my boys out Sunday and on the way home told them that I wouldn't be free over the weekend as I have booked a fishing trip only for the eldest to ask if he could come too, now I don't mind that at all need to buy him a few bits of his own but there is still money there to be able to and means we get to spend 3 whole days together, so I'm looking forward to it even more now.

Thanks for all your kind words they help me see life is so much better, the money was always there I just lost it instead of enjoying it hears to another 50 days

Cant belive how much time has passed since my last post, so first thing first my days are still going up, no slips no lies just been enjoying life as its meant to be lived. Without any stress works keeping me busy and I`ve spent more time fishing this year and I did the past 2 years put together, life real has turned a corner and now i`m on a one way street theres no going back.

My son introduced me to a new game on my phone when we went fishing the other weekend its call Ballz and if you want something to fill a few hours of your day then its worth a look its free and will keep your mind clear of gambling, it may also steal a few hours of your sleep lol.

The house has finally completed just need the ex to move out and I can start the next chapture of my life, sofas are ordered and just waiting for an empty house to put them in, I hoped 2017 was going to be good year just didn`t think it would be this good so quickly and still another 6 months to go what else can happen to make it even better.

Time for bed take care all and stay GF together we will all win

Great to read your post and that you continue to be GF, fantastic!! The chance of a fresh start is a real gift so enjoy and I hope the immediate future brings you happiness for you and your boys, Take care S:)