Taking responsibility of my life

Morning soul, you are more than welcome to post here,

Well looks like it's going to be another good day, my daily routine is slowly changing, I have found time at night to get organised for the mornings, which in turn gives me time to come here, I could always find time for gambling if I wanted to, but time to sit and read, to get help got less & less in the past, this time it will be different. Staying positive I'm sure someone good can come from all of this

Over the last few weeks I have written my thoughts here others have and surported me on my journey and for that I am truly thankful, but it Is now time for me to keep my thoughts to myself as even now I am still hurting the ones I love my been here,

I am not giving up on my recovery nor will I give up on rebuilding a future with my children. I am just going

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Take care all, today I did not gamble.

Chris

Fella no man should be left alone to fight this addiction,I again offer my unconditional support

Why??

Because I have walked in those shoes,I am not here to judge,just to share a journey,hopefully one with an outcome that has a profound effect upon those who's lives I most affected.

I respect your words fella,if you want to talk away from the forum,I would be happy to exchange email details with you.

Do what is right for you,if you do,the rest of the jigsaw will start to piece together.

I wish you ever success

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hey guy and that's a lot to swallow on your own. Guess were all here if ya need us and hope ya find another means of support whether it be g.a. or one on one. Guess there's a lot to be said for that one on one but comes at a nice price tag too unless ya got some good form of insurance. Guess here in the states It's the first thing they ask when making that apt is for that insurance info. and yeah you ain't got it you don't get that apt either. LOL Yeah guess all compassion ends with dollar signs around here and sure hope it ain't the case there.

But yeah wishing you my best and hope things turn out nothing but rosy for ya. Don't forget were always here in that time of need and don't hesitate to use if things get bad with them urges.

Just thought I would drop by and have a read, the start of a new month, brings me 2 months into my recovery, I have just spent a week away with work, but by taking enough cash to live on there was no thought of gambling, that was always my down fall before was when I was away but all good this time. Going to be a hard few weeks now as the kids are away on the family holiday we booked back at Xmas. So may be about more just to help keep my mind focused.

Take care all today I did not gamble

Hi screw

Well done on abstaining stay strong and positive

Suzanne xx

Well Congrats on that 2 months and way to go. Nice update and hope things only get better for ya.

Thought It was time for an update, been a busy week at more time spent driving than working but has kept me busy and gambling well out of the picture, had time for dinner with my daughter at the start of the week which was great time to chat and see how her life is moving forward much faster than mine. In the next few weeks she will have her own place, whilst I'll still be living with my mum & dad.

Going to treat myself to an overnight fishing trip tonight first of the year but hope to get many more in.

The boys are away for another week in the sun sure they are having a great time just gutted I'm not there with them, and that's all because of gambling if ever there was a reason to stop I'm living it right now, just a shame I didn't manage it last time.

Take care all have a fab weekend and today I will not gamble

Hi screw

The aftermath of destructive gambling hits us hard after we have abstained but we have. To keep going forwards cos it is the only way to go for a happy and sane family life

Stay strong and keep going and well done in your days

Suzanne xx

Well way to go on them days and some good motivation going for ya. Hope ya enjoy the fishing and pull in some good ones. Keep doing what your doing cause It's working.

Wished & sole your comments keep me moving forward I guess I can now say I taken back some control of my life now it's just what to do next, I have found a job I enjoy I have stopped letting gambling rule my thoughts now I guess it time to plan a head a little not too far but no point in living in the past while everyone moves on.

3 fish on the bank and only 4 hours in some much more fun than wasting thousands for nothing more an heart ache.

Well time is ticking by it is now 10 weeks clean without as much as lotto ticket and last night I enjoy a night out, Time to chill and reflex on the past few months, it has been much easier this time round just wish I could have stuck to it last time life would be perfect now, but instead I'm back here life in limbo until such time as I find a jouction in the road. But today I did not gamble

Another day comes to an end, it's been a good one too work went well, and have plans to spend time with my daughter over the weekend. For someone who I have hurt so much in the past she still finds it within her to take to me and spend time with me. Although things are not get between us we seam to be able to find more time for each other now than before, we talk about rubbish most of the time but even so, it's the fact that we can talk and have a laugh that makes this whole recovery meaning full. Just hope I can do the same with my boys over time, so it's not always me calling them but they feel close enough to be able to call me when then need me. Today I did not gamble today I am a better person stronger and more determined to right my wrongs and to make a life worth living.

As today I read that life was so bad for one guy he jumped of a car park roof, that could have been me 10 weeks ago

Hi screw

You are doing do well and it's good you are seeing your kids that is so positive for you

Stay strong and focused

Suzanne x

Came here last night and read one diary that for first time I felt I should post on, but it did make me think if you don't keep not gambling at the front of your mind it don't take long for it to blind side you and sneak back in. They where finding it hard to get past the first few days, but every post started with the same thing another relapse could have been a few days apart but nothing positive inbetween, now I can understand why it was so important to my ex that I came on here every night, when I thought things where good I would let it slip a few days soon turned into once a week then longer gaps and before long the gambling started. So glad I now am able to come here most nights cos I'm not going to let it do it again. So to everyone on day 1 or 1000 this is the place to be to keep adding to them take care all stay safe today I did not gamble.